Author's Note: Hey guys, I'm back. So I got a really really good excuse. My computer got a virus and crashed my system. It took a while for it to get back and such so I haven't been able to write and all that. So I'm sorry about the long wait.

Here is the Squeal: Breaking My Heart.

Adam

He didn't know how much time had passed. Minutes, hours, days or years? He didn't know and he didn't care. Either way his world was falling apart. Fiona had dumped him and that was that. No ifs, and or buts. Just the freaking truth.

The truth sucked.

From what he knew of it had only been a day or so since the 'incident' as he'd like to call it. He couldn't believe such little time had gone by. To him it felt like forever.

His extended members of the family had already left after that night. His mother was upset that the night had been ruined. She also felt bad for her son. She knew now that she never should have hidden her son behind her past daughter and was now suffering the consequences of her actions.

Most of his family accepted Adam, especially his grandmother. He did not see her leave but he knew she cared. It gave him small relief that she still loved him, regardless of gender. From what he could tell the only people who did mind were his cousin Ricky and his mother. Ricky's father wisely kept his own opinions to himself after he saw the damage his sister gave her.

When Drew had finally managed to drag Adam off the curb of where the 'incident' happened he began to ignore everyone and everything. He just shut down. The only thing that was keeping him alive was his shattered heart. He kept himself locked in his room of where memories flowed through his mind. Everything in it reminded him of her. He didn't know if it hurt more or less being surrounded by history.

Drew had tried to come in multiple times and talk to him but he had locked the door and didn't dare open it. He didn't want his pity. He just wanted Fiona back but he knew after this fuck up he wouldn't ever get her back. It was all his fault. He should have listened to his family and friend's pleas when they told him to tell her the truth before she found out for herself but he was a cocky bastard thinking he would handle it all when the time came. Well as they say Karma's a bitch or rather he was a bitch. He not only lied to her but he broke her. Perhaps worse than what he was feeling. Worse than what Bobby ever made her feel.

God should just kill him now. He deserved worse than death for what he did to her.

Time went by and as it so did his sanity. Being away from her for this long was cruel. Especially since they were not together.

After a few days moping and endless text messages and calls he sent being ignored he finally left his room. He was in it for too long and needed to distract his self and his aching heart and being in a room full of Fiona memories did not help.

He went into the bathroom and flinched when he saw himself. His hair was a mess with grease that one would find in Turkey, his face was all blotchy red, his eyes swollen and his breast showing more than he liked. He still had not changed out of Gracie's clothes since the incident nights ago.

When he walked down those stairs after re-fixing himself up his family gave out a gasp. He forced on a fake smile as he made his way into the kitchen and got himself out a bowl of cereal.

"You okay man?" Drew asked, breaking the barrier of silence between them all.

He swallowed as he gazed at his older brother and then gave him a shrug. "Fucked up." he said simply.

His mother didn't even bother correcting her son's language.

"She'll come around." he said confidently out loud, though inside he wasn't sure. This was a pretty 'fucked up' situation.

"Whatever." he muttered again. He didn't care about anything anymore. He quickly got up from his seat and went to the front of his house opening the door. "I'll be back before dark." he muttered as he slammed the door shut. He was grateful that none went after him.

He headed towards the dot, wanting to clear his head a bit. Sure he had days to do that but that was when he was an emotional wreck. At this point he was just a living corpse. No real soul. Fiona had been his soul but when he hurt her well, that soul died. He was just a shell.

He walked past the Dot Cafe where he spotted Clare and Eli inside. He opted to turn around but Eli had already spotted him and waved for him to come inside. He did regretfully. He gave them an upwards nod.

"Hey." Eli said, not really knowing what to say. Drew had called him a day ago telling him what had happened. Not only with Fiona but also with the parents. Brutal was all he could think.

"Hey." Adam responded gruffly. He wanted to leave already.

"Are you okay?" Clare asked with concern. She never saw Adam look this heartbroken before. She only knew of what Eli had told her. Fiona didn't call but she wasn't surprised since she was Adam's best friend girl...not including Fiona...well now not but you know.

"Whatever." he answered the same hallowy answer he had given repeatedly this day.

"You're one brave warrior." he said, giving a repeated quote he often used with Adam. "Fiona will come around." Eli said with assurance. He had seen the love between the two and swore he never saw something so deep. And he thought he and Clare had it bad.

The door to the cafe opened as he turned around to see Fiona. In simple terms she looked like hell, hell which he might add he put her in. Her hair was a mess compared to it's nice curls, no makeup was plastered on her beautiful face and her eyes had deep circles under them. Fiona looked up and took a deep intake. She turned to quickly leave, not wanting to get into this when he called out her name.

"Please, wait!"

"Leave me the hell alone, Adam, Gracie whatever the hell you are!" she cried. They all flinched at that name. Her back was towards him as she didn't want him to see her shedding tears.

"Hey, not cool!" Eli growled, sticking up for his brother. That was not cool at all. Clare just shook her head in sadness. How had they come to this?

"Fiona..." He whispered desperately, moving towards her but she ignored him.

"Fiona, he's still Adam!" Clare desperately said. "He was born in a girl's body but he's still the same guy you fell in love with!" she said with conviction.

"He lied." she stated simply. "I don't know who the hell he or she is anymore." she said. "I probably never did." and with that she left the cafe without another word.

Adam didn't bother going after her, of which Eli noticed.

"Why aren't you chasing her?" he asked.

He shrugged. "You heard her. She doesn't date girls. She's no lesbian."