This is a sequel to 'my life' hope you enjoy. Now its my time to give my opinion on myself as a whole.
This'll be a song fic because i could use any song to describe my past but i feel that theres one that fits.
Song: Help by papa roach. I don't own the rights to this song, all rights go to their respective owners.
Written in the first person
Enjoy.
(Jason's pov)
I'm fed up with this, all the pain… the sadness… everything. now i know i can't just kill myself, Gardevoir won't allow me to. So there is only one thing left to do at this point… sing.
I went to find Gardevoir so that i could tell her more of the story. I kept searching until i found her sitting on the couch.
"Hey… we need to talk" i said.
"About what?" she asked.
"I think you know" i said. She sighed and beckoned me over. i sat down next to her and she wrapped me up in a warm embrace.
"I can't reproduce…" i said tearing up. Gardevoir gasped at this as she was brought to tears.
"But… why?" she said. i just glared at her angrily. I was done with this, i had to let it all out… all at once.
"OH TRUST ME… IM DOING MY BEST BUT EVERY 1.000.000 babies… have what i have. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WORK THIS OUT?" i screamed. She tightened her hold on me as i cried into her shoulder.
"I need to give one final message, you'll know where to find me" i said sadly. I grabbed my electric guitar and headed off to a different part of the facility i resided in.
Gardevoir went off to do her own thing but she was curious so she fallowed without me knowing. I went to where i kept my amplifier and plugged it into my guitar.
(Song start)
I think i need help
I'm drowning in myself
did someone turn the lights out?
Or is it just another dark cloud in my head?
Cause i'm cut deep, my heart won't beat
Deep down low its killing me
If i wanna scratch out yesterday
i've got so much i need to say
(i've got so much i need to say)
I think i need help
cause i'm drowning in myself
i can't pretend that i ain't have been through hell
I think i need help
I'm drowning in myself
They're preying on my weakness
Believe it
i'm thinking to myself 'no not again'
And i won't keep listening
When temptations creeping in
If i wanna make it another day
I've got so much i need to say
(i got so much i need to say)
I think i need help
Cause i'm drowning in myself
It's sinking in
i can't pretend that i ain't been through hell
I think i need help
I'm drowning in myself
('m drowning in myself)
I think i need help
'Cause i put myself through hell
I think i need help
'Cause i'm drowning in myself
Its sinking in i can't pretend that i aim't been through hell
I think i need help
I think i need help
I think i need help
Song end
As Jason finished his song, Gardevoir finally understood why he was so afraid, he didn't want to die a worthless and meaningless death.
Jason ran to Gardevoir and cried into her shoulder.
"Don't abandon me" he cried.
"Shhh i won't ever dream of it" Gardevoir whispered into his ear.
Theres a wrap for you, don't give me crap for this. to me it was necessary. Like it? hate it? Let me know in the comments below.