Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or the song "It's All Over" by Three Days Grace.
AN: Yes, another sonfic. I know, and I am working on Switched, I just have to write these, like an addiction. ;
Duo sighed, ever since the end of the war he'd been alone. No one ever tried to contact him, not like he made it easy though. He hadn't stayed in a one town for very long.
His life was going downhill fast, having nothing left to do. What does a soldier do when he's no longer needed? All he ever knew was surviving and fighting, what should he do with himself in this new land of peace?
Which was the reason he was now sitting in a bar, drinking away all the money he had managed to scrape up. Not caring if he had nothing left afterwards.
//Your bottles' almost empty//
//You know this can't go on//
Again Heero's name drifted across his mind and he sighed. 'That guy... Will I ever just get over him? He has his princess, he doesn't need the street rat...'
//Because of you my mind is always racing//
Duo glanced up and saw a man he'd seen many times before, he was gesturing for him. He knew where this would lead...
...And of course here he was, twenty minutes later in a bathroom stall with a needle and a need aching in his chest.
//The needles' breaking your skin//
//The scar is sinking in//
//And now your trip begins but//
Duo leaned his head back and sighed, giving in. Knowing he was killing himself, but not caring anyway.
//It's all over for//
//It's all over for//
//You//
//For you//
Finally he climbed to his feet. Who knew how much times had passed? He wasn't sure, but he knew he needed to get back to the one room coffin he called an apartment. He had work tomorrow, no matter how crappy he felt.
Somehow he made it home, he wasn't sure. His memory was hazy at best.
//When you're on the edge and falling off//
//It's all over for you//
An annoying noise woke hum up much too soon for his comfort and he groaned, rolling over and hiding beneath the blankets. But it wasn't meant to be, as he dragged himself to his feet. Changing and heading to work at the simple grocery store.
From Gundam pilot to grocery bagger. Man, he'd sunk so low...
//For you//
//When you're on the edge and falling off//
//It's all over//
Today Duo was in for a surprise. Apparently one of the other four had found him and who do you think would be the one they send? Heero Yuy, of course, the one he lest wanted to see in his current state.
Duo was stocking selves, wearing shades to protect his eyes and hide the horrible hangover he had. Suddenly someone bumped him and he fell, landing on his ass.
"Shit, geeze man, watch where ya goin' would ya? I mean..." Duo muttered, staggering to his feet. He jerked in surprise when two strong hands grabbed his arms and pulled him to his feet. He looked up just to get lost in the bluest eyes he'd ever seen.
"H-Heero...? What...?"
"Nice to see you too. Duo." Heero said, giving him a once over and frowning. "Are you okay? I didn't mean to bump into you..."
//I know what runs through your blood//
"Ah... I-I fine... You just startled me..." He responded, dodging the issue Heero was hinting at. 'Damn, always so perceptive...'
Heero blinked, staring deep into Duo's eyes. Coughing, Duo blushed.
"Umm... You can let me go, I can stand just fine ya know..." Duo mumbled, glancing away.
Heero let go, apologizing. "Sorry."
//You do this all in vein//
//Because of you my mind is always racing//
For the rest of the day Duo could feel eyes on him and he knew it was Heero. He had said they would met after Duo got off from work. Apparently Heero was suspicious, either that or he was being rather paranoid today...
//And it gets under my skin//
And of course he had to have a trip to the bathroom, another needle hidden in his bag. He made sure no one else was there and then sat in the stall, locking the door.
Unfortunately, today Heero was going to be bold. Seeing as Duo had been in there for more than twenty minutes Heero went in, only to find one stall locked and no Duo in sight.
'Fuck,' Duo thought, panicking when he realized just who had come in. 'He'll know I'm messed up if I come out now, but knowing him he'll barge right in if I don't come out...'
"Duo? You in there?" Heero's voice confirmed his thoughts.
"Yeah, I'm coming out, one sec," Duo said. He was caught only thing to do was face the music.
//To see you getting it//
//And now your trip begins but//
--Duo POV--
Heero's eyes widen when he saw me, staring at my dilated eyes. I turned my eyes away and walked to the sink, washing my hands.
//It's all over for//
//It's all over for//
//You//
"Duo...? Are you okay...?" He sounds so confused, I guess he's not that experienced with drugs. Either that or he never though I'd be this way when he found me.
"I'm m'kay Hee-ro," I slurred, very slightly, but enough for both of us to catch it. I winced and his eyes narrowed at me.
"Are you... on drugs, Duo?" he asked, grabbing my arm and spinning me to face him. Damn, apparently he hasn't lost any of his strength, and he spun me way too fast. I lose my footing and fall against him.
"May-be," I mutter, putting a hand to my head. "And now, I'm dizzy toos..." I giggle.
I am so screwed, I can see it in his eyes.
//For you//
"What the hell happened to you? I thought you were against drugs?" Heero asked, his grip on my arms tightening. I wine slightly.
"Ow, Heero, you're hurtin' me." I saw, trying to get out of his grasp. He will have none of that, and holds tighter, glaring at me.
"What did you take?"
I stared at him, my eyes still dilated and shook my head. "Dunno." He stared at me.
"You don't know?! You just took some random drug?!" He yells at me, shaking me.
"Yes, okay?! I'm immune because of G! I have to take really strong shit and I never asked!" I yell back, my arms shaking slightly. The drug is leaving my system and it always gives me the shakes for a little while.
//When you're on the edge and falling off//
//It's all over for you//
"God Duo, I feel like I don't know you anymore, why didn't you come to us?!" He yells, angry at me. Now I'm pissed. Even though I'm trembling I rip out of his grip and stare him down.
"'Us?!' What 'us?!' Nothing from you for two years and all of a sudden I should've called you?! Fuck you Heero! News flash; you never knew me!!" I scream back, my face flushing and a couple tears leaking from my eyes. I turn and run out, stumbling a little.
He doesn't chase me.
//For you//
//When you're on the edge and falling off//
//It's all over//
I ran straight home, fuck work. Slamming my door I collapsed on the coach, breathing heavily. After a minute I sighed and walked into the kitchen, grabbing one of the many liquors I had stashed in there.
I collapse on the floor in the living room and just down two glasses straight. Feeling them burn a path down my throat. I'm still crying but I don't care.
I don't need him to tell me, I know how low I've sunk.
//And now you're dead inside//
//Still you wonder why//
//It's all over//
I hear a knock and ignore it, halfway through the bottle. Heero's voice drifts through.
"Duo... Duo I'm sorry, I'm just worried about you, we all are, that's why I came... Look let me in and we can talk about this..." I tune him out. contemplating death.
//And now you're dead inside//
//Still you wonder why//
//It's all over//
It's not the first time I've thought of it. My life has been hell, so why not? I can still hear him in the background but I don't care. The bottle is empty and I'm wondering what to do...
//And now you're dead inside//
//Still you wonder why//
Pulling myself to my feet I note that Heero's voice has a panicked edge to it, but I ignore him as I head to the kitchen again. Another bottle my only objective.
I grab two.
Hey if I'm gonna' die, I wanna' die like this. Drawing out the world, shunning it the way it always shunned me...
//When you're on the edge and falling off//
//It's all over for (You, for you)//
I drink both in under five minutes. Heero is now banging on the door. I've managed to get the last three bottles I have, only God knows how.
I'm halfway through the second when he kicks the door, splinters flying off it.
//And now you're dead inside//
//Still you wonder why//
I finish it and my vision is starting to go blurry, I manage to drink a good fourth of the third before the door finally gives and Heero is before me.
He kneels in front of me and starts talking to me. I can't hear him anymore. His gets a horrified look on his face and I realize I said this out loud. He holds my head still and talks loudly and slowly.
"How many did you drink?"
//When you're on the edge and falling off//
//It's all over for (You, for you)//
I giggle absently. "Fiiive..." He looks shocked. He leaps to his feet and starts looking frantically for something, distantly I hear him yelling...
"Phone... fuck... 911... God damn it Duo, where the fuck is it?!"
"On the t.v." I mutter, falling over with a thud.
He dashes for it and then rushes back to me, yelling and screaming, though I can't hear him. And my vision is fading so fast...
//And now you're dead inside//
The last thing I see is his face, tears streaking down his cheeks, yelling something and shaking me.
//Still you wonder why//
//It's all over//
AN: CLIFFHANGER:dodges random things being thrown at me: I may or may not continue this one... R&R and give me feedback. .