Cause of Death – Regrets

Hey everyone I am new on fan fiction net and this is my first ever story I have wrote I seen loads of people stories on here and there are absolutely amazing. I love the cause of death which is an amazing game and I am a huge fan on maltara, that and the stories on here that i have read have inspired me to make my own stories about C.O.D so I have decide to give it a go, I am open to any comments and criticism and also new ideas that you have, which can help me improve on or include in my stories and I hope you will enjoy my stories, special shout out to Tiny Pteranodon who work is amazing :') x

Chapter 1 Bad mistakes

People say that regret is when you feel bad for something that has happened, that you would change and do differently before it's to late. Some things that you want to try and forget about, and move on but can't seem to. Everyone makes bad judgements and mistakes that can't be taken back because in life you can't go back in time, you can't change the past and have to move on even if it is hard. You will never know what these choices will do to you or effect the closest people around you until it has happened or its to late.

Prologue

Your anger in your face is violently red, and you feel shaky as you walk away knowing you've never had an argument like that before. Feeling the anger stricken through your eyes at him but mostly at yourself for the things you have said.

You have never lost your cool like that with your partner before or anyone else in that matter but especially not Mal. Even that look you saw painted on his face said everything, his eyes sadden with heart wrenching sorrow but also intense with guilt that's sticks in your mind like a broken record knowing, it just keeps playing over and over again.

You feel like you just want to run and hide knowing you have hurt someone that you care about very much and that is dear to you, what makes you feel worst is the terrible things you have said that normally you would never say. You feel like a knife is stabbing into your heart with every inch going in deeper each time, your head spins with over loading thoughts and emotions all at once which is to over powering to bare.

You think to yourself "What is wrong with me, I have never lost it with Mal like that ever. I don't know what came over me oh gosh what have I done." but at the same time you still feel hurt by what Mal said back to you.

"Why can't he see I am happy with Oscar ugh."

"Why did he say them things for, does he mean what he says I am so confused ?"

"Why is he playing with my feelings for, it's so complicated why does my heart feel torn sigh."

You hear footsteps coming over to you closer and closer each time hearing someone screaming your name you know it Mal.
" Natara .. Natara I am sorry can we talk about this please."

Mal screams trying to catch up with you. Still emotional and angry of what's just happened trying to keep the tears back you say.

"No Mal we can't I done talking just leave me alone I need some space."

Because if you talk to him you know you are either going to shout at him, which will make things worst or break down and cry. You just don't want to cause more damage than has already be done you don't want to lose him as your partner or your friend but, mostly you don't want to lose him. You can't bare the thought of that because thinking about it makes your heart sink.

Mal catches up to you and blocks your path you glare at him, for a moment then try to side step to one side but each time he keeps blocking you, trying to keep your composure you say

"Mal move please just get out my way." Mal being the caring person he is says gently grabbing your arm.

"No Natara! your not okay look at you your shaking, I can't leave you like this please can we talk."

Mal being Mal hates seeing that your hurt or upset, you hate making him sad because behind them walls you have built. You know deep down you have strong feelings for him not matter how much you fight it, or keep denying it to yourself, knowing you can't be with him because it unprofessional to your work which breaks your heart.

You look into his big sparkling blue eyes for a moment which meets his gaze then you look away and shoves him a side, knowing you can't bare to look at him.

"No Mal! I done talking I need time to think, just leave me alone leave me alone!"

"Nat ... Natara wait ! ..."
You storm off but Mal doesn't give up and follows behind determine not to give up, you start to cross the road when it just happens out of no where.

It all happens in a flash all you can hear is your heart thumping raptly out your chest your ears pop which you can't comprehend sounds around you, all the sound is muffled. Sirens blaring people shouting and screaming hysterically screeching of tires. It all happens fast to fast.

To be continued ...