Congratulations, Love

"I'll admit that I love you, but I'm not allowed to anymore."

A Naruto Fanfiction – By: Little Miss AiLy

A/N: I'm putting the author's notes up here as to not ruin the atmosphere after the story. I don't know who it is she's talking about. I decided to keep it very vague, so fans can fill it in. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto. No arguments, no questions on this.

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I don't know why I couldn't just be happy for you and I'm sorry for that much. Though you'll never know it, I just have to admit that much to myself, at least. I can't help but feel the slightest bits of regret. We won't trudge on that territory though.

I won't say that I'm nearly in tears, because that just doesn't work. I don't do that. It is my own fault regardless, for I chose this life, or at least to live it so. I gave up the tears the second I tried to change.

I'm not so sure who it is I changed for any longer, me or the people surrounding me. Of course, you're among them. I'm not quite sure if I really did change as much as I thought though. Nii-sama insists that I did and, with your news, stood by to comfort me. Would you believe that? Nii-sama once held me at a distance unless in battle and now, he comes to me without request, just to say sorry. As if it were even his fault anyway, he sat by and held me close. I can count on him now. I wish I had other too though, but they're still being happy for you, as I should, instead of being so selfish.

In conclusion, I am so very sorry. I am sorry for being so selfish. What sort of progress have I made if I am still so very selfish, so very self-absorbed? I am a terrible person. Nii-sama insists otherwise. I am also sorry that I could not be the good friend I should be and be happy for you. I would love to say I am happy for you, but I cannot get myself to lie anymore than I can tell you this all. That is why I could only give you a small smile and equally small excuse of hopeless proportions. I couldn't tell you the truth; I never could. Is that as bad as lying? I'd answer myself with a yes, but this is directed to you, not me.

Nii-sama had me write this and says to burn it when I feel it's okay to let go. That may be a while.

I'll admit that I love you, but I'm not allowed to now. So, congratulations to you and her.

-Hyuuga Hinata

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