Disclaimer: I do not own Frozen, or The Snow Queen, which it is supposedly based off but bears little resemblance to.
Summary: Queen Elsa reflects on the decisions that brought her to where she is now.
FEAR WILL BE YOUR ENEMY
Arendell is laughing around me, skating and playing in the snow that I created, a far cry from their reaction of only days ago.
When my powers were revealed to the world, I was scared, but to some extent, I had expected the reaction. The night that the trolls had cured Anna was burned into my memory, feeding nightmares that often had me waking to a room covered in frost.
I sometimes wonder if it would have been different, had my parents not been so afraid of what I could do with my powers.
After setting off a perpetual winter, I could admit that they had a valid reason, but they certainly could have gone about it better.
I know that they acted out of love, for both of us, but part of me knows it was the wrong course to take. They took a scared little girl and locked her away from her one source of comfort, who she wanted nothing more than to be sure was all right. They were so scared of what I could do that they taught me to fear it, as well. Anna didn't understand why I suddenly didn't want to be around her, and it left her so starved for human contact that she believed herself madly in love with the first person to show her attention.
I was never more in control of my powers as when Anna and I were playing together. I lost control when I was angry or frightened, and they taught me to fear myself.
My fear stopped me from embracing my power and learning to control it, focussing so hard on suppressing what I was that when something bad did happen, I had no idea how to reverse it.
What if they had reassured me, presenting the accident that endangered Anna as just that, a reason to refine my power so I could use it safely, rather than telling me to hide it.
As the heir, I took lessons in politics. We could have slowly revealed what I could do to the people as my powers developed, presenting it as a good thing, to lessen harsh winters or bring relief in the days when summer became too hot. They could have been thankful, rather than fearful.
Instead, they were kept as ignorant as Anna, and their fear, and my fear of what their fear might provoke, drove me to flee and accidentally create an eternal winter.
My joyful, bubbly sister made people doubt their belief of my wickedness when she threw herself in front of the Prince's blade, and everyone witnessed the bond between us. If we had been allowed to keep that bond, would she have still been so impulsive with Hans? Would she have learned to listen and be more cautious if she remembered what ignoring my warnings to slow down had nearly resulted in?
I loved my parents, and I know they were doing what they thought was best, but I cannot help but think that they were wrong in their decision, and it nearly ended in tragedy.
But, for better or worse, it happened, and it shaped all of our lives.
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A/N: OK, this has been bouncing around in my head ever since I saw the movie. The King and Queen had good intention, but the last thing a traumatised child needs is to be cut off from her support network with no contact except with people who are obviously scared of what she can do.
anyway, this is my take on it.
Thanks,
Nat