This is just a random thing I wrote after an episode of beyblade.
I hope you like it.
Kai pov
So you think I don't know what you say about me, when you believe im not there. I know what you do, I know you all hate me simply because im not like you. I don't go around telling everyone how I feel, about my past. I don't do what everyone else would have me do and you don't like that do you? Especially not you Tyson. You use your hate for me to get attention, you mimic me, thinking it will only annoy me when in truth it hurts. It hurts because I know its true but I don't want to change it. Why should I when everyone I try to open up to just hurts me? I nearly did tell you all something a year ago but I got cut short. The next day I saw the lot of you taking the piss, saying things that you think I feel when I don't. None of you see that the person you believe is me isn't really me at all. None of you know and none of you have the right to. Not after what you do behind my back. Why should I trust any of you when I know you don't trust me? You're right though, I am proud, but then so are you. I know I can blade well, but who says I think I'm the best? Who says I even like myself at all? I know I act cold towards you all, but what would you rather have me do, tell you everything? All the pain I've suffered over the years, not just physical but mental too? You wouldn't believe me, you'd say it was just an excuse for the way I act, which in a way, I suppose it is. I shut people out because I vowed never to let anyone in again. But I began to care for you all and just when I was about to let you in you betray me. Now I know that I was being weak then and I can never do that again. I realise completely now that my Grandfather was right. Other people are a liability and get in your way. They use you so why not use them. People will never really care about me. I suppose he made sure of that. He believed he made me incapable of feelings, of opening up. But after that day, it wasn't him who finally did it to me, it was you, all of you in there, Tyson, prancing about pretending to be me, Max, laughing and sometimes joining in and Rei, you just sit there and watch, a smile playing on your lips. I know now it was all of you who finally destroyed the last of my soul.