photograph; stolen time ; kiss ; vanilla
lucyteddy
and i wonder if i ever cross your mind / for me it happens all the time - Lady Antebellum, Need You Now
You know it's never going to happen- right? You know that whatever it is that you have with Teddy isn't going to work out. It's almost laughable when you think about it, when you think about how pathetic you are in comparison to Victoire, Rose, or even Lily. How much of a child you are, and how you're trapped and searching for a way out of a life that is causing you too much pain.
The kisses that he places on your lips are enough to make you shiver. The scent of vanilla that lingers in his house is beautiful, but you know it's not him, nor is it you. It's Victoire. Victoire might not be there, but she's still ever-present in that apartment, in your thoughts as well as his. That vanilla scent is sweet, but it's the scent of the person who would seek to destroy you if she ever found out about what went on behind closed doors.
What you do together in your stolen time isn't right. How he kisses you, how he whispers in your ear. Don't you know that Teddy isn't really interested in you? He's just playing with your feelings. The photograph in his wallet is of Victoire, not you, never you. The photographs in his album are of Victoire and him, smiling together, laughing together. If you ever appear there, you're only in the background of the family photos.
You wonder whether he thinks of you, whether you ever cross his mind. He probably doesn't think of you much, until you're there. It's time that you face the fact that you mean nothing to him, nothing at all. Then again, you were never good at facing the facts, were you? You're always going to be Lucy Weasley, the one who could never live in reality.