Happy Birthday Ren
Ren's POV
January 1. In China, that doesn't mean much. But here it means alot. Another New Years Day, another birthday. Not like anyone knows, or cares. Not even Jun cares. I can see the hate lying in her blue eyes. The hate directed at me. That and all the lies.
We're at the Asakura house. I'm locked up in one of the rooms upstairs. Alone. I'll always be alone. I hear all the laughter downstairs. Oh the fun they must without me. Especially Horohoro. Hell, everyone's probably laughing at his jokes about me. I hate him so much. I give everyone the same hate they give me. Not even Yoh cares at all. But for some reason I can't hate him.
I'm being very pessimistic and I don't care anymore. Outside it's snowing lightly. The snowflakes are sinking with my heart. What's wrong with me? Why does everyone hate me so? I feel something wet slide down my cheek. Am I crying? Yes. When was the last time I had cried? I'm so pathetic. So spoiled. Little Ren doesn't get a huge birthday party so he starts crying. Ren the Brat will never be Shaman King. Yoh already is. He took Little Ren's one goal in life. But Ren can't hate him because he loves him. Why does Ren love Yoh? Because he's a gay sissy who's in love with Yoh like some schoolgirl. What else is Ren? Some lunatic who mocks himself and makes himself feel worse than he already does.
But thinking in third person helps Ren calm down. Now why doesn't Ren just tell Yoh that he loves him? Because Yoh isn't gay. He's also engaged to a great and respected woman. Why would Yoh love Ren? Ren could never be good enough for Yoh. Yoh's just too perfect for Ren to possibly compare to.
Ren's still mocking himself. It's as if he feels he doesn't get enough. Ren's now sixteen, but as short as ever. Another flaw of his.
Yoh's POV
Why doesn't Ren ever join us for these parties? We may not always be the most lovable people ever, but we care about him. Even Horo wants him to be here right now. To have some fun. It's even his birthday and he locks himself up to stay all alone! It's just not right. And I can't stand to see Ren sad. But maybe he's not sad. But still, he's my best friend and I should be there. At least say, 'Happy Birthday'. And boy, do I have a nice present for him. I think he'll like it. I know I will. But that's just selfish of me. Now where is that troublemaker?
Likely upstairs. I always manage to find him in the last room down the hallway. He shouldn't isolate himself so much. It's bad for his tiny little social skills. "Ren?" I call out softly after I reach the top of the stairs.
Ren's POV
A familiar voice calling out my name ceased all my thoughts immediately. I perked my head up and heard soft footsteps coming my way. What could Yoh possibly want with me? He's right in front of the door now.
"What do you want?" I say coolly. I always have to keep my guard up.
Yoh crept closer to me. Closer than ever. I was a bit scared. Who knew what he would do? I definitely wasn't expecting what happened next. I felt warm, leathery lips graze across mine. I heard him softly whisper in my ear, "Happy Birthday Ren." and he nonchalantly walked out of the room. I brought my hand up to where he had kissed me.
"Yoh." I whispered as I felt tears sting my eyes. But this time, they were tears of joy.
A/N Yes, this is short. Yes, I suck at writing angsty fluff. Yes, I should have waited until New Year's (which, btw is Ren's bday). But I couldn't wait. Yes, a review would be nice. But no flames please.