Soo I'm back Hi! So This is my new fic It's set after the last episode of season 2 you know when *Spoiler alert* Wally dies. So this is kind of what I think could happen if you have an overactive imagination (Like me ) so happy thursday. Enjoy. will be a full book hopefully. Clearly because this is on fanfic .net I don't own these characters except the baby.

year one...

Monday...

Dear Wally,

At least I think that this is how I'm supposed to start. I can't be sure black canary just said to write out all my feelings, or things I never said something about getting over everything quicker. She's blocked me from missions until I start 'accepting your passing', as she puts it.

It's been two weeks since you evaporated into nothingness as I've come to calling it, less sciencey than the term Barry uses, if you were here you'd probably explain why he calls it the name he does and how it works. My nerd.

If we are starting with things that went unsaid before I left. Or whilst I was working, I think I should probably start with me being pregnant.

Yep, see if I'd have told you this whilst I was on the mission you would have had D pull me out of there. I won't say his name because you'd known who and if this fell into J's hands she'd also know D's secret. But anyway if you'd of pulled me out of the mission and that would of... To put it quite bluntly kicked the world in the ass, leading to civilian freak out and riots, who know how that would have ended. And we'd all be dead not just you.

It's actually was harder to write that than I thought, it's weird saying it or writing it out.

D's losing it muttering to himself. And well Bart suits your costume and you were here you would be so proud he wears it well not as well as you but he doesn't need to know that he feels like he's under enough pressure as is.

He wants to do you proud. He's a good kid.

God I hope I don't screw up our kid. That's also pretty weird to write. Our kid. If our kid is anything like you he/ she/ it will be fine. If my parents don't know about it, it'll be fine. No how do I keep this from them.

Damn you Wallace, normally you can help me fix whatever mess I'm in even when I don't want help but I'm too stubborn to admit I need help. Crap what if our child is more stubborn than both if us. Dear god please help me please don't let it be that stubborn.

I'm keeping it hidden surprisingly well but my armour as tigress is pretty bulky and I've been eating a lot if chunky monkey. Connor is too sad to be confused about why I would eat monkey flavoured ice cream after you confused he still doesn't understand it doesn't have real monkeys or monkey flavourings in you. Maybe everyone just thinks I've put weight on and my new clothing of choice is sweats.

Zee knows something is up but she's not going to push me until I'm ready.

By my calculations I'm six months along and a bit on the small side I guess that is probably my fault I don't think submarines are exactly what those prenatal books mean by a water birth. Although that would be pretty unique.

I should probably see some kind of doctor but I don't think I'm ready for everyone to know yet. Plus you know how much I hate hospitals too many bad memories.

If you were here you'd probably tell me off, You'd tell me I'm risking our baby's safety and I know it's stupid. But I'm scared what if something's wrong with the baby, what if it's my fault, what happens if they have your powers what am I supposed to do then.

Do I run away and try to keep her safe, from this life, our past, my family.

If you were here you'd help me make this decision, well actually I wouldn't ever have to make this decision.

Damn you Wallace.