Disclaimer: I don't own the Jonas Brothers. I own all of the other characters.
Warning: The main character is bisexual. If you have a problem with that then you can press the button with the X on it.
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Sometimes, I question the world. Actually, a lot of the time I question the world. I question different people and their beliefs. I understand that everyone has some sort of belief, but when their belief discriminates and becomes hurtful I wonder why those beliefs were thought up. I find some people extremely hypocritical and pathetic when it comes to certain things. Take homosexuality, for example. Why does the bible say you can't be gay, but it also tells you that God made you who you are? Doesn't that mean God chose to make you gay? Being bisexual makes you question the world about those things more. I, Marina Balza, know that I question the world a lot more then most.
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"Fuckkkk…" I said low enough under my breath so that no one could hear me. My mother was screaming about something that I didn't care about again and I was forced to sit there and pretend to listen.
"Do you understand what I'm saying?" she finally asked. I looked around and everyone had gone to bed.
"Yeah, Mom," I lied. I was tired and I needed to sleep.
"Good, now go to bed. Goodnight," she said, suddenly cheerful. Without an answer, I walked away into my room.
"Bitchhhhhhhhhhhh," I said towards my mother once I was in the safety of my own room. I stared at my wall for a while as I memorized each and every poster; Audrey Hepburn, candy wrapper collage, class picture, and a bunch of frames.
I stared at one frame particularly for a long time. It was my favorite one; yellow and blue shapes scattered around the edges of a picture. Finally, I looked at the actual picture. It was of me and one of my best friends ever. Joe. He was quite the amazing friend, along with his brothers, Nick and Kevin, and my other best friend, Juliette.
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11:47PM
DangerMannnn: hey nina
VampireLove666: Yo homie.
DangerMannnn: wuts up
VampireLove666: not much. you?
DangerMannnn: eh. its just late.
VampireLove666: Seriously. But, I'm sooo not tired.
DangerMannnn: i kinda am but i dont wanna go to bed
VampireLove666: Me, neither. Everything's so bleh and I know that sleeping with just make it all come back tomorrow
DangerMannnn: wuts ben goin on
VampireLove666: Everything. My mom's a bitch.
DangerMannnn: that suckkks. u kno u can com ovr hree if u want
VampireLove666: Yeah. I know, I just don't feel like getting into any shit with the popo tonight
DangerMannnn: how many times woud that b if u did
VampireLove666: All together? Donno. I lost count.
VampireLove666: This week? I think it'd be like 3
DangerMannnn: u reely dont wanna b there. hu?
VampireLove666: I really really don't. You know how much I hate it.
DangerMannnn: as ur best friend? of course
VampireLove666: lol
VampireLove666: idk what I'd do without you.
DangerMannnn: i kno. 8-)
VampireLove666: lol. You think you're so cool.
DangerMannnn: i kno i am. :-D
VampireLove666: Oh psh. You know I rule you.
DangerMannnn: of course.
VampireLove666: Well, I got school tomorrow, so I'm gunna go to bed.
DangerMannnn: okay. nite
VampireLove666: Nighty Night.
DangerMannnn: ttyl.
VampireLove666: Of course:-D
VampireLove666: Buh-Bye. Love ya tres bien:-D
VampireLove666 has signed off.
Joe sat at his computer staring at the last four words sent from "VampireLove666" a.k.a. Nina. Love ya tres bien. he repeated in his head.
"I love you, too," whispered Joe.
"Go to sleep, Joe!" yelled Kevin in a shushed tone.
"Yeah….I will," said Joe silently. He shut off the computer and crawled into bed. He heard a cat climb the outside tree and a car pass by the house. He almost fell asleep, but not before pulling something out from under his pillow. There he held a picture of Nina from a year ago…when Joe first started to like her. She's too young. He'd tell himself. Still, nothing seemed to keep him from falling for her.
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Another day of walking to school alone; one of the reasons why I hate being on the other side of the town from Nick, Joe, Kevin and Juliette. Though, Joe and Kevin aren't even in school anymore. Both of them graduated. Nick and Juliette are both sophomores. Me, I'm stuck as a stupid freshman because my mom kept me in stupid pre-school for an extra stupid year. I passed by the park, the house that had the colors of mint chocolate ice cream and the pretty black and white house with the red door and I finally arrived at the crosswalk before the school. I looked over at the front of the school to see Nick and Juliette waiting for me, like always. Here we go again; another day of this shit. I thought to myself as I crossed the street without waiting for the crosswalk sign to change.
"NINA!" screamed Juliette.
"That's my name," I said.
"NINA! YOU COULD HAVE DIEEEED!"
"But, I didn't," I smiled.
"She's got a point," said Nick towards Juliette.
"Oh, shut up, Nick…" said Juliette.
I laughed and we walked into the school just as the bell rang.
"God, damnit," I said. "I still need to go to my locker."
"Then go," said Nick. "It's not like Coach Rameriez cares."
"Eww," I whined. "Please don't remind me that I have Rameriez…"
"Not our fault," said Juliette. "You could still be in Choir with us."
"Shut your trap, stupid Rubio wanted me in AVID, so I went into AVID. Our choir sucks anyways…"
"It's not that bad," said Nick.
"Just because you are the only guy that can stay in tune, doesn't mean that our choir is quote unquote good,"
"I'm not the only guy that can stay in tune," defended Nick. I glared at him with a questioning look.
"Okay jeeze," said Nick. "I am the only guy. Why do you have to always look at me like that?"
"Parce que it works," I said opening up my locker and putting away my books.
"What?" asked Juliette.
"BECAUSE it works," said Nick to Juliette.
"And no, it doesn't work," he said towards me.
"It so does. I get everything out of you with that look," I protested.
Nick hesitated to throw another comeback out at me.
"…Yeah, so?" he finally said.
"My point exactly," I laughed slamming my locker shut.
"WAIT!" yelled Juliette. "NINA! YOU MUST TEACH ME THAT LOOK!"
"Non, merci," I said.
"Do you two HAVE to randomly speak French?" asked Juliette. Nick and I mischievously looked at each other and smiled.
"Je ne sais pas," I laughed.
"Oui, Porquoi est-ce que nous parlons francais avec Juliette est ici?" asked Nick.
"Je parle…Je ne sais pas," I answered.
"I hate you two…" scowled Juliette.
"NOUS T'AIMONS!" Nick and I yelled at the same time. Juliette turned around and walked away. Nick chased after her as they both went to their first class and I forced myself to P.E.
Lunch time. I happily thought to myself as walked out of science. I met up with Nick and Juliette in the cafeteria and we got our lunches and sat at our table.
"So…how's everyone's day?" asked Nick, trying to start up a conversation.
"Eh…comme ci, comme ca," I said.
"STOP IT WITH THE FRENCH ALREADY!" yelled Juliette. The cafeteria got quiet and Juliette sunk in her seat. Nick and I quietly snickered as the rest of the cafeteria went on with what they were doing.
"I have one thing to ask Nick first," I said. Juliette was silent.
"Fine…" she finally answered.
"Est-ce que tu aimes Juliette?" I asked. Nick spit out some Gatorade and looked at me.
"Oui! Bien Sur! Mais que ma copine," he said nervously.
"Non. Tu penses elle est beau et jolie!" I laughed.
"NON!"
"Oui. Tu veux faire elle." I said flatly and positively.
"NON! NON! NON!"
"Oui." I said giving him that questioning look.
"Non…Peut-etre…oui…" he said quietly.
"Oh la la!" I laughed.
"Is your French conversation over?" asked Juliette.
"Yeah…I got the information I needed," I laughed.
"If she understood a word we said, I'm going to kill you," said Nick.
"If you even try to kill me, I'll get all west side/bay area on your ass." I threatened.
"No worries. No idea what either of you were saying," said Juliette.
We finished eating and started to walk around campus.
"So, Nina, you and Joe haven't hung out in a while…"said Juliette, nudging me.
"Did you know that you're all he talks about?" asked Nick.
"Shut-up, he's 3 years older than me." I said.
"So?" asked Juliette. "My mom always says age is nothing but a number."
"Your mom also gave birth to my dad's kids." I protested.
Juliette nodded her head and said, "Well, Mr. & Mrs. Jonas say age is nothing but a number, too."
"That's more convincing, except for the fact that Joe is my BEST FRIEND!" I threw out.
"It's not like you're blood related," said Nick.
"Close enough. He's like my older brother and why are we even talking about this?" I asked. "Joe and I have no extra feelings towards each other!"
"That's what you want yourself to think…" said Juliette. I stopped in my tracks.
"No. I have absolutely no feelings for Joe and he has none for me. I'll even ask him myself." I said.
"NO! DON'T!" Nick and Juliette yelled at the same time.
"Pourquoi?" I asked.
"Parce que!" yelled Nick.
"Oh my, God," I said. "You are trying to hook me and Joe up?"
"Kinda sorta…." said Juliette, "but, its much more complicated then just that."
"Then talk," I demanded.
"Well…" said Nick. Just then, the bell ending lunch rang and Nick and Juliette smiled big.
"Oh dang, looks like we'll have to tell you later, bye!" they said quickly walking towards class.
Damn them. I thought to myself walking to my next class.
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1:47PM
Txt from Nina: Hey Joeee.
Txt from Joe: Hey nina. What class r u in?
Txt from Nina: French, but we r watching a movie and i'm in the back of the class
From Joe: Cool. I'm just sitting at home…Doing nothing.
From Nina: Sounds exhilarating.
From Joe: It really is.
From Nina: OMG did u see the new chick at Starbucks?
From Joe: Uhh…No. Y? She cute?
From Nina: Cute? Dude, shes GORGEOUS!
From Joe: Nicee….I'm gunna have to check her out.
From Nina: NO WAY! I SAW HER FIRST!
From Joe: Sure. Cuz shes gunna wanna go out with a bi
From Nina: Shut up…Theres a chance
From Joe: Not really
From Nina: Well wut was the chance that i was gunna b bi?
From Joe: Really likely
From Nina: Shut up. U guys were sooo surprised when I finally told u 2 years ago
From Joe: I was not that surprised
From Nina: U so were. I still have the pic 2 prove it
From Joe: Well…..So?
From Nina: Just trying 2 make a point
From Joe: Well, ur point isn't made yet
From Nina: Bells gunna ring in 2 min. Gotta go. Ttyl buddyyyy. Love ya tres bien.
Sadly, Joe still found it awkward to talk about how "gorgeous" other girls were with his best friend. Even though she was only bisexual and he still had a chance with her. He thought about it for a while and he realized that he was just jealous. He wishes he could be the only one she called "gorgeous". It upset him to see that he had even more competition then what he thought was really needed.
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"I'm going home with you guys today," I said to Nick and Juliette.
"Why don't you just go to your house?" asked Nick. "Aren't your textbooks there?"
"Jeeze, you sound like you don't want me there…" I replied.
"C'mon, you know you're always welcome," said Juliette nudging Nick.
"Yeah, uhm…okay," I said nervously. Something's up. I thought. Whatever, don't know, don't care.
Nick, Juliette & I started to walk towards Starbucks where Kevin was picking us up.
"I hate my damn mom," I complained lying on the hard concrete in front of Starbucks.
"Uh-oh," said Nick.
"What happened this time?" asked Juliette.
"She's a bitch! She took away my cell, which I stole back, and guess where she's going at the end of April?" I said.
"Nooo…I thought…" said Nick.
"Nope, She's going to Disney land with the rest of the family while I'm stuck here to do the stupid show," I told them.
"So, what are you gunna do?" asked Juliette.
"Donno. Probably stuck with my uncle,"
"Can't you stay with us?" asked Nick.
"No. She said I couldn't."
"This sucks," said Juliette.
"No shit it does,"
Just then Kevin drove up and parked. As soon as the car turned off, he jumped out of it.
"I'm getting some Starbucks," he said.
"I want some!" screamed Nick and Juliette.
"You want some, Nina?" asked Kevin.
"Nah. I'm good," I answered.
"Okay, here are the car keys," he said throwing me the keys, "Don't drive away."
"I won't," I laughed catching the keys and standing up to walk to the car. I settled into the car and waited. One car passed by then two. I looked into the rear view mirror and spotted Kevin smack Nick and Juliette in the back of the head. I shrugged it off and continued to wait. Another car passed and they finally came back to the care.
"Okay, let's go," said Kevin starting the car. We drove off and a few minutes later we were in front of the Jonas house.
"Is Joe home?" I asked jumping out of the car carrying my Breakfast at Tiffany's tote.
"No," said Kevin quickly. "Why don't you go to Jules' house for a while?"
"Uhm…sure?" I said questioningly.
"C'mon, Nina! Let's go!" yelled Juliette pulling my away from the Jonas house and around the corner to hers.
"Eep…Julietteeeeee!" I yelled as she pulled on my arm. She pulled us into her house and she shut her door.
"Alrighty," I said, "something is definitely going on and you are going to start explaining to me…NOW!"
"Uhm…not now. Stay here, I'll be right back," she said.
"Okay...?" I answered as she ran out the door leaving me in her empty home. I ran up to Juliette's room and logged onto her computer. Joe was on AIM.
VampireLove666: Hey buddddddd. :-D
DangerMannnn: Yo.
VampireLove666: How are you?
DangerMannnn: gooood u
VampireLove666: Can't complain.
VampireLove666: My mom's still a bitchhhhh.
DangerMannnn: tjat suks wut hapend?
VampireLove666: She's going to Disneyland the weekend of Anything Goes
DangerMannnn: WUT!!!!!!!! Thats nt fair
VampireLove666: I know it isn't. It sucks.
DangerMannnn: ill go 2 all of ur shows.
VampireLove666: Thanks Joe. You're the BESTESTEST FRIEND EVURRR!
DangerMannnn: i kno 8-)
VampireLove666: lol.
DangerMannnn: brb. Jules just ran in to my house
VampireLove666: kk.
DangerMannnn is away
I looked outside Juliette's window and saw her run into his room out of breath. He was sitting at his computer desk and he looked confused. She was talking, but he didn't know what she was talking about. That is until Joe pointed at the computer screen and Juliette pointed at the window. I ducked down and hoped that they didn't see me spying. The computer dinged. I got an IM.
DangerMannnn returned from away.
DangerMannnn: hey spy.
VampireLove666: Damn, you saw me?
DangerMannnn: yup lol
VampireLove666: Dangggggggg. I feel so UNsly at the moment.
VampireLove666: lol.
DangerMannnn: nice well jules is talkin bout sumthin and im confuzzled bout wut
VampireLove666: Well, maybe I could translate for you.
DangerMannnn: talk 2 her i gotta help the bros wit hsumthin
VampireLove666: kk. Tell the bros I said hi
DangerMannnn: will do
VampireLove666: Thank you kindly:-D
DangerMannnn: NINA!!!!
VampireLove666: What?
DangerMannnn: Its JULIETTE
VampireLove666: I've realized that.
DangerMannnn: oh rihgt
DangerMannnn: well, u need 2 stay at my house 4 a while.
VampireLove666: How come?
DangerMannnn: cuz u do.
VampireLove666: kk???????
DangerMannnn: help urself to food
VampireLove666: I always do.
VampireLove666: lol
DangerMannnn: lol i gotta gooo now ttyl
DangerMannnn is away
Awkwardddd. I thought. I rolled my eyes and walked down to Juliette's kitchen to see what foods she had. It wasn't much. I just decided to skip on food and watch TV.
About an hour later, Juliette's cell phone started to ring. I looked at the caller ID and it read "THEM JONAS BOIIISSS". I laughed at her attempt to be black and answered it.
"Yo, you've reached Juliette's cellular device. She ain't here at the momento, but why don't y'all talk to NinaCakes instead," I answered.
"You're a loser," I heard Nick say.
"Merci boucoup. Now, what do you want?" I said.
"Juliette wanted me to call to tell you she's coming over," he said.
"PLAN B! PLAN B!" I could hear Kevin and Juliette screaming from the other end of the line.
"That's gay." I said. "It's her house. She can just come over."
"YOU'RE GAY!" I heard Juliette scream.
"Yeah, but she just wanted me to warn you," replied Nick.
"No shit I'm gay and why the warning?" I asked. The line went quiet for a while, but I could hear Nick deeply breathing into the receiver, probably trying to contemplate on what he was about to say next. Then, I heard a door slam over the phone.
"Uhm….sorry, the line has been disconnected. Please try again later," Nick said before hanging up the phone.
What the fuck? I thought confused. Then Juliette came bursting through the door, out of breath and pointing at me.
"YOU!" she said.
"Holy crap! Whatever I did, it wasn't my fault!" I yelled.
"NO! You didn't do anything!" she said. "I just need to see you upstairs."
"Okay???" I said getting off the couch. She grabbed my arm and violently pulled me up the stairs.
"HOLY CHEEESE, WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?!" I screamed. Juliette pulled me into her room and pushed me down on her bed.
"Uhm…wait right here," she quickly said. I moved to the computer as I heard Juliette run downstairs and lock her door. She ran back up and told me to listen to her.
"I've been waiting to listen to you since lunch," I pointed out.
"Oh…well…I gotta tell you something important," she said.
"Then start talking already," I demanded.
"Right…Okay so…..you know how Nick and I were talking to you about Joe today?" she asked.
"Yeah. I do," I said flatly.
"Well, you know how Joe kinda really likes you?" she said. What!?! I thought JOE LIKES ME.
"NO!" I yelled.
"Oh…well, he does," said Juliette. "Anyways, he's kinda really liked you for a while and yeahhhhh….that's all I really wanted to say."
"OH, MY FUCKING GOD!" I yelled. "WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME?!?!"
"We all thought you knew. It's kinda really obvious," she answered.
"Holy crap," I panicked. I looked at the screen. Joe had logged off but Kevin had logged on. I looked at the window and only Kevin was in the room.
VampireLove666: Okay Kevin, it's your turn to explain.
PKJ2dude: idk wut ur talkin bout
VampireLove666: You know damn well what I'm talking about.
VampireLove666: You better start explaining to me this whole "Joe liking me" thing
PKJ2dude: ohh that
VampireLove666: yeahhh that.
PKJ2dude: we all thought u knew
VampireLove666: Why is everyone assuming that?
PKJ2dude: bcuz joe made ir real obvius
VampireLove666: Then why didn't I notice it?
PKJ2dude: idk u must b heckaaa stupid 2 not notice
VampireLove666: thanks buddy
PKJ2dude: Well, uhm….I g2g.
VampireLove666: DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE! I'M STILL TALKING TO YOU!
PKJ2dude has signed off.
I turned to Juliette and she looked scared.
"Okay so, it might not all be what it looks like, but this could turn out great for you!" said Juliette nervously.
"Why didn't anyone tell me about this?" I asked.
"Uhm…Uhm….idk my bff Nina!" she weakly smiled.
"Juliette…" I said.
"Oh! Look! Joe's logged on!" she said quickly while backing away from me.
DangerMannnn: uhm…hi nina
I hesitated to answer.
VampireLove666: Hi Joe.
DangerMannnn: i guess uve herd alredy
VampireLove666: uhhh….yeah.
DangerMannnn: im sorry
VampireLove666: Why are you sorry?
DangerMannnn: bcuz this must b akward 4 u
VampireLove666: uhm…not that much
DangerMannnn: really?
VampireLove666: Actually, no. It is kinda awkward. But that's mostly because of the way I found out
DangerMannnn: o so the fact that i like u isnt akward
VampireLove666: Uhm….well, to tell you the truth, it's more relieving then awkward.
What am I saying? thought Nina. I don't like Joe like that.
DangerMannnn: Really?
VampireLove666: Really.
DangerMannnn: wow
VampireLove666: yeah….
DangerMannnn: So uhm…
VampireLove666: Uhm…?
DangerMannnn: woud
DangerMannnn: u
DangerMannnn: go
DangerMannnn:out
DangerMannnn: with
DangerMannnn: me
DangerMannnn??????
VampireLove666: Joe...
DangerMannnn: Yeah
VampireLove666: I can't answer that on the computer. I'm sorry.
DangerMannnn is away
VampireLove666: JOE WHERE'D YOU GO?!!?!?
Auto-Response from DangerMannnn: at jules' house. its important buisness
"Oh God," I said.
"What?" asked Juliette.
"Oh God…." I repeated.
"WHAT?" asked Juliette.
"He's coming over," I whimpered.
"What?"
"HE'S COMING OVER! WHAT DO I DO? WHAT DO I DO?" I screamed.
"Well, do you like him?"
"I…I don't know!" I panicked.
"I think you should," said Juliette proudly.
"I…I don't know. I think I do. I just don't know!" I cried.
Just then we heard someone desperately trying to open the locked front door and when they realized that it was locked we heard them violently banging on it.
"Go get it," I told Juliette.
"Fine…" sighed Juliette.
She ran downstairs and opened the door and as soon as I heard the door open I heard someone quickly running up the stairs. My heart started to beat faster and faster and my stomach began to churn. Oh cheese. Oh cheese. Oh cheese I kept thinking. Juliette's door swung open and there in front of me stood Joe out of breath.
"Nina, would you go out with me?" he quickly asked.
Yes! Yes! Yes! SAY YES!!! my head was screaming. I opened my mouth but nothing came out. DAMIT! I thought to myself.
"I'm sorry," said Joe. "I should've realized when you wouldn't answer me online you wouldn't answer me in person."
He turned around and started to walk away before I screamed "WAIT!"
Joe stopped in his tracks and turned back around to look at me. I never realized how extremely gorgeous his face really was.
"Stay right there," I said running past him and down the stairs to retrieve my bag. I ran back upstairs and I pulled out my little blue notebook and started to scribble on the paper. I wrote, "I'd love to go out with you, Joe." I folded it multiple times into a small paper airplane and flew it at Joe.
He struggled to catch it, but once he did he then struggled to unfold it. My stomach did so many flips in those few moments that I was almost tempted to enter it into the Olympics. When he finally read it he looked up at me and smiled.
"Really?" he said.
"Really," I replied.
"YEEE!!!" screamed Juliette from behind Joe.
"Nina and Joe sitting in my room K-I-S-S-I-N-G!" she sang.
"Shut-up, Jules, we aren't even kissing," I laughed standing up out of the chair giving Joe a hug.
"Not yet," he said before crashing his lips to mine.
At the exact moment, I knew everything was going to be okay. I knew my life was finally complete. I knew I finally had someone to love.
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6 months later
In Joe's room
"Babycakes," said Joe as we sat on his bed after watching a movie on his laptop.
"Yes…" I answered.
"Do your parents know that we are together?" he asked.
"Uhm…well…" I said.
"Nina," he said. "Why didn't you tell them?"
"I was going to! But, we got in another fight and I just couldn't," I said apologetically.
"Do your parents know that you're bi?" he asked.
"…again, I was going to but we got in another fight…"
"Babycakes, you know you should tell them these things," he told me.
"I know," I said. "I'm just afraid."
"Don't be," he reassured me. "I'll be right here to protect you."
"Promise?" I asked resting my head on his shoulder.
"Promise," he said pulling me closer to him. We sat there for what seemed to us like the longest time in the world before Kevin came running in.
"NINA! NINA! NINA!" he was screaming.
"What?" I asked annoyed. Kevin was panting and it seemed like he didn't know what to say.
"WHAT?!?" I asked again with even more annoyance.
"PA-PA-PA!" he stuttered.
"Pa…?" I asked.
"YOUR PARENTS!" he yelled.
"Shit, where are they?" I said.
"Living room," he answered. I looked at Joe and he looked nervous. I got up from the bed and started to walk out the door.
"Wait…" I said running back in the room. "Do your parents know I'm bi?"
"Yeah, they do," said Joe. "Why?"
"I just want to make sure I'm only surprising two people tonight," I answered turning around and heading downstairs. I took my time getting down the staircase and thinking about what exactly my parents would want to see me about. As soon as I arrived downstairs my parents looked angry.
"Marina Crystal Balza," said my father. "Where the hell have you been?"
"What's it to you," I answered caustically.
"I'm your father," he said. "I should know these things."
"Well, if you must know, and if you can't tell," I snapped, "I've been here."
"Why the hell haven't you been at home?"
"I can think of a million reasons why I haven't been at home."
"We have time,"
"Reasons one through a million," I started, "I HATE it at home."
"MARINA CRYSTAL BALZA!" yelled my mother. "DON'T YOU DARE TELL US THAT YOU HATE IT! WE ARE SO GOOD TO YOU!"
"Good to me?" I asked. "You think you are quote unquote good to me?"
"I know we are good to you," she stated.
"If you were good to me," I started, "then you would know what's been going on in my life for the past few years."
"I know everything that happens to you," she said.
"Really?" I tested. "Well, then what are the two biggest things that have happened to me within the past few years?"
"There is only one thing and that is you have disobeyed your parents."
"Ahahaha," I laughed. "WRONG!"
"Don't talk to your mother like that," said my father.
"Don't talk to me like that," I snapped.
"I'll talk to you however I want; I raised you."
"No. You think you raised me. But if you raised me, you would have paid attention to me within the past few years," I pointed out.
"We pay attention to everything,"
"THEN WHY DO YOU NOT KNOW THAT I'M BISEXUAL!??!" I screamed. Everything went quiet as my parents stared at me in disbelief.
"What?" my father finally said.
"You heard me," I said. "I'm bisexual and I have been for over 2 years."
"Why didn't you tell us?" asked my mother.
"Why would I have to?" I asked. "If you paid attention, you'd hear me talking about it with Juliette, or Joe, or Nick, or Kevin!"
"No." said my father. "You are not bisexual."
"And what makes you think that?" I asked.
"You are my daughter and my daughter is not going to be gay," he said flatly.
"Why would it matter if I was gay or not?" I asked. "Is there something wrong with being gay?"
"It's disgusting," he answered.
"It's who I am," I replied. "And if you don't like it, then I don't care. I'm happy how I am."
"How you are, isn't going to get you anywhere in life," he said.
"How would you know?" I asked. "You don't know how I feel."
"I am not going to let you be bisexual."
"And, I am not going to let you choose my fate."
"I am in control of your life."
"No. You think you are. You are nothing but a poor, needy, insignificant spectator," I spat. My dad became quiet.
"Don't you ever think of ever coming back home again," he finally said.
"Not a problem," I replied. He and my mother walked out of the house and I turned around to see Kevin and Joe behind me.
"Nina, are you okay?" asked Kevin. I weakly nodded a yes.
"No, you aren't," said Joe. "I know when my babycakes is okay."
I ran into Joe's arms and burst into tears. "He hates me" I kept repeating into Joe's chest. Obviously, Joe didn't know what to say, because he was silent while I cried in his arms. I soon became tired and Joe carried me into the recreational room where we laid on the couch alone. I continued to sob and Joe continued to silently hold me close to himself.
Another hour later I had finally stopped crying and Joe and I laid on the couch under a blanket in silence. Joe hadn't said a word since I had started crying and I had lost my voice.
"Babycakes," Joe had finally said. I tried to say something but all the came out of my mouth was a small sound acknowledging him.
"I love you," he said. I became speechless as this was surprisingly the first time he had said that to me.
I looked into his eyes and smiled. "I love you, too," I managed to barely whisper.