Note: This was an RP with a friend cause I was overly depressed and feeling down. I just turned it into a fanfic. I don't own Darksiders or the song by Kerli.
Oh don't feel unwanted
My love, I know
I will stand undaunted
Before, your grace
And entirely
And eternally
Death is in love with me
The candles were dim, that's how I liked to keep them. I was always depressed even before the world went to shit and I ended up in the protection of the eldest horseman.
I missed everything about my old life. Texting and the internet, most of all I missed my friends and family. They were the only ones with the ability to cheer me up.
I was always bothered by small things but I always hid them so nobody would be worried. I hated attention. It wasn't self pity, either. It was just a deep longing inside me for something I had never experienced.
"Something is bothering you."
I heard his voice behind me and turned around to face him. His pumpkin eyes seemed to glow in the candle light yet they held a gentleness I was not used to seeing from the horseman.
"Yeah, well… I'll get over it. I always do."
"Apparently not when you do this every night."
My eyes widened, "You spy on me?"
"I'm your guardian, remember? It's something I have to do when you try and hide from everything."
I turned back around and looked at the candles in front of me with a soft sigh.
"So, what is the matter?"
"Nothing."
"Don't lie to me."
Another sigh escaped my lips, "Look, it's stupid. I don't want to bother you with it."
I felt his fingers gently grip the back of my neck and I tensed a bit, "I will get it out of you eventually. Might as well do it the easy way and just tell me now."
Like that was a threat?
I dismissed that thought and waited a moment before I finally spoke of what was on my mind. Being around beautiful demons and angels a lot lately just bothered me, especially that Lilith chic.
"I'm not pretty…"
...
I stood behind her and waited. Being the guardian of the last human in existence, I had no idea what was ailing her there for I had no idea how to stop it from bothering her. I could tell this was not just bringing her down mentally but physically as well.
Then finally she spoke.
"I'm not pretty…"
That was it? That's what was bothering her?
"That's it?"
"Yeah, mostly…"
Earlier she was kicking so much ass with me in one of the other realms, fighting against demons that were bigger and stronger than she would ever be. She even had her own signature battle cry I had noticed as she maneuvered the katana with the grace of a thousand dancing angels.
Now she was…defeated.
"Humans…" I began, "You tend to worry over the smallest things. I'll never understand..."
"W-what?"
"I am rather glad you are the last human and not one of those skinny, moronic blonde females I witnessed running away from demons in high heeled shoes when I first came to your realm." Without really thinking I traced my fingers over her hair, "You are strong, you can fight and you know how to capture my attention when it is elsewhere."
When my palm rested on her cheek she lifted her own hand and placed it over mine, "I never knew mortals could be strong and talented. That and I never thought I would find myself so deeply attracted to one."
Her eyes looked up at me and I reached to her with my free hand.
"I never knew that a human could be so beautiful. My fingers gripped the mask over my face and pulled it off, tossing it to the floor. She jumped back but I pulled her against me and pressed my lips to hers. Moments later I pulled away and whispered in her ear, "You are the most beautiful creature I've ever seen, don't down yourself with painful doubts."
...
"You are the most beautiful creature I've ever seen, don't down yourself with painful doubts."
His words touched my heart but before I could say anything he grabbed his mask, placed it back over his face and left the room. It was the kindest thing anyone had ever said to me.
Lost in thought I touched my fingertips to my lips while his words echoed in my head.
Now, all I could really think of was one question…
What happens next?
'I will be yours.'
I know since for years
You have been taking me away
But I always come back
Because there's been so much to do
This time its different
Its our final kiss
My final departure
Ill rise up from the fire
My wings are not strong yet
But I can fly
I can fly