I was jealous. Always jealous, always. I wanted him. She had him.
I couldn't help it if I was jealous of her. I saw the way he looked at her, the way he whispered to her, the way her face would blush when he touched her; he stroked her skin, kissed her lips softly. I wanted him to bemine; I wanted nothing more than to be in her place. I would give anything if it meant I could be in her place for just 5 minutes.
Yet she made a fuss about the way he held her; he held her as if she were a bubble. He held her body close to his; heart to heart. She fussed and whined and complained and swatted him away. She didn't want him and yet he always went back to her. Time and time again, he would go to her house, climb up to her balcony and stay with her.
He didn't care that he was much older than she was, he didn't care that every one gawked at him when he walked with her. His arm wrapped carefully around her waist, his finger laced with hers. He didn't have eyes for any one or anything but her. Why was she so important to him?
She didn't come to school today and he didn't know yet. He was standing in front of the gates waiting for her. "Ikuto-kun," I said his name carefully. He didn't see her so he left.
He pulled out his phone and sent her a text. He just kept walking. She sent him a message and he read it gratefully. He smiled when he read it. She could make him smile. I couldn't do that. Why couldn't I do that?
His eyes lit up when ever she was around, he became a softer person whenever she was around, he was happier when ever she was around. Why was it always when she was around? Him + her = him happy = me jealous. He thinks about her all the time. He would do anything for her. He would do everything for her. He would die for her. Would she die for him? I would die for him. That's exactly what I'm doing right now. I'm dying for him.
He claimed that she was his other half; his perfect match. She saw him for who he was and let him be that person, no matter what it meant. Even if it meant she would get her in the process. Of course I wanted to be in her place. He loved me but not the way he loved her. It broke my heart when I saw them together. But I knew she was what made him happy.
But if being with her made him happy then they could have each other. And even as painful as it is I will move on.
ShugoPrincess: Well I thought this was a very emotional piece.
Utau: You make me sound so……stalker-ish sorta.
ShugoPrincess: Do not and btw I don't own Shugo Chara.