Disclaimer: The characters in CSI: New York do not belong to me damn you CBS

Well this is my second story, my first not been so good (Forever and a day) but after months of reading and idea's bouncing round in my head here I am again :) I'm not great and don't claim to be this site has some amazing people to name a few (* Laurzz *Rhymenocerous *Charmedbec *ioanhoratio *Brinchen86 I could go on forever lol)

Summary: I love all the CSI NY story's but I find myself loving the old school, more so I thought as we didn't really get to see what happened and how we got, baby Lucy I thought hey up CBS? So here's what my little mind made up lol

May contain Season 5 spoilers ***

Wash away the bad with raindrops princess.

Walking in the rain is all I know it's the best time to think to clear your head "Wash away the bad with raindrops princess" my dad would say. Looking up at the sky I huff and shake myself I'd need a month's worth of rain to wash away how i'm feeling now, but if only huh dad? Am I really talking to myself?

Shaking my head again I hear my phone ringing, pulling me back again sliding it out of my wet pocket, I don't need to look I already know who it is but at the same time, I need to see his face as it lights up my phone.

"Hey" I answer, terrified of what he will say next.

"Hey, where are you?"

I answer smiling "Taking a rain walk. It's a Montana thing, you wouldn't understand" I say harshly knowing he doesn't understand a lot of things about me so why would he this.

"Yeah, maybe I would. Maybe there're a lot of things I understand now."

Oh this should be good I think to myself "Yeah, like what?" I ask feeling, daring.

"Like how sorry I am for pushing you away"

I hold my breath for a minute making sure what I want to say stays in my head and not out loud "well wow Danny finally you've worked out you been pushing me away only took six weeks but hey well done Danny Messer you want a medal."

After a deep breath, I decide to go with the other option but, without holding back "Danny, I tried giving you your space, but I don't know how much longer I can be alone, it's messing with my work, it's breaking my heart." I never thought he would break my heart but it's true he has.

"No, No, I know – I know. I swear to god it wont happen again. The truth is, the truth is, I miss you, more than I can say, even if I don't know how to say-"

Trying not to smile because deep down I know it won't last "Do you have any idea how hard you are to love?" I ask stupidly because here I am on the phone handing him my heart again to stamp on knowing he won't or can't say it back guys like Danny Messer don't say I love you.

"Why don't you come over, and tell me in person. Please?"

Weighing up my options I look around the empty street. I can't just forgive him straight away because he flashes me a Danny grin or gives me his best puppy dog eyes, these past six weeks I've been to hell and back, and he hasn't given a rat's ass.

Blinking the rain out of my eyes or is it tear's, I'm not really sure anymore, I want to, I want him no I think I need him in my life definitely but then reality kicks in "I gotta go" I rush to hang up before my mouth goes against my heart and say's, I'll be right over.

Sliding my phone away I hold my head up high I keep walking but Silently scolding myself, why do I love him? Why do I care? Why am I bothering after what he's done. I didn't do anything wrong, it's his fault were like this not mine. I should just move on be with someone else.

Before I know it I'm standing outside his apartment building. I hung up the phone so my mouth didn't double cross me but clearly I totally forgot about my leg's, the legs that walked me right to him. I'm mentally begging them to stop now, but I keep walking, Walking right to his floor holding my breath now I knock.

"Who is it?"

I smile he sounds so sexy when he's tired "It's me..." I trail off as I hear him quickly shuffling towards the door probably in a wife beater and sweat's no doubt. Oh my god I'm mentally undressing him and I haven't even got inside yet, not that I'm planning on go inside I'm going to stand here and give him what for then leave!

."Linds-"

I look up who am I bloody kidding just seeing his sad face as he pulls open the door a little harder then needed but he makes my frown turn into a weak smile, he always does "Hi" I whisper.

"Lindsay, I'm so sor.."

Stepping closer my hand reaches out one of my fingers rub over his soft lips "I came to tell you that your, a dick! You are selfish and damn you should care about me! That you should know how much you're hurting me Danny" the tears start to fall "then I was going to leave" I sniffing up shaking my head "but my body won't let me it's crossed me all night long just to get here. So in person here I am" tilting my head my finger moves and my hand cups the side of his face "so what are you going to do Danny?"

Good? Bad? Should I continue?