Learning to walk
By Aria.
Disclaimer: Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles is copyright of CLAMP, I make no profit from this fic.
And suddenly he had to learn how to walk all over again.
Magic, power, had always been a part of him, Fai, Yuui… no matter what he called himself he was a being who lived and breathed magic. Magic had flowed through his veins, its pulse both soothing and terrifying, but always present.
And now he had to learn how to walk, live, breathe without this pulse, without being able to feel the subtleties of the worlds that they journeyed to. Now he was alone, human senses, his only senses. No supernatural ones now, only basic, normal. No blue eyes but soft golden brown, tawny. The world, the universe seemed so bland, so pale, so faded, so boring now; the telltale signs of power hidden. Oh, he knew they still existed but that only made it worse. To know that they were present and yet absent, hidden from his sight forever.
A void, a sense of absence plagued him, half his soul seemed to be missing and maybe there was some truth in that statement. Fai was dead, his soul gone to eternal rest. He would never return. The sense of loss plagued him. Although he had accepted that his twin, the part of him that was missing, needed to pass on, finally be at peace. His being at peace brought him no peace. His whole body, his whole soul ached with the loss of the only one who could truly complete him. The same was true with his other loss. Although it had been his choice to give his power to Yuuko, the loss tore at his very sense of self. His soul cried for that absent part of him. And it was then that he knew, although he may accept what had happened, the ache would be present, always. But it was gone and he was empty, barely able to function with the loss.
He would simply have to learn how to walk all over again.