I don't really know what I was thinking when I wrote this.
It is pretty much based on how I feel .
Hope u like ^o^
It's the same routine every single day. I'll get to school and sit and do my homework that I never took home that night in front of my locker with a friend. Then I'll see you walking down the hall with you backpack slung over you shoulder. My heart doesn't skip like it usually does with the other boys I like, but a smile is instantly over my lips. You make me happy Danna.
We have a few classes together. Not a whole lot but a few and it's nice talking to you. I like talking to everybody but with you I feel nice. We understand each other a lot. We also flirt a lot. The flirting is awesome. It makes me feel special. All of us together in a group, you and me flirting. But then it all changes when you look at the person to your left and start flirting with them. It sucks. It really does; that feeling I had only minutes ago of specialty instantly evaporates into think air and is replacing with hurt. You don't notice though because you don't know how I feel.
It's so pathetic how I wont tell you. Being secretive about it and not letting the feelings escape my heart. Friendship is good though. At least I have a reason to talk to you every day. But I cant help but feel more sad every passing day. Every day it's the same routine…
I don't want this routine Danna. I want you. But I cant find the courage to be able to tell you. And your to oblivious to realize it yourself and it kills me inside. But if that killing sensation means I get to keep my friend…then I'll live with it. And I'll take the risk of loosing my heart.
Because I love you, as a brother, a friend, a best friend, and a love. And I want to remind myself of how lucky I am for finding you.
There are now. Walking up the stairs. You see me looking at you and wave; I wave back. That smiles back on my face; it's there too stay through this pain.
Love you Danna…you just don't know it yet.