A/N: Probably my first decent story on here, and my first without an OC. A bit of a one-sided Seifette, as well as a Roxette. Might develop a little further depending on response. R&R please!

Why did I settle for you, when it wasn't really what I wanted?

Why don't I have the strength to tell you the truth about it now?

Why… When I could have had so much more?

"Hey, Seifer," I said as he casually sat down next to me. The rest of my friends would hate me for it, but I actually didn't mind talking to Seifer. The whole "tough guy" thing was an act. He knew it, and so did I. He told me one day after I found him crying over the end of a romance novel. Not that I had a problem with it. I actually liked the fact that he wasn't afraid to show his feelings. I told him that people would probably like him better if he didn't act so tough, but he wouldn't listen. I guess I'm the only person who really knows him.

"Hey, Olette. Do you mind if we talk?"

"Not at all. What's wrong?"

"Well… um, I've been thinking. You're the only person who really knows me. And… this is gonna sound so stupid…" he whispered that part so that I barely heard it. "Um… I really like you… and I was wondering, if maybe you wanted to go out with me sometime."

This is where my brain screeched to a stop. Go out with Seifer? Yeah, I liked Seifer enough, and maybe I had thought about the possibility once or twice. But actually going through with it? To actually do it when all I can think about is…

"Hayner, Pence, Olette, wait up!" He ran to catch up to us. We all waited a few seconds for him to join us.

"Hey, where've you been," Hayner asked impatiently. "You were supposed to meet us here a half an hour ago.

"Sorry," he smiled and blushed sheepishly. "I slept in this morning."

"It's okay, man. Let's just get going. I'm starving," Pence stated. The rest of us started laughing. The look of confusion on Pence's face only made us laugh harder. I looked at him, his smile and laugh making my stomach flip. I longed so much to be more than just his friend…

…Roxas. But how long has it been? How long have we been friends? How long have I known him, and all we've been was friends. I guess I should probably give up on him. Maybe I will. I guess going out with Seifer would be all right.

"Sure, Seifer. That would be great." His face lit up like a city skyline at night.

"Really? Alright!" He was so happy about it that I couldn't help but smile. At least I had someone…

A few weeks passed. Seifer and I have officially become a couple. He's really nice, and I like him. And I apparently mean the world to him. So why aren't I happier? Why is there something holding me back from being happy?

I went to the Usual Spot, where Hayner and Pence were already. They both knew about Seifer, as did Roxas. I was surprised by how well they had taken the news. At least, I was surprised by how well Hayner and Pence took it. Roxas, on the other hand, wasn't very happy. I guess it must have been because he and Seifer were arch enemies.

"Where's Roxas?"

"I don't know," Hayner replied. "Haven't seen him all day."

"You know," Pence said, turning to face me. "He hasn't really been the same since he found out about you and Seifer."

"I've noticed," I replied in a slightly harsh tone.

"Well, I can't really blame him." I looked over at Hayner, my eyes wide with surprise. "If I liked a girl and she started going out with someone like him, I'd be pretty upset too."

My eyes got three times wider.

What have I done?

Why did I let this happen?