My first KH fic, and certainly my first with subtones of gay.
Dedicated to Horus-Goddess, for her amazing art, and Suzu, for her amazing self.
I can't count the number of times I've had this dream. I'm dying in your arms and I'm so damned happy, because you're here and not off with that harlot. In this moment, you're all mine. And as the blood bubbles up between broken lips, I smile and mouth those words. "All mine."
I want to reach up and brush the hair back from your face, to see those eyes full of tears, and completely focussed on me. So blue. I could almost laugh at that. Why so blue? But the laughter gets caught on the splintered end of a broken rib, and all I can do is gasp. How many breaths left? One...two...
"Don't try to talk." Was I counting aloud? Your voice breaks, snags. Are your ribs shattered too? And suddenly idontwantthis.
Your tears run down my face, into my mouth. I catch one on my tongue, like a snowflake. And I DON'T WANT THIS!
I want to hit you, to shout "why are you crying? I wouldn't be crying if you were stupid enough to get killed!" But it sounds like a lie, even unspoken.
I reach out my hand. You catch it and bring it to your face, nuzzling into my palm, murmuring that everything's going to be ok, I just need to hold on. Your breath tickles my skin, and the warmth of it burns me. I know I won't be ok, but it's sweet of you to say so. Tears break from my eyes, scalding me as they fall. I know that I don't want to die, I just wanted you to look at me and really see me. And you did. It was when you buried your blade up to the hilt in my chest, not realising I'd stopped fighting. You see me now, don't you?
"Yes," you nod. I spoke aloud again, I guess, but it's good to know. I can't see you so clearly any more. It seems as if you're glowing, your features blurred by soft light. I dont want to lose sight of you, not yet.
"Hold me." I force the words out, though the shrapnel of bones in my chest tears them ragged. Releasing my hand, you gather me into your arms, and I can hear your heartbeat at last.
"That's good," I breathe, "Just a moment more..."
I'm falling. Falling into nothing, and all I can think is please, forgive me.
Please forgive me...
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