Hi I'm here with another story. Since my other hasn't gotten reviews and I'm not going to update until I get some. (hah I'm so demanding)
This one is Beast Boy and Raven fluff. Raven tries to figure out who she is, and what she wants and Beast Boy becomes closer to her as a friend and helps her. That's when she starts to figure out that maybe her future has something to do with the boy who was right beside her all along. But is she ready?
I don't own Teen Titans, Audioslave, or Nirvana. (I WISH!!)
Story written in the first-person form in Raven's Point of View.Includes music to Audioslave, and maybe Nirvana.
Chapter 1: Happy Birthday to Me
Once upon a time I was of the mind
They know nothing about me. Nothing about my past. Just the fact that I am a titan. I stand behind them, concealed by a cloak most of the time. When I do show my face, do they even notice? The only ones in the whole world who know the most about me, which isn't even everything, are Beast Boy and Cyborg. They're the ones who went into my mind, met some of my emotions, got closer to me. They are the ones who figured out I'm a real person. I have emotions, I just cant use them. For their safety.
To lay your burden down
And leave you where you stood
I sat on my bed, it was 3:30 am, and I couldn't sleep. I had been up for 4 hours, just thinking. Today, yes today, was my birthday. At midnight, I looked at the clock, and wished myself a silent birthday wish. Doubt it'll come true. I wished that someday I'd be able to show my emotions. Every single one of them at one time or another.
And you believed I could
You'd seen it done before
I got up. No use in thinking I can go back to sleep. I wandered downstairs. No one will be up, I thought. So I went into the kitchen and opened the cupboards, looking for herbal tea packets and my favorite mug. Darn, I remembered it was in the dishwasher! And there was only ONE packet left!! Looks like we'll be going to the store tomorrow...err...today, I thought.
I could read your thoughts
Tell you what you saw
So I reached in and randomly took out a green mug with black tiger stripes along with a leopard print, also in black. It was Beast Boy's FAVORITE mug for obvious reasons. Oh well, I thought. And I took it out, feeling happy that no one was awake.
And never say a word
Now all that is gone
I took the box of herbal tea packets out, and grabbed the last one before throwing the box away. I added the water to the mug and microwaved it for a little, then pulled it out and put the tea in, and started to stir. Watching the brown powder dissolve into the water always fascinated me. The swirls of brown, it felt like they were just so free. Don't ask how or why it reminds me of that, but it makes me feel like I know I will never be like that.
Over with and done - never to return
I kept stirring...and stirring, then took out the packet and threw it away. Then I froze in my spot. I sensed another being watching me. I looked around. "Hello?" I called. No answer. Whoever it was was trying to trick me or surprise me. Yeah right, I thought, and I rolled my eyes.
I can tell you why
People die alone
Their secret cover was blown by a sneeze and then an "Aw man!". One name filled my head. Beast Boy, you're dead, I thought.
I can tell you I'm
A shadow on the sun
"Come out, Beast Boy," I said. "Damn," he said.
Staring at the loss
Looking for a cause
"What are you doing, watching me?" I asked. "What are you doing, drinking from my favorite mug?" he asked in return. I looked down and blushed. He had a point. "What are you doing, BLUSHING!?" he laughed. "Ok, ok, shut up," I said.
And never really sure
Nothing but a hole
He sat down beside me and stared at the mug I had in front of me. I didn't take a sip, I looked down, feeling sorta ashamed, sorta unhappy. Today was my birthday, I wanted to be alone. I couldn't go into the kitchen past midnight and have someone NOT bug me!? He must've sensed something wrong.
To live without a soul
And nothing to be learned
"It's ok, you can keep drinking. But tomorrow I get your goth cup," he joked.
I smiled, but it wasn't genuine. He must think that he's making me feel better. He's not.
I can tell you why
People go insane
I frowned. He looked at me weird.
"Raven, what's wrong?" Beast Boy asked.
"Nothing, just feeling crappy," I said.
I can show you how
You could do the same
His voice became a whisper as he asked, "PMS?"
I looked at him as if I had just learned he was gay. "NO!! And if I was, I WOULDN'T TELL YOU! ARE YOU NUTS!?" I shouted, and a window shattered to pieces.
"Sheesh, sorry Rae," he said.
"Don't call me Rae," I muttered. I frowned deeper this time. Today I was 18, today I was able to vote. Hmm who to vote for? Definitely not George W. Bush...BACK TO MY THOUGHTS!!
I can tell you why
The end will never come
"Sorry...Rae-VEN," he corrected himself.
"It..it's ok.." I looked down, "Why are you down here?"
"I dunno, dream land kicked me out," he laughed.
I raised an eyebrow. "O-kay..."
"Raven, please tell me what's wrong," Beast Boy pleaded.
"Ok, ok. Fine. But don't tell ANYONE. Or you'll be in NIGHTMARE land," I told him.
"Ok," he said.
I can tell you I'm
A shadow on the sun
"Today's my 18th birthday," I whispered. His face crept into a smile and then he laughed. "AND YOU'RE UPSET ABOUT THAT!?" he exclaimed.
"Beast Boy I don't like birthdays. I don't do parties. I just don't want this. I've been dreading this day for years. I'm a 'woman'. Meaning now I have to make choices," I said.
"Wait, haven't you technically been a woman since—"
Shapes of every size
Move behind my eyes
"Ew! Physically, yes. Emotionally, NO!!!" I exclaimed. "Are you obsessed with that stuff!?"
"No, I'm not some gay guy," he laughed. I glared at him.
"If I told anyone, theyd plan a special party for me. Like I said, I don't do parties. So please, PLEASE don't tell anyone," I begged.
Doors inside my head
Bolted from within
"Ok, ok. I wont," he said. 'NOT tell them. I didn't promise or anything,' he thought.
"Thanks, Beast Boy," I smiled.
"So why DON'T you do parties or birthdays? Why HAVE you been dreading this day?" he asked.
Every drop of flame
I stared at him as I got up from my seat. "Long story," I said, and dumped the tea out of the mug and handed it to him as I walked out.
"Happy Birthday...?" he called after me. I smiled to myself and silently said 'Thanks' telepathically.
Lights a candle in
Memory of the one
Behind her, Beast Boy sat still, and held his mug, looking at it. "I'll make this the best birthday she's ever had, and ever WILL have," he whispered to himself.
Who lives inside my skin
I crawled back into bed and thought of what happened between us down there. And how I admitted my problem. Now I need to tackle it. How can I make these decisions? Why cant things just be simpler?
---Shadow on the Sun, Audioslave.
Author's Note: Did you enjoy? This one wasn't prewritten. But I have a good feeling about it. There'd be more. I need reviews!! :-( I'll update. You can't really end a story like this.