I wake without opening my eye. My throat hurts, so I know I've been screaming. My face is wet with tears. I've had another nightmare. Or at least i hope it was just a nightmare. I don't know what I would do if I was kidnapped...again. I'm scared to open my eyes in fear that I won't be in my bedroom at Watford and Snow won't be sleeping in the bed next to me. He always has been a heavy sleeper. Probably didn't even wake up to me screaming.
I feel a pressure on my shoulder all of a sudden and flinch away. But then I hear it. Simon's soft sweet voice say my name. My eyes flutter open and there he is. Simon Snow is hovering over me with a concerned look on his face. I must have imagined that. Snow doesn't even like me as a friend. God, I just want this crush to go away because as he looks at me with that look that i'm probably imagining i want to reach up grab his face and kiss him. Or maybe bite him. I didn't get the chance to go down to the catacombs last night and feed so now i'm hungry. But I can't bite Simon. I could never hurt him. I love him to much. I wouldn't risk hurting or possibly even kill him to save myself.
"Baz. Are you okay. You were sobbing so loud that it woke me up. What happened? Are you okay?" He rushes out. As he says this I start crying again.
I remember my dream better now. Before i had gone hunting and got kidnapped by the numpties I had gotten into a fight with my dad. He had asked if I had found a cute girl or had a crush on anyone at Watsfort. I told him I had a crush on someone so he asked what HER name was. I hated when he did this. Pretended that I wasn't gay and that I just didn't find girls attractive in that way. When I told him that it was a boy, he slapped me and screamed that I was the only one that could keep the Pitch name going. He did this when I first came out. I knew that he just wanted me to keep my mother's legacy alive. I didn't want him to say anymore to me or hit me again so I had ran.
I ran until I couldn't anymore. I was starving. I needed blood and since I was out here anyways, I might as well put this time to good use. I found a deer, killed, drained it, and then dumped its body into a river. I sat down and just cried. I hated when I cry but I knew I was going to. Then there was a sharp pain in my head. I had gotten hit by something and that's when I had woken up, sobbing still. I didn't tell anyone why I hadn't been able to hear them sneak up on me. I realize that while I was crying, Simon had wrapped his arms around me, just holding me. I felt amazing and he smelt amazing too.
He kept whispering in my ear "It's going to be okay. I promise.". I look up at him and see his beautiful blue eyes staring down at me. All logic abandoned me as I stared into his eyes. That's the only thing that I can think of because if I was thinking I wouldn't have shifted until I was an inch away from his mouth. My eyes flicked down to his lips and I saw his tongue slp out of his mouth and then it happened. He kissed me. Merlin his lips are like heaven. They are so soft and sweet. I kiss back and he gently pushed me onto the bed, without stopping the kissing, he climbs onto my lap, straddling my lap. Then It hits me like a train. My hunger. For blood. I shove Simon away so fast and hard he almost falls of the bed. I sit up, pushing myself against the wall as much as possible.
Simon starts apologizing causing me to shake my head. "Not you. Hungry." Is all I can get out.
"What are you hungry for? I can get it for you." he says
"Not for food. Blood. Need blood. Need to hunt." I growl out.