Wedding Dress
Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's Anatomy, I don't own the song or the person.
A/N: Okay, so this is like my third song change. Ugh. But I'm going to stick to this one! The song is called Wedding Dress by Taeyang. It's in Korean (I think?) but I got a translated version! I love this song with all my heart and it's so heartbreaking! This is kind of AU-ish? but I love it! Enjoy!
Okay, so this is really long, probably my longest. Please read!
Spoken:
Some say it's not over, till it's over
But I guess this is really over now
There's something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen
Mark Sloan has learned about love from a girl in one day.
He was six years old when his mom took him to the park on a bright Saturday afternoon. He was playing on the swings, swinging back and forth, wanting to touch the sky. A girl sat in the swing next to him. She had hair that reminded him of strawberries and she also had blue eyes that seem to light up. She was wearing a baby blue dress and white slippers.
"Hi, I'm Addison," she stuck out her hand and he shook it.
"You have a pretty name," Mark said back.
"Thanks," she giggled. "What's yours?"
"My name is Mark. It's a pleasure to meet you, Addison."
"It's a pleasure to meet you." Mark stood up and stood behind her.
"Would you like me to push you?" She giggled.
"Yes, thank you," she replied. He pushed her and she went higher and higher. She laughed and he laughed with her.
"I think I had enough!" she screamed as she was so close to the sky. Mark stopped and helped her slow down. She laughed. "It feels like your flying if you close your eyes as you swing. Want to go on the jungle gym?" He nodded and they ran and played and laughed. Mark had a feeling deep in his heart and he didn't know what it was. He finally had to go home and he asked his mom what the feeling was.
"You're in love," his mom simply replied as they were eating dinner. "Trust me. It's how I felt about your father." Speaking about his father, he was nowhere in sight. Mark knows where he is and he dreaded it. His dad was violent whenever he got drunk. His mom continued. "It's a feeling that never goes away and once your older, you're going to tell her that you love her. I didn't fall in love with your dad until a much later age. But you're never too young to fall in love. Now, help me with the dishes, then take a bath then go to sleep." Mark did what he was told and she kissed and tucked him in good night. Mark was happy and he dreamed of that strawberry haired girl.
He heard the door slam shut as it awoke him from his wonderful dream. He kept his eyes shut as his dad beat his mom up. Mark could hear his mom's whimpering and crying.
And then, he heard a loud bang. And then another. He kept his eyes shut and he squeezed them tight and a few tears fell down his face. The next morning, the police came and took Mark away from his home. He begged them to take him to the park where he wanted to see Addison again.
He met Addison again and he told her what had happened. He told her of his dad and he's drinking ways. Addison and him shared tears and she attended the funeral. He held her hand and she squeezed it the whole time, giving him comfort. She begged her mom to take Mark in and Bizzy reluctantly agreed. Mark was in awe as he stepped into the mansion. He was extra careful because he didn't want to break anything. He and Addison quickly became best friends and his feelings for her grew.
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It was the first day of medical school and Mark Sloan, he wanted to keep his last name, never thought he would ever be here. Ever since he turned 15, he used sex as a coping mechanism, for he still missed his parents.
He sat next to a guy, his hair way too wavy, like someone had blown a fan in his hair wherever he went. He was drowning in the words of the magazine he was holding, something that Mark thought was a Playboy.
"Hey," he said to the guy, "Where'd you get those?"
"My 'Neurosurgery of the month'?" the guy asked. Mark groaned.
"I'm Mark," he said. He stuck out his hand to the guy next to him.
"I'm Derek," he shook Mark's hand. "Did you think I had a dirty magazine?"
"Dirty? Yes," Mark said bluntly. From then on, they became friends and then best friends.
They ate lunch one day and Addison joined them. Mark thought that Addison had grown a lot in the 14 years he knew her. He thought she was more beautiful, her hair as red as the ripest strawberries and it stopped just in the middle of her back. She had long legs that seem to go on for miles and she almost caught Mark staring. Her eyes had become the clear ocean blue and Mark didn't mind if he got lost at sea in them. In his eyes, she had become a beautiful woman. It was now in Derek's eyes he saw Addison as a beautiful woman.
"Who's your friend, Mark-y?" she asked.
"This is Derek," Mark gestured toward Derek. Derek was in awe and it took him a while to snap out of the trance.
"Hi, I'm Derek!" he said, obviously nervous. Addison laughed and Derek thought it was the cutest laugh he ever heard.
"I'm Addison," she stuck out her hand and Derek shook it. Mark could see the signs in Derek's eyes. Mark squirmed in his seat, trying not to get angry. Addison and Derek started dating quickly after their first encounter.
Sung:
When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue, I become hopeful
My heart a-a-aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile can make me feel fine again
Mark had two best friends. He loved both of them but one in a different way. In a way that makes his heart ache if he sees her crying after they fight. She bitches to him and he laughs. He knows everything about her and he knows how to comfort her.
To keep you figuring out how I feel about you
Coz' then we would drift apart...
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Oh, please leave him and come to me
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It was the day of the wedding. Mark dressed in his formal attire and he looked in the mirror and smiled. It masked the sadness he felt. But he also felt happiness. Addison was going to have the wedding of her dreams.
Baby!
Please, don't take his hand
Cause you should be my
Lady!
I've been waiting for you
For so long
Please look at me now
Mark almost thought they were a little too young to be married. But it was the end of their intern year and they had been dating for eight years. He sighed and wiped a tear away. He hadn't noticed he started crying.
He walked to the church. He laughed as he crossed a walk. Addison had always been a W.A.S.P. But she agreed to the church-y wedding.
When the music starts...
You will vow to spend the rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night this day would never come...
Girl, you once wore that wedding dress... (dress...dress...)
You once wore that wedding dress... (dress...dress...)
It's not me next to you! (dress...dress...)
Wedding dress... (dress...dress...)
You once wore that wedding dress... (dress...dress...)
Oh no!
He stepped inside and he went to her room. She looked so beautiful and it took Mark a second to breathe. She had a strapless gown on with a heavy skirt that sparkled. She didn't have a train but she did have a veil. Mark stepped in front of her and pulled the veil over her face.
"You look beautiful, Addie," he said smiling and cupping her cheek. He felt her lean into his hand. "Derek is a lucky man."
Addison smiled and said, "Thank you, Mark." She kissed his cheek and he wished for more. In his head, he cupped both her cheeks with his hand and leaned in for a kiss. He left without another word, his heart aching too much.
You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so...
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy
Now I have no more t-t-tears left to cry
It was a long ceremony and he stood next to Derek. There was one thing that nobody knew about Mark and they were going to find out. After they said their vows, Mark went to the piano and played for them. It was a soft melody and Addison wiped the tears in her eyes. Mark swore he would never touch a piano again after his performance when he was 17.
When I'm by myself, I talk to you like you're here
I've felt so restless every night
Maybe I've known all along that this would happen...
I close my eyes and dream an endless dream
Please leave him and come to me
Baby!
Please, don't take his hand
Cause you should be my
Lady!
I've been waiting for you
For so long
Look at me now
When the music starts...
You will vow to spend the rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night this day would never come...
The reception came and Mark gave his speech.
"Here is to my two best friends. They love each other with all their hearts and I wish them the best. Here is to Derek and Addison!" Mark raised his glass and everyone joined in. He heard Addison laughing and he downed the champagne.
Girl, you once wore that wedding dress... (dress...dress...)
You once wore that wedding dress... (dress...dress...)
It's not me next to you! (dress...dress...)
Wedding dress... (dress...dress...)
You once wore that wedding dress... (dress...dress...)
Oh no!
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Flashback: The day Derek proposed to Addison, November 10th, 1981...
Please be happy with him
So that I can forget you
Please forget how miserable I looked
It's going to be unbearably hard for me
For a long while to come
No oh!
Mark helped Derek choose a ring. The day before, Mark had gone to the same store.
It burned in his pocket at his house, where he was celebrating Addison's birthday. It was him time right now.
For such a long time
I lived in a illusion like a fool
She is still smiling at me
So brightly at me
He pulled her into the kitchen and she looked mad.
"What is it, Mark? I'm missing the game!" she shouted at him and she crossed her arms. Mark looked down at his feet and felt for the item in his pants. He was about to get it out when Derek came in.
"There you guys are! Addison, the game is starting. We chose to play pictionary. Come on!" he gestured towards the room behind the door. Mark froze and then followed after Addison. Derek had told him how he was going to propose. Mark was too late.
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Mark held the ring in his hand in the back of the room. He went outside and a tear rolled down his cheek.
Girl, you once wore that wedding dress (dress...dress...)
Oh no!
You once wore thatwedding dress you're wearing... (dress...dress...dress)
(You once wore that wedding dress you're wearing...) It's not me!
It's not me!
Oh no!
He went to the lake where he and Addison usually hung out. He let his legs fall over the tiny pier and then he stood up. He weighed the ring in his hand and then threw out in the water and it splashed.
"I love you, Addie," he whispered.
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