Nothing is Black or White

Regina sat at the kitchen island absently stirring a cup of tea. She was completely lost in her thoughts as she watched the whirlwind in her cup. Regina and Robin had been living a happy life for quite some time now save whatever dangers happen to threaten Storybrooke. Lately, Regina had found herself a bit restless. She felt like something was missing. With a heavy sigh, she let the spoon fall against the side of the mug and let her forehead rest in her hand. She knew exactly what she was missing but couldn't help but feel guilty for wanting more when she already had so much. Robin had given her everything. She was more than happy with him. Yet, in her previous life as the Evil Queen, she had had her own conquests that left her with a taste for something she hadn't had in a long time. Regina was craving the touch of a woman. It was a frustrating desire to have at this point. She had absolutely no complaints in her love life with Robin. He was more than enough for her. After everything they had gone through to get to where they were, she felt horribly selfish to feel any want or desire for more. She began to wonder if this unquenchable thirst to have it all was something she'd ever be rid of, or if her time as queen had ruined her. Perhaps she was destined to never be truly satisfied. In a huff, she turned and dumped the contents of her mug into the sink.

"I'm guessing that was a bitter cup of tea."

Regina jumped at his voice as she turned around and blushed. "I…wasn't as thirsty as I thought I was."

Robin wrapped his arms around her waist and pressed a loving kiss to her lips. He brought his hand up to caress her cheek as he took in the trouble look in her eyes. "What is it, my love? What's troubling you?"

Regina dropped her gaze with a sigh. "It's nothing. I'm fine."

"Regina, you can tell me anything," he said as he lifted her chin to meet his gaze again.

She framed his face and pressed another loving kiss to his lips. "I love you, Robin."

That smile she loved so much graced his lips. "And I love you." Regina's gaze once again faltered. "Regina, what is it? Please, talk to me. Whatever it is, we'll face it together."

A single tear escaped down her cheek. "I need you to know how much I love you and how happy you make me."

"All right…"

"You make me so happy, Robin. I never imagined I could have any of this. I have so much…" tears flowed freely from her eyes.

"Hey…what on Earth is this all about," he asked as he wiped the tears from her cheeks.

"Robin, I'm a terrible person. I feel like I'm cursed."

"Regina, what are you talking about?"

"I…I don't even know how to explain it. I feel horrible for even thinking it."

"For thinking what? Regina, just tell me."

"I…feel like I'm missing something," she began, her voice faltering.

Robin's face softened. "Missing what?"

She sighed and brought him to sit with her at the dining room table holding his hands in hers. "There's a lot about my past we haven't spoken of. When I was the queen, I was on a power trip. I fed off of my revenge and my ability to control others because I had been so helpless before."

"That's not who you are anymore."

"Just listen. I think…being the queen allowed me freedom to explore parts of myself I never would have been able to as…just Regina. And a part of me is afraid that all those years of just taking anything and everything I wanted left me..marked somehow to always want more. Even though I have everything I could ever want."'

"Oh, Regina…that's part of being human, not a queen. Darling, thats not who you are anymore and whatever it is you want, then I want to give it to you."

"Robin, I can't ask you to do this for me. I can't ask you for anything else when you give me so much already."

"Regina, you can ask me for anything. I would do anything to make you happy. Please, just tell me what it is you want and I will do everything in my power to make sure you have it."

She brought her hand to his cheek and looked deep into his eyes with all the love she had in her. "There's something you should know about me."

"Then tell me."

"One of the parts of myself I was able to explore as queen was…my sexuality. It was another way to feel powerful. I didn't just sleep with men," she trailed off as she looked down.

"Oh, I see…Regina are you trying to tell me you slept with women?"

She nodded, still not meeting his glance. "Yes."

"And…you're also trying to tell me you…miss….sleeping with women?"

"Sometimes. I don't want you to take it personally, Robin. It has absolutely nothing to do with you. I love you. I love being with you. You make me so happy. You're…really great at what you do."

He blushed and looked away for a moment. "But?"

"But…I…have been thinking lately about what it might be like to have a woman involved."

"You mean…with us?" She nodded and he took a deep breath. "I see."

"I'm sorry. Are you upset with me?"

Robin looked up and caressed her arm reassuringly. "No! No, of course not. It's just a lot to think about."

"I understand."

"Was…there someone in particular you had in mind?"

"Not really. It's just more of a thought at this point. I don't want you to think that this is about me wanting to be with someone else. It's not that."

"But, it is in a way."

"I…yes, I suppose, but with you."

Robin chuckled a little. "I can just imagine Little John telling me this is every man's fantasy."

Finally, Regina laughed with him. "We don't have to do this if you don't want to, Robin. I just…thought maybe we could talk about it."

"No, of course. I always want you to be able to talk to me about anything. I can't say that I've ever given anything like this much thought before. What…what do you see when you think about it?"

Her cheeks flushed a little as she let her mind wander over the fantasies her mind had conjured up over the last few days. "Well…you know I don't share well. What's mine is mine. But there is something incredible about the energy that can be created and shared between three people. I know how intoxicating and extremely pleasurable it is to be loved by you and in some ways I get excited by the thought of someone else seeing exactly what I get to enjoy every single day and appreciating it. It would…give me someone to bond with over what it is to be with you in that way and give you the same by being with me. There's a lot that goes into it. I…do enjoy the touch of another woman and I've missed that. But it's also…well a large part of the pleasure I get from being with you is witnessing your pleasure. This gives me a whole new way to do that. It's complicated."

"I think I'm beginning to understand. I also gain pleasure from your pleasure. I love the sounds you make…"

She blushed giving him that wicked grin that turns him on so much. "And a part of me would love to see you make someone else make those same noises…while I watch…knowing that you're mine. Seeing what you can do. You in all your glory."

It was Robin's turn to blush now. "I suppose I can see the appeal when I think of you in the same way. But how would we even go about doing this? I can't imagine it's a simple as an invite to dinner and a bit of foreplay afterward."

She laughed. "No, not a simple as that, but not as complicated as you might think either. We'd have to find someone we can both agree on and go from there."

"Well I have't thought of anyone but you, love. I wouldn't know where to start."

"Thanks to my former glory as the Evil Queen, there aren't a lot of women in this town that would give me a chance. That list is rather limited."

"Who did you have in mind?"

"Well…Maleficent and I have a history, but I don't trust her. I don't want her anywhere near you, let alone near me again."

"I agree."

"That leaves us really with only one other person I could possibly think of."

"And that would be whom?"

"Emma."

"Emma?"

"I know it's complicated. But, she's really the only one in this town who trusts me and understands me. I can't imagine something like this would be such a foreign idea to her either. I think it's our best shot if we wanted to explore this. Are you…attracted to her?"

"I…Regina, I think this is a terrible idea."

"It doesn't have to be Emma. It was just a thought. We can keep looking."

"No, I mean this whole thing. You just asked me if I was attracted to Emma Swan. I'm attracted to you! This feels like…like cheating."'

"But it's not! It's…" she sighed, feeling horrible and foolish. "I'm so sorry I brought it up. Please, just forget I ever said anything ok? We never have to talk about this again. It's nothing."

"It's not nothing to you, Regina."

"It is compared to the love I have for you. If this ridiculous fantasy of mine is going to threaten what we have, then it's nothing. I love you. You, Henry, and Roland..this family is the most important thing in my life. Nothing will change that."

She pressed a deep, loving kiss to his lips and he pulled her close to him. Robin let his forehead rest against hers. "Regina, I…"

She cut him off with another sweet kiss. "Let's find the boys and go have dinner at Granny's."

Robin nodded and followed her into the den to find their children. Regina watched with a smile as Henry walked ahead of them with Roland. "He's good with him."

She smiled at Robin. "Yes, he is. I'm glad he has Roland. I always knew Henry would make a wonderful big brother. We have you to thank for that. You've brought happiness to us in more ways than one."

"Roland loves you as well. He'll always love his mother, but I couldn't have chosen a better mother figure for him than you. You truly are an amazing woman, Regina. Your maternal instincts is one of the first things about you I fell in love with."

She scoffed a little. "I wasn't always mother of the year. Trust me."

"But you are now. You'd do anything for your son."

"And yours…"

Robin gave her a deep, passionate kiss that left her breathless. "I love you."

"I love you."

"Guys! Are you coming or not?! We're hungry," Henry called.

"Kissy! Kissy," Roland's little voice cooed.

The two of them laughed and Regina raised her eyebrow at the little boy. "You, little man, have been horribly influenced by your big brother I suspect." She reached out to tickle them both making them squirm and squeal.

"Ok ok! I give," Henry called.

"You're supposed to be setting a good example for him. Not teaching him to be obnoxious," she said as she ruffled his hair and pulled him into the diner with her.

"Just having a little fun with him. That's what little brothers are for. You get them to do what you want cuz they get away with it."

"Henry Mills!"

Robin giggle and pulled her back. "Looks like he's gotten that bit of sass from his mother, wouldn't you say?"

She turned and swatted his arm. "You're not helping!"

As they slid into the booth together, the boys followed sitting across from them. Neither Henry or Regina needed to look at a menu to figure out what they wanted. Roland, however, loved pretending to read the menu. Regina smiled at him. "What looks good to you there, Roland?"

Roland pretended to carefully study the menu, humming to himself before pointing to an item. Her brow raised in amusement. "Ice cream sundae. Nice try, dear. We don't eat ice cream for dinner."

"But Mommy!"

Regina gasped as everyone at the table looked at her. Her eyes filled with tears as she smiled. Roland had never called her anything but Regina before. She covered his hand with hers and caressed his cheek. "After dinner, we'll have that sundae, sweetheart. But you have to eat something else first, all right?"

"Okay. Chicken tenders and fries!"

She laughed. "Chicken it is."

Robin pressed a kiss to her cheek as Henry smiled at her knowingly. When their food came, Henry watched as Roland tried to quirt some ketchup onto his plate. "Hey, Roland. Try it with this. It's ranch. My mom had me try it once and it's pretty good."

"Regina," he asked excitedly.

"No, my other mom, Emma."

Roland dipped his chicken into the sauce and nodded approvingly. "It's yummy! Daddy, try it!"

Robin laughed as he tried a bite to humor his son. "You're right. That is quite good."

"Mom, you wanna try some?"

"No, thanks, dear. I'm not a big fan of your mother's eating habits."

Henry shook his head and laughed. Regina smiled at him. "I'm proud of you for helping him learn to try new things, though."

"You try," Roland squealed as he held up a piece of chicken for her.

"Roland…"

"Yeah, Mom. You should set a good example and try something new," Henry said with a wink.

Robin chuckled at her as she rolled her eyes and gave in. She tentatively took a bite and chewed slowly. "It's not…terrible."

"See! Told ya," Henry beamed.

Robin kissed her cheek. "I'm so proud of you."

Regina nudged his shoulder with hers. "Shut up."

Henry perked up at the bell to the entrance rang and Emma walked into the diner. "Hey, Mom!"

"Hey, Kid! What are you up to?"

"Just eating dinner. I got them all to try chicken with ranch like you told me. I even got Mom to try it," he said triumphantly.

"Is that so?" Emma raised an eyebrow as she glanced at Regina.

"It wasn't terrible, but it's not the healthiest choice, I must say. However, if it gets Roland to eat this dinner…"

Emma smirked. "It really hurts you to admit I'm right sometimes doesn't it?"

Before Regina could fire back a smart response, Robin cut her off. "Emma, would you like to join us?"

Regina and Emma both looked at him surprised. "I…uh, no you guys are having a family meal. I was just going to get something to go."

"Nonsense! Come, sit."

Robin offered her his seat next to Regina as he pulled up a chair at the end of the table. Emma was more than a little bewildered. "Uh…thanks."

Regina gave him a questioning look, but it was one he avoided. She sighed shaking her head and continued to eat her meal. They all made pleasant small talk. All the while both Regina and Robin were observing the other's interactions with Emma trying to see what could possibly be there.

"Mommy, look! I finished my chicken! Can we have ice cream now?"

Regina beamed at him. "Yes, my love. You can have ice cream now."

Emma smiled at her. "Ice cream sounds good! Why don't we all have some?"

Robin stood from his chair. "An excellent idea. I'll go and fetch Ruby."

Emma placed a hand on her shoulder and spoke quietly. "So I bet that felt good, huh?"

"What felt good?"

"Roland…"

Regina nodded and smiled at the boy as she watched him talk to Henry. "It's as good as the first time I heard Henry say it."

Emma smiled. "I'm glad you have that, Regina. I'm glad you got your happy ending."

"Thank you, Emma. But…what about yours?"

"What do you mean?"

"You and Hook didn't exactly work out. You've been helping everyone else find their happy endings, but what about finding yours?"

"I have Henry and my parents. All I ever wanted in life was a family and friends. I have that now. I'm good."

"You know what I mean, Emma."

"Regina, I don't need love to complete me."

"Of course you don't. That's not what I'm saying."

"Thank you for caring, Regina, but I promise you I'm fine."

"Well if you ever need someone to talk to…"

"Thanks."

Robin watched the two of them carefully from the bar. He could see that they cared for each other, that there was a history between the two of them. How could there not be when they shared a son? He could also see that the way Regina looked at her was different from the way she looked at him. Regina may love Emma Swan, but she was in love with him. That much was clear to him. He still wasn't completely sure he understood everything about Regina's proposal, but he was more comfortable about continuing the conversation. If Regina wanted this, he wanted to try to make her happy.

Once he had rejoined them at the table with ice cream, he and Emma became lost in conversation about the differences and similarities between being a bail bonds person in Boston and a thief in the Enchanted Forest. Regina couldn't help but watch them and let her imagination wander as to what it would be like to be with those two in a more intimate setting. Regina was lost in thought as the heat from her visions melted the ice cream in her spoon. She wasn't sure how long she'd been lost in her fantasies when Emma brought her attention back to them.

"Right, Regina?"

"I'm sorry, what?"

"Robin, was saying he wanted me to teach him how to drive since I have to teach Henry anyway, but we know from experience he isn't quite ready for that journey."

"Oh! Yes, indeed. No driving for Henry any time soon."

"Hey! I wasn't that bad! No one even told me a thing about it when David let me drive the truck. I drove your Mercedes all the way to the diner outside of town and then to a bus stop without putting a scratch on it."

"Let's not revisit you stealing my car."

"I saved you didn't I?"

"Yes, well, let's leave the next driving adventure to when you're of legal driving age and I'm in the car with you."

"Or me," Emma chimed in.

"Let's see how you do with teaching Robin first. I've seen your driving skills, Emma, and I'm not sure I want Henry learning how to drive in your sunshine colored rust bucket."

"Hey! I am not a bad driver. And what is with all the hits to my car? That thing has gotten me everywhere. It was the only reliable thing I had for a long time."

"Okay. All right. I get it. It's not a horrible car."

"Thank you!" Emma gave her a satisfied smirk.

"So what kind of car do I get," Henry asked excitedly.

"Don't even think about it," his mothers said in unison.

Robin laughed and patted his shoulder. "Don't worry my boy. I'll work on them," he said with a wink.

The image his words painted out of context made Regina shiver. "And just what does that mean?"

"You may have some influence over her, but you're not getting through me, Buddy," Emma said as she sat back with her arms crossed.

"Perhaps not now…but, Regina tells me I can be quite charming. And if that fails, well…once I get through to Regina, I have all the faith in the world she can get through to you."

The way he looked at Regina set her on fire. Was he toying with her? Was this his way of flirting with the idea of bringing Emma into their bedroom? Before Regina could say a word, Henry patted Robin on the back. "Thanks for your help, but I wouldn't wanna put you up against both of my moms."

"Hey," they exclaimed in unison, leaving both Robin and Henry laughing.

"How do you make it with those two ganging up on you?"

"Oh, Henry's training Roland as well. I had it easy when it was just me and Henry. Now, I'm outnumbered in a den of testosterone."

They all shared a good laugh before Robin chimed in. "Well, Emma, perhaps you'll have to come around more often to even the playing field a little. I'm sure Regina would appreciate another woman around. Isn't that right, love?"

Regina's face turned bright red and her eyes felt as if they were about to pop out of her head. She never thought she'd find a moment like this where she would feel so utterly speechless. Was he truly proposing what she thought he was? She looked at him for a long moment before making a decision. If they were going to toy with the idea, they might as well test the waters. Wasn't that what he was doing? Regina reached out and put her hand on Emma's knee. "I could most definitely benefit from having another woman around, and I can't imagine one better than you, Emma."

Regina's tone and touch sent chills running through Emma's body. Emma had left Hook after a long battle of wrestling with feelings for him. She cared for him deeply, but the spark just wasn't there. Truthfully, she'd found herself wanting to explore feelings she'd never quite explored before. Something about Regina aroused her in ways she hadn't felt for any other woman before. Emma considered herself an open person. While she'd never been opposed to the idea of being with women, she'd never found a woman she felt truly compelled to be with. Regina, however, was the epitome of sensuality. If there was any woman that she would want to be her first, Regina was the jackpot. The exchange between the three of them had been growing suspicious throughout the evening and now it was just plain overwhelming. Emma tried to reason with herself and believe it was only wishful thinking. But, she was also skilled at reading between the lines. If this had been any other couple and not Regina and Robin, she would have sworn she was being hit on. Emma made the decision to take advantage of the opportunity. If she was wrong, at least she stood getting closer to Regina. She didn't have anything to lose.

Emma linked her arm with Regina's and leaned into her. "Then I'm just gonna have to come around more often and look after you then, won't I?"

Regina and Robin exchanged a heated glance before Regina slid her hand a little higher up on Emma's thigh and gave it a squeeze. "Indeed, you will."

Henry, completely oblivious to the undertones of their conversation perked up. "That would be awesome! You should totally hang out more often. Then I won't have to miss one of you while I'm spending time with you guys."

"Emma can sleep with me tonight," Roland offered.

Everyone laughed as Emma reached out to him. "Thanks, Kid. That's really sweet of you, but I have to sleep in my own bed tonight. Maybe we can have that sleepover another time."

"Ok!"

"Come on, boys. It's a school night. Time to head home and settle in for the night."

All of them walked out together, Emma saying goodnight to Henry since it was his night to stay with Regina. Robin brought his hand up to caress her arm as he offered his own goodbye. Before Emma could respond to him, she found herself in Regina's arms and her heart stopped. "Goodnight, Emma. We'll get together soon."

Emma took a moment to memorize the feel of her body pressed so close against her, her smell, her warmth...everything for later when she was alone. "Goodnight, Regina."

…..

Once home, Robin announced it was time for Roland's bath. The boy insisted Regina take him so Henry took Robin to his room to continue their video game lessons. Henry had enjoyed teaching Robin to play games with him because it was much easier to win. Emma was by far the best at playing video games and often beat Henry. Regina had also become quite skilled over the years in efforts to do whatever it took to spend time with her son and make him happy. Robin was a clean slate. Regina couldn't help but laugh knowing exactly what her son was up to and grateful that the man she loved was so willing to humor him.

Regina grabbed Roland's fluffy blue towel and began to run the water for his bath. "All right, little one, it's time to get rid of those clothes."

Roland raised his arms up in the air so Regina could pull his shirt off. He promptly sat on the floor and began to pull off his socks. She smiled watching him, remembering Henry at that age. She was so grateful to be able to have another child to care for. She had missed having a little one now that Henry was getting older and knowing she couldn't have any of her own was beginning to weigh on her. Roland popped up to his feet and held his sock out to her proudly. "Smell!"

Regina laughed and wrinkled her nose before grabbing him up and tickling his sides. "Smell!? You want me to smell your stinky socks? Where on Earth did you learn that?"

Roland giggled. A sound that melted her heart. "Henry."

"Henry, hmm? Well, we'll have to get him later won't we?"

"No, Mommy! Not Henry!"

"Oh? And why not?"

"Cuz he's my brother."

Regina kissed his cheek. "That, he is, my sweet. But he still shouldn't be teaching you to get Mommy to smell your dirty socks!"

Roland squealed and giggled and she peppered his cheek with kisses. He wriggled around until he escaped from her lap and grabbed a big bottle from the cabinet. "Bubbles!"

"What do we say when we ask for something?"

"Please?"

Regina smiled and kisses his cheek once more. "Good boy."

She poured in the bubble solution and watched as Roland leaned over the side of the tub. "I wanna do the magic! Watch!"

He sloshed his hand back and forth in the water as he'd seen her do a thousand times in order to churn up the bubbles. It was Henry who had told Roland it was magic and he'd been fascinated by making bubbles ever since. She couldn't help but giggle at the sight of him. If only magic were that innocent. "Look, Mommy! I did it! Magic!"

"You did! Look at you! Now let's get you clean!"

Regina helped him into the tub and grabbed the cup from the corner. "Roland, can you lean your head back for me?"

He nodded and leaned back on his hands, letting her pour water over him to wet his hair. As she lathered the shampoo in his brown locks, Roland played with his toy ship. "Mommy, sing me a bath time song."

"A bath time song?"

"I like it when you sing to me."

Her heart overflowed with love. "What song would you like to hear, sweetheart?"

"Sing the sunshine song!"

Regina smiled as she nudged him to lean back to rinse his hair. "Very well. You are my sunshine…my only sunshine…you make me happy…when skies are grey…you'll never know, dear…how much I love you…so please don't take my sunshine away…."

Roland smiled and cheered. "Again! Again!"

Regina sang the song again as he joined her while she washed him up. Once he was clean, the two sang "Row, row, row your boat" while Roland pushed his toy ship around.

Robin had been on his way downstairs to grab a couple of glasses of water for himself and Henry when we was stopped by the most beautiful singing voice he'd ever heard. Anytime he caught Regina singing to his son, he was mesmerized. He stood there for a while listening to them before he was surprised by Henry.

"Hey! Did you get the water?"

"Henry! Sorry, son, I was just on my way."

Henry leaned in and discovered what he was listening to. He smiled. "She used to sing to me too."

"Henry, you know your mother loves you more than anything in the world."

"I know that. She loves you and Roland too. I'm glad he sees her as a mom. She's a good mom. She's learned a lot over the years."

"She raised a fine son. I hope my boy turns out just as well as you have, Henry."

"Thanks. I'm glad you're here. It's good to see her happy."

"Thank you, Henry. I care for you just as much as I care for your mother. I'm here for you if you ever need anything."

"I know," he said with a smile. "Let's go get those drinks."

Regina towel dried Roland's hair and helped him into his pajamas. "All right, my little merry man, you are ready for bed."

"Read me a story?"

"I will read you a short story and then you need to go to sleep, ok?"

"Ok."

Roland hopped up into her arms and she held him tight to her, carrying him out of the bathroom. Most of the time, he insisted on being a "big boy" and walking on his own. However, he liked to be cuddled at bedtime. Regina wouldn't have it any other way. She'd missed this. Once she'd finished the story, she pulled the blankets up snugly around him and kissed his forehead. "I'll go and get your papa to come say goodnight to you, all right?"

"Ok."

"Goodnight, Roland. I love you."

"Goodnight, Mommy. I love you too."

Regina turned off the light and pulled the door up just a crack. Walking down the hallway towards Henry's room, she could hear the two of them laughing. Quietly, she leaned against the doorway to watch them.

"Oh come on! How many times do I have to die to get through this level!? I've done everything I know how to do."

"Mom got mad at this part too. She beat it on the third try."

"Oh really? Well if your mother can do it, so can I."

Regina smirked at his response. Of course her son would taunt him with her own performance. What was she going to do with those two? Robin struggled through a couple more rounds until he'd defeated his enemy and stood up in a victory cry. "HA! I told you I'd get him!"

"Ahem." Regina cleared her throat as she entered the room. "There's a little boy in the other room trying to settle in for sleep. I believe he wants to say goodnight to his father."

Robin handed off the controller to Henry and blushed. "Right, of course." He turned to Henry before leaving the room. "You be sure to save my progress. I'm not doing that again."

"You got it!"

Regina shook her head and when over to kiss Henry's cheek. "Don't stay up too late, ok? You have school tomorrow."

"I know. I won't. Goodnight, Mom!"

"Goodnight, my little prince. I love you so much."

"I love you too."

Robin found Regina in their bathroom washing her face. He walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her pressing kisses along her back. She rinsed and dried her face as he massaged her shoulders. "Mmm, that feels wonderful. Is Roland asleep?"

"Sleeping soundly."

"Hmm." She hummed and kissed him sweetly before going to change into her nightgown. "Care to talk about what happened earlier?"

"What ever are you talking about," he asked as he stripped to his boxers for sleep. He knew his wife was playing coy, and he planned on doing the same. Wait. Wife? He hadn't referred to her that way before. They weren't married. Though, he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her and Roland was more than happy with her as his mother, he wasn't sure that marriage was something Regina wanted. She hadn't had good experiences with her first marriage and trembled at the thought. That was a conversation for another time.

"You invited Emma to have dinner with us…among other things."

"I merely suggested you might like her company more often. Was I mistaken?"

"No…but I thought we'd abandoned this discussion."

"I felt perhaps we needed to explore all possible options."

"Oh?"

They climbed into bed and Robin took her hand. "Regina, I love you. I want to give you all the happiness I can possibly give you. If this is something you want, I want to try and give it to you."

"Robin, what I'm asking for isn't easy for everyone. It's not something we just tread into lightly. We have to talk about this thoroughly before we do anything. I won't risk our happiness for this."

"I know. But this is something you obviously want. I want to try to talk about this at least."

"All right…how did you feel tonight at dinner with Emma?"

"It was strange."

"How so?" She squeezed his hand as he sighed. "It's ok. You can tell me. I need you to be honest with me."

"At first, I had regretted giving up my seat next to you to her. I felt like I was handing you over to her...as if I'd lost you."

"Robin, you could never lose me. Especially not to anyone else. I love you."

"I know. I saw that later. I saw the way you look at Emma and I know the way you look at me is different."

She smiled and nodded. "It is very different."

"But you do love Emma."

"I…I suppose I do in a way. We have a complicated past. We've been through a lot together. Against all odds, we've become friends. She's saved me many times."

"I know. She loves you as well."

"I'm going to ask you again, Robin, are you attracted to Emma at all?"

He sighed. "She's an attractive woman, yes."

"And when I…touched her…how did you feel?"

"I felt…many things. Mostly, I felt…intrigued."

Regina smiled a little. "Intrigued?"

"I was seeing a side to you I hadn't seen before and I…wanted to see more. I want to know everything about you, Regina."

"I see."