SO This is my first ever FanFic hoping you enjoy it. I never planned on ever writing one but I had this dream and so I decided to write it down. Its an OutlawQueen fic. But there are lots more characters in the story. So lean back and enjoy. PS I'm Sorry in case you find a lot of mistakes (I'm Swiss so tried my best with my grammar/word knowledge) :D

She could hear the blood rush through her veins. Her heart pumped so fast she didn't wanted to open her eyes. Actually she would have prefered not to wake up anymore, not after what she just had given up, everything she had faught so hard for.

She didn't know where he dropped her she only knew that she had to be somewhere in the Forest. The ground on which she was lying felt moist and squishy it was almost comfortable if it only wasn't that cold out here.

Still to weakened from the harsh landing she decided to stay there just until she wouldn't be able to stand the dampness of the forest soil.

It must be night, she thought.

After a while she finally opened her eyes and gazed into the leaves softly falling. She looked around without moving. She took a deep breath of the oh so familiar air. She could smell it, the Magic, it was everywhere, surrounding her.

Different than in Storybrooke. She felt a stinging pain in her heart, just thinking of Storybrooke. She wished that there was a curse to make her forget everything. She wanted to forget Neverland, Snow and this oh so annoying Prince, Hook, Emma and

„Henry,.." Just the thought of Henry made her heart bleed but actually saying his name shattered it into little tiny pieces.

Yes she still loved him and she always would but she had to leave him. It was in his best interest. At least thats what she kept on telling herself.

He will never be happy with you around!

With a slight yelp she got unto her feet. Her whole body was bruised from the hard landing. Yes the Queen was back but she didn't feel much like a Queen at moment she felt more like a peasant a waif.

Regina flinched as she heard something in the trees following her slowly. She knew that he was there but she couldn't see him, it was dark, you could even say black. The only light in this deep forest where the glowworms that seemed to show her the way just like ghost lights do.

Finally after what seemed like years to her she came the edge of a clearing. Hesitant she walked out onto the opening. She decided to rest her aching muscels and bruised bones for the night.

She heard him slipping through the wood hiding in the dark. From time to time Regina could see his red eyes. She had to catch him but she just felt to drained from the war they just faught against Pan. A shiver overcame her when she thought of what he told her before he vanished. He will never be happy around you! The words echoed in her head. She was ripped out of her thoughts by a pair of red eyes peering down at her. She decided that it would probably be for the best if she just took care of that matter now.

Regina, quickly grasped the Shadow. She placed him swiftly at her feet, attaching her shadow back to where it belonged, using a spell Rumple taught her back when they were in,... Neverland again this sting.

Seperating themselves from their shadows ended up being their only way back to Storybrooke. Only that Regina, never plannend on going back with the Charmings. She knew that if she stayed any longer with them she sooner or later would have destroyed their happiness. And she only wanted the best for Henry. And if that meant leaving him with Emma and Neal, she would sacrifice her own happiness.

No, the Queen told the Shadow that she wanted to go someplace else,... the Enchanted Forest...

A vague smile hushed over her face. At the same time she felt a relief that she finally found a way to get her redemption, which she seeked for so long and then again she felt like she was tied up in chains. The big gaping hole Henry left in her heart was bigger as the one Daniel left when her mother took his life. Tears started running down Reginas face. She layed her exhausted body back down onto the meadow. Letting the night fall over her. Falling deeper and deeper into the world where everything was possible. Where everyone could be what ever they wanted to be...

You will never be his mother,

He will never be happy around you,

You will bring death over him...!

_Storybrooke_

It took him a while to remember what happened and that he no longer was in Neverland anymore. He had been saved by his family just before he would have become one of them. A Lost Boy. A shiver run down his spine just thinking of it. He thought of how terrified he was never to see his mothers again. He stared at the ceiling of his Grandparents guest room. A little sting in his chest reminded him of how they got back holding on to Rumpelstiltskins shadow carrying them all back to Storybrooke. Suddenly he recalled Regina not holding on the Rumples shadow... „Mom!?"

Henry jumped out of his bed rushing down the stairs.

Emma, and Neal sat at the kitchen counter watching Snow prepair some breakfast. They all longed for something other than seafood. „I probalby never even look at fish anymore in my whole life" said Emma with a big grin on her face. She flinched as he heard Henry run down the stairs.

„Good morning sunshi..." she startled as she saw the panic in Henry eyes. „What's wrong did you have a nightmare?" she asked not knowing what happened.

„Where's Mom,.. Regina?" he asked without answering his mothers question.

„I don't know, I suppose she'll be in her house. Why?" she asked with a slight dissapointment.

„Did you see her come back with us?"

Confused about her questions being completely ignored by him, she answered

„No I don't think so. Remember she came back here on her own. So she most likely went straight to her place."

Henry suddenly burst into tears. Emma stood up and run to him holding him against her body. She was confused not understanding what just happend.

„She didn't come here did she?" he wispered. „I saw her fl...fly into a diff..erent direction" he swallowed trying to get rid of the lump in his throat. „Sh.. She was behind us and then,... then she wasn't" he tried to explain but the words just stuck in his throat.

Emma stared down at him then looking back over her shoulder to Snow and Charming, hoping that they knew anything. But she could read off their faces that they knew as much as she did. She softly lifted his chin looking into his glazed eyes.

„Lets go look for Regina then, alright?"

She could see a spark of hope glowing in his reddend eyes. He let go of her and nodded swiftly grabbing his jacket. Emma turned around to Snow „We'll be back soon. Leave some for us, would you?"

Mary-Margaret looked at them with her soft and most optimistic smile „Why don't you just bring her back with you. There's enough to feed a whole village."

Henry couldn't believe what he just heard. But the idea of his family sitting at one table made him happy. He smiled back at her, turned and rushed out the door. Emma just barely able to follow his pace...

thank you so much for reading. Feel free what you thought so far. I tried to keep all still bit in the dark. but next chapter will happen more stuff. hoping that my idea comes back :D right now I'm just exhausted. Thanks again 3