Chapter one
Jack wake up to some unidentified noises. His head were throbbing as his hand reached up to his head. He barely touched it. It felt odd. His face felt odd and it hurt to the touch. What's going on? He thought. His head felt like being wrapped up in bondage. He ripped them off of his head. Jack tried to rose then. But he somehow couldn't. Something heavily laid there... upon him? Jack eyes fluttered open in confusion. He blinked serial times. His eyes adjust to the light in the room after some minutes passed.
Jack looked around as much as his head allowed him to turn around. He was in a medical room, he could tell that much. The unidentified noises were the beeping sound coming from the heart beat checking machine. His eyes moved away from the machine and fell upon his chest. Jack was greeted by some kind of black hair? His chest felt heavily of the extra weight and he couldn't properly breath. Who was it. Jack serious wondered for one moment. Until it all hit him. Memories flicked through his mind. He talked to the crucible, that appeared to be a small kid. He had to make a choice and he did. Jack took control over the reapers. He died in the process of taking over. His body vanished... his mind had stayed... some of his mind stayed behind. Always thinking about one person. He had regretted the choice he did.
Letting Kai talk him into save Ash instead of him. That day he died inside a little or completely. Jack could not tell for sure. Ever since then he treated Ash like shit, which made her hate him. He knew, it wasn't her fault. But he somehow couldn't stop himself from blaming her instead of blaming Kai which talked him into saving her. He hated himself for it. And it pretty much was shown in his reckless actions many weeks after Kai's dead, but also in the way he talked to his companions.. to his closer friends like Garrus and Wrex.. was he halfway friendly. To the others less friendly in all. Thought there were more people he considered as friends. By the time the collectors attacked the human colonies he made some new and old friendships.. Grunt, Zaeed, Garrus rejoined him and some others.. He couldn't forgive himself. No matter what. Guilt ate at him after the encounter with Ash. She was mad at him and Jack let her. He grumpy went back to his ship.. carrying on the mission after he died for the first time.
After Kai died. He realized.. admitted to himself. That he was already in love with the man. But it was to late, Jack couldn't tell the one he loved, that he loved him, because dead pulled Kai away and Jack stayed behind.
After what happened with the crucible, wasn't he the one anymore which he was before. He had changed.. He felt cold, cold like a machine. After the know got passed on went all reapers away and eventually shut down. Then something happened, he didn't know what. But Jack found himself back to the time before he had to make a terrible choice.. Virmire.. He was on Virmire... His body trembled and Jack moaned slightly when he pushed away the heavily thing upon him. Much to his shock it was Kai that laid there. Kai... Kai.. his eyes suddenly became watery.
His mouth dry and he tried to swallow the lump which had formed inside his throat to speak. Jack croaked out. "Raphael?" The man Jack had pushed off of his chest was Kai. All the more felt Jack confused. What's going on. Kai was dead. He had left him to die on that Planet. Panic rose inside of his body. Was he dreaming? He pushed himself up a little and got hold of the Male's shoulders. He shook him.. almost violently. Kai awoke by the sudden shaking. He rubbed his eyes, yawning also. His amber brown eyes looked at Jack's blue ones.
Jack on the other hand let go of the Man. His eyes wide open from terror and shock. He was shocked because Kai is well and sat there, by him. Unbelievable. He must be dreaming. Kai watched for a moment the stranger. He was there to make sure the Man which saved his life is doing okay. John Shepard gave him free.. shore leave. "It's good to see you awake. My name is Raphael Kai Alenko. I'm here because..." He coughed awkward and embarrassed? Jack couldn't tell which one... maybe both emotions showed upon Kai's face. "I wanted to thank you for saving my life. I still haven't figured out how or why you did it. But... I am really grateful that you did." He said and smiled.
Jack didn't know what to say or do. He just sat there, stunned. His mind needed time to process what Kai said. After minutes of complete silence.. spoke Jack. "Uhm... I am glad you are alive. I missed you." He blurred out with a sadness he was sure Kai has never heard before. God, he was pathetic. Jack grabbed the hem of Kai's shirt and pulled him close to his chest. He hugged him tightly. And continually repeat the same words over and over. "I am so glad, you are alive..." He whispered, not notice the puzzled look Raphael gave him.
Within seconds moved Raphael away from Jack, he had struggled to get free. "Excuse me. I don't think we have meet before. I don't know you.." Kai stuttered embarrassed. What was the Man thinking. Telling him to have missed him and on the top of that he hugged him? What's wrong with this guy. Kai moved away from the bed, he decided to put a save distance between them. Seemingly thinking the guy has lost his mind.
Jack looked confused at Kai. His mouth opened as when he wanted to say something but no words came over his lips, so Jack closed his mouth and looked at Kai, disbelieving his words. Jack was sure that Kai returned his feelings... there was no doubt about it. Both always had flirted with each other, here and there exchanged small touches. What was going on? He did not understand Kai's reactions. Had he found someone else? Was this why he... Jack groaned out suddenly holding his head in both of his hands. His biotic decided to act up.. firing up. His body appears to be surrounded by blue light and his body trembled as he grunted in pain. The machines that watch his heart rhythm beeped in alarm.
Jack suddenly had a flashback of something he had forgotten. The day of his second birth. He became aware of everything, it felt like hell at the beginning but in fact it took mere seconds for him to adjust as the universe opened up to him for the first time. Where once had been darkness, now there was light, billions worth of knowledge, an endless font. He could see with a thousand eyes, he can be everywhere at once.. like it did matter... but he couldn't forget about him! Being a machine couldn't bring him back. He couldn't touch him since the day he made this damn choice. It hurt him immensely. He felt like dying once again, in fact over and over... it's like a endless dream. The logical part of his well being, kept telling the machine to move on, that he wouldn't want him like this anyway.. even if he could bring him back, the controller of something so hated.. yet. He couldn't help the longing for this man.
But how could he change that? He had been his life.. all he'd know, he was all that he'd fought for even when he wasn't there anymore. He still fought for a better future, and if he would have been still alive he would have also fought for a better future. The illogical part of him, the part currently winning in the moment of awareness, screamed for him unheard, his screams echoed out across the stars, the collective scream of a thousand bodies. He screamed whilst rebuilding the relays, for months and still on going. He cried for him.
Whilst the population of the universe began to accept them. Allowed, in the first few months after the Reapers got shot down, they stood idly, as their numbers dwindled. It hurt.. but eventually, he got used to the dull throbbing in his well being, this aching that made him not forget about him. It quashed any hope of seeing him again, any hope of hearing his laugh, seeing his smile.. his amber coloured eyes. The way they used to work, touch. It was all long gone in the split of one second. He grew cold at some point, just like the machines, he came to control.. the silent cries eventually stopped, and the universe became quieter... all together became a silent machine, working with well oiled coordination, and once they finished repairing all that what was lost, they left. Moved to an empty star system. Accepted the silent rest, they shut down, and waited for the end. Then his flashback became somehow messy and Jack found himself on Virmire.. his body tensed, the blue waves of his biotic's increased.
Kai froze on his spot. He had no idea that the man was a biotic.. just like him. His memory from Virmire was in a mess. He only remembered that someone in a blue-black N7 gear grabbed him and hurried with him over to the waiting Normandy. Then everything went black. Much later... found he out that he was saved by this guy, the Commander told him in a quick briefing. Commander Shepard had chosen Ashley. Just like he had suggest. He knew that Commander Shepard... John Shepard had feelings for Ash. So that left him to dead. He was ready to die. But somehow this guy, in front of him.. managed to save him..
Nurses and Doctors came running into the room. One of the doctors screamed that Kai shall leave the room. What he also did. The doctor struck inside Jack's arm a syringe.. with some sedative. In all, the doctor had to give him two more... before Jack's body calmed down and he fell into a deep sleep. Kai stood outside the room, he walked around, unable to stay still. Eventually, the door to the room slide open and the Nurses along the doctors left the room. "Tie him to the bed. He needs to stay put." The doctor said to her assistant before she marched over to Kai. "Mr. Alenko. What happened inside there? What were you saying to him that made him fire up his biotic's. No, forget it. I don't want to know. Just.. don't upset him again. Geez, If he doesn't stays calm.. his biotic's will kill him. He is not allowed to use them yet, you understand right. He needs rest, his body is weak.. over stressed. I want you to go now. He won't be wake up till tomorrow.." The doctor said gesturing with a jerk of her head that Kai should follow her over to the elevators.
Once there the Doctor spoke again. "We still don't know, who he is. But his body is built like he is in the Alliance or some other sort of army. And he has L3 implants inside his head, the newest implant in fact. It's strange... that he has it. Because it's not even out yet for one week, and also his implant looks like it's been in his head for some years. So we guess he is a soldier. That would also explain why his body is so over stressed. He must have faced a huge amount of stress.. recently or over many years. He hasn't spoken to anyone since his arrival three days ago." The elevator opened it's doors and both stepped inside. The doctor still talked to Kai which was quiet as he did listened.
"I would want you to visit him again.. tomorrow. Maybe he will tell you something about himself. But I am not sure if this will upset him again. You need to avoid this. Understand? I will report to Admiral Hackett, what happened today. And you could inform your Commander. Tell him you are needed here for a while longer.." The doctor said thoughtful. "I understand, doctor." Kai said immediately. Hackett was the one which convinced him to go visit the guy. He was after all there to save him and only him.. which was odd. He said that to Shepard.. before he passed out due to over stress his biotic's.
Shepard also said, he does not know this guy. His armor is familiar to the one he is wearing. What also odd is. Shepard had asked Hackett whether he did send him. But he didn't. He isn't even registered as a N7. That alone put Shepard and his crew on edge. Who was he, why is he here. So many questions but none of them are answered yet. Only the guy inside the medical room can answer them all.. Kai thought, hoped he would.. Kai rubbed tired over his face, as he let out a long sigh. Damn. Why is this happening now? He should be out there fighting against Saren.
Kai went down with the elevator. The doctor got out of it at some point leaving Kai to himself. He still was shaken up from what had happen just minutes ago. His Omni-tool flickered to life. It was Ash. "Hi Ash." Kai said with a smile upon his face. "Is by any chance... the commander around?" He asked her, and she said yes. Kai informed him about the things which had happened. He also asked to stay a few more days there. 'Cause of that what the doctor did told him. Kai felt more at ease after having talked to the Commander and Ash. Both have become his friends, Ash sooner than Shepard, but eventually he became friends with him too. It was then that he notice. Ash and Shepard had became much closer as he did thought before. He was happy for them both. Even thought it was against the Alliance rules.. to form a relationship with a crew member.
It didn't mattered to him. Both seemed happy about being together and he was happy for both of them. Kai ended the call while laughing. Ash joked about the way Shepard danced which of course embarrassed the Commander. He grabbed Ash and ruffled through her hair, his face were flushed with embarrassment. Kai really could not help it, but burst out into a loud laughter. He enjoyed it. But soon after the call ended and Kai made his way towards his prepared apartment. Kai thought about the guy, recalling the moment he was embraced by him. The way he spoke, so strange his words may have sounded... Kai had a feeling the guy was telling the truth. Kai sighed again, and went away to catch some sleep. He felt a little excited about seeing the guy again tomorrow.