Love Hurts
By: ChibiSana
Disclaimer: I don't own this poem or Kodocha!!!
Sana's Notes: This poem is called 'The Words..." by Chris-kun, a friend of mine.
Hayama was hurt before, and is scared he's going to hurt Sana more if they get more attached, so he breaks up with her. Sana
is thrown into agast, and blames herself. WHAT NOW?! (If you want a happy ending, tell me!)
!!!!!AND THIS FIC IS DEDICATED TO HIM!!!!!
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Chapter One: The Words
Hayama stood silently in his doorway, with Sana standing in front of him.
"Hayama? What's wrong? Why did you call me to come?" Sana asked, concerned.
"I think...we shouldn't see each other anymore...I asked you to come to say good-bye..." Hayama said emotionlessly. His
face was emotionless too.
She felt her heart cracking. "W-What?" Sana stuttered, walking one step torward him, and starting sobbing. "B-But why?!"
"..." Hayama stared at her silently, as his heart shattered. He nearly blurted out 'I don't deserve you, I'll just hurt you..
like she hurt me...' He stoped himself at the last second. "I... don't love you anymore..."
"No." Sana whispered, gazing deep into his eyes. "You don't mean that. You can't!" She felt panic bubble from a pit in her
belly.
"..." Hayama hated what he was doing, but he had to do it. "I'm leaving you...beacuse..."
"B-Because?!" Sana cried.
"I...can't say the words..." Hayama said silently. He slid his arms around her...one last time. "I'm...sorry..."
Sana sobbed silently, as she clung desperately onto his chest. "Please don't leave me..." she whispered.
"Please...go..." Hayama said as he gently pushed her away. He closed his door, seperating him and Sana.
He slumped against it.
After ten minutes, he looked out the hole and saw that she was still there, sobbing.
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I thought you left...
But you were there...
But now I cannot say...
The words....
______________________________
"Sana . . ." Hayama said silently, but load enough for her to hear. "Please leave . . ." He took one step away from the door.
______________________________
I can't bring myself to voice my conviction...
I was hurt once and now...I'm scared to love again....
Now I can't love...again...
______________________________
"Hayama! Don't do this! You're not telling me something! Tell me what's wrong!!" Sana cried, pounding on the door.
______________________________
Knowing one day I'll be hurt...or have to hurt...knowing someday I'll hurt...another person..
Like the way I was hurt...
My heart cries out for you...
______________________________
"Sana..." Hayama shut him eyes. "There's nothing wrong."
______________________________
But my mind closes it's ears..closing my mouth...
And I can't say the words..."I love you"
I know you think that I'm shining...on high...
With another...more "beautiful, "nice", and "caring"
But there is no other girl I'd rather be with....then you....
______________________________
"Hayama!" Sana sobbed, banging louder. "Please! Tell me!"
______________________________
Why must my heart ache when I think of you?
For longing, anger sorrow and love?
Is it only because I've been hurt and I'm weak?
______________________________
"LEAVE!" Hayama shouted, as tears flowed silently down his cheeks.
"..." Sana slowly wiped her tears, though they just kept coming. "I-if you r-r-really want me t-too...Goodbye..."
with that, she ran away.
______________________________
I'm alone once again...
now I know what it is to be loved...
Now I'm all alone...in this world once again...
I was followed by light but I hide my face
Now my heart is tearing...as I tore yours....
I see you below me...climbing this mountain..struggling to reach what's not yours....
I belong to no one now....
I am my own...
As I cannot have you...
you are your own...
And one day you will see..that the ONE is not me...
But another angel...flying up high,
He will mend your wings and you will fly...
And as I think of this aching...this longing of mine...
A single tear trickles down....
______________________________
"Goobye..." Hayama said as one tear painfully slow crawled down his cheek, before he slumped on the ground and sobbed in his
arms.
______________________________
I say....
....Goodbye....
______________________________
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A/N: This fic was imspired to me when I read this poem. It kind of reminded me of when Sana said goodbye to Hayama. Only this
time, Hayama is the one to say goodbye.
In this fic, Hayama has been hurt before.
If you want a happy ending, please tell me!!!!
Hayama was talking about Nao as the other angel!!
REVIEW PLEASE!!!!!
By: ChibiSana
Disclaimer: I don't own this poem or Kodocha!!!
Sana's Notes: This poem is called 'The Words..." by Chris-kun, a friend of mine.
Hayama was hurt before, and is scared he's going to hurt Sana more if they get more attached, so he breaks up with her. Sana
is thrown into agast, and blames herself. WHAT NOW?! (If you want a happy ending, tell me!)
!!!!!AND THIS FIC IS DEDICATED TO HIM!!!!!
__________________________________________________________________________________________
Chapter One: The Words
Hayama stood silently in his doorway, with Sana standing in front of him.
"Hayama? What's wrong? Why did you call me to come?" Sana asked, concerned.
"I think...we shouldn't see each other anymore...I asked you to come to say good-bye..." Hayama said emotionlessly. His
face was emotionless too.
She felt her heart cracking. "W-What?" Sana stuttered, walking one step torward him, and starting sobbing. "B-But why?!"
"..." Hayama stared at her silently, as his heart shattered. He nearly blurted out 'I don't deserve you, I'll just hurt you..
like she hurt me...' He stoped himself at the last second. "I... don't love you anymore..."
"No." Sana whispered, gazing deep into his eyes. "You don't mean that. You can't!" She felt panic bubble from a pit in her
belly.
"..." Hayama hated what he was doing, but he had to do it. "I'm leaving you...beacuse..."
"B-Because?!" Sana cried.
"I...can't say the words..." Hayama said silently. He slid his arms around her...one last time. "I'm...sorry..."
Sana sobbed silently, as she clung desperately onto his chest. "Please don't leave me..." she whispered.
"Please...go..." Hayama said as he gently pushed her away. He closed his door, seperating him and Sana.
He slumped against it.
After ten minutes, he looked out the hole and saw that she was still there, sobbing.
______________________________
I thought you left...
But you were there...
But now I cannot say...
The words....
______________________________
"Sana . . ." Hayama said silently, but load enough for her to hear. "Please leave . . ." He took one step away from the door.
______________________________
I can't bring myself to voice my conviction...
I was hurt once and now...I'm scared to love again....
Now I can't love...again...
______________________________
"Hayama! Don't do this! You're not telling me something! Tell me what's wrong!!" Sana cried, pounding on the door.
______________________________
Knowing one day I'll be hurt...or have to hurt...knowing someday I'll hurt...another person..
Like the way I was hurt...
My heart cries out for you...
______________________________
"Sana..." Hayama shut him eyes. "There's nothing wrong."
______________________________
But my mind closes it's ears..closing my mouth...
And I can't say the words..."I love you"
I know you think that I'm shining...on high...
With another...more "beautiful, "nice", and "caring"
But there is no other girl I'd rather be with....then you....
______________________________
"Hayama!" Sana sobbed, banging louder. "Please! Tell me!"
______________________________
Why must my heart ache when I think of you?
For longing, anger sorrow and love?
Is it only because I've been hurt and I'm weak?
______________________________
"LEAVE!" Hayama shouted, as tears flowed silently down his cheeks.
"..." Sana slowly wiped her tears, though they just kept coming. "I-if you r-r-really want me t-too...Goodbye..."
with that, she ran away.
______________________________
I'm alone once again...
now I know what it is to be loved...
Now I'm all alone...in this world once again...
I was followed by light but I hide my face
Now my heart is tearing...as I tore yours....
I see you below me...climbing this mountain..struggling to reach what's not yours....
I belong to no one now....
I am my own...
As I cannot have you...
you are your own...
And one day you will see..that the ONE is not me...
But another angel...flying up high,
He will mend your wings and you will fly...
And as I think of this aching...this longing of mine...
A single tear trickles down....
______________________________
"Goobye..." Hayama said as one tear painfully slow crawled down his cheek, before he slumped on the ground and sobbed in his
arms.
______________________________
I say....
....Goodbye....
______________________________
__________________________________________________________________________________________
A/N: This fic was imspired to me when I read this poem. It kind of reminded me of when Sana said goodbye to Hayama. Only this
time, Hayama is the one to say goodbye.
In this fic, Hayama has been hurt before.
If you want a happy ending, please tell me!!!!
Hayama was talking about Nao as the other angel!!
REVIEW PLEASE!!!!!