How do I say I Love You?

A/N: This is my first Harry Potter fanfic. Please don't be too critical.

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Harry Potter character. I'm not J.K.R. (sniff) wish I was; I'd be rich.

How do I say I Love You?

By: Lady Arwen Gryffindor

Chapter 1

Shock for Harry

Harry sat at the window of 4 Privet Drive thinking about how his last year at Hogwarts was going to be. He had decided that this year was the year that he would tell the one person he loved how he felt. He had had these feelings for her since the first day he had met her, 7 years ago. At first it was just a small tingle everytime he thought of her, but now it was this heart bursting, electric feeling. He had only had these types of feelings once before and that was when he found out he was going to go to Hogwarts.

Just as he sat there thinking to himself how he was going to tell his one true love, there was a knock at his window and door at the same time. He looked to the window and saw a tiny owl flapping its wings madly trying to hold up the package that it was holding. Calling to the person at the door, "Hold on," Harry opened the window and brought Pig inside. Placing Pig in Hedwig's cage, Harry went to answer the door.

To his surprise his Aunt Petunia was standing outside his room with a smile on her face. Glancing behind herself to see if Uncle Vernon was coming, Aunt Petunia entered Harry's room. "Harry...I know that...we haven't gotten along all these years; these years that you have lived here with us. But I want to say that I am proud of you...proud that you have...well, made it this far; and I know that my sister, your mum, would be proud too. I'm sorry that I was...rough on you these past years, but I did it to make you strong, make you tough. I hope you can forgive me."

"God, if your Uncle knew I was telling you this, it would be our heads, he wanted to keep you out of the family, keep you a mystery to us, and us a mystery to you. But I couldn't let him do that," Aunt Petunia paused, looking at Harry hard, tears welling up in her eyes. "Harry, I'm so sorry that Lily died. Oh gosh, I haven't said that before, but I've wanted too," Aunt Petunia stopped talking and wiped away a tear.

"Here, your mother gave this to me for my graduation from High School, and I'm sure that if she were here, she would give you something close to it. It's not much, but please...accept it as an apology gift." Aunt Petunia watched Harry as he unwrapped the gift. It was a book titled "Muggles and Wizards: How to Exist Together" Harry looked up, tears gleaming in his eyes. "Go ahead Harry, open it." Harry did and to his surprise he saw writing. His mums writing. Written inside the front cover, "Petunia, what can I say? You're my sister, even though I know you can't stand it. I want you to know I love you and please know that I trust you. If anything happens to me, I will trust you with my child's life. When I have them, don't worry, I'm not pregy. I love you, Lily"

"Aunt Petunia...I don't know what to say. Thank you, thank you so much," Harry rushed forward and gave his aunt their first ever hug. "Can I ask you a question? Why did you hate my mum so much? Did she ever do anything to you that...that made you freighted of her?" Harry asked.

"No, no Harry she didn't. She became something that I would have loved to be. No one knows this but myself and you now, I'm a squib, but I was to embarrassed to do anything about it," Aunt Petunia turned to leave the room, "Please don't tell Vernon that I've been in here to see you, and don't mention my being a squib...please." Aunt Petunia left Harry's room, closing the door behind her.

Harry stared at the door; his aunt was a squib. That explained a lot. Walking to his desk, Harry opened up Hedwig's cage, took out Pig and untied the package from his leg. "What has Ron sent me now?" But it wasn't from Ron it was from Ginny.

"Harry,

How are you doing? I'm fine. Ron was going to write this to you, but I got it done first. Mom wants to know if you would like to come to Diagon Alley with us? Hermione is joining us as well, I hope you can come. We are leaving in the 1st of August, and Mum said that you could stay the rest of the holiday with us as well as Hermione. Could you please send Pig back with a reply? See you later.

Love,

Ginny

P.S. The package is an early birthday gift from me."

Harry wrote back to Ginny and the Weasley's telling them that he would love to join them on the trip to Diagon Alley. He sent Pig out the window, and then sat down to open his gift. Inside Harry found a wonderful gift certificate to Zonko's joke shop and a book of Quidditch plays and the players that made them famous.

Harry realized that this trip to the Weasley's would be his last as a Hogwarts student, and his last as a "child." He also realized that he now had one of his last chances to tell the one he loved how he felt, but would she fell the same way to him?

Harry spent the rest of the day and night figuring out how he would tell his one and how she would react to what he said. Would she feel the same to him, or would she laugh at him in his face. That would be his worst nightmare come true. He wasn't very good with girls and she knew that. She had to console him after Cho and him had had their blow, and that was bad enough to scare any girl away from him. Harry was lost in thought when he heard a rapping at his window again. Harry looked up and to his surprise saw Pig back again with another letter. Harry opened the window and Pig flew in, twittering around the ceiling and finally crashed into Harry's cabinet. "Stupid bird, just wait until i tell Ron what you have done. You won't be proper to fly for a while," Harry scooped up Pig and put him back into Hedwig's cage. Harry opened up the second letter, to see that this one was from Ron.

"Harry,

Ginny told me that she wrote to you, stupid git, I told her that I was going to write you, but she grabbed Pig and tied a package to his leg and off he went. I'm guessing Ginny told you about going to Diagon Alley since we got a reply from you saying that you would go. I'll come and get you tomorrow, as it is your birthday, mum has something for you. I'm going to apperate. I passed my test just the other day, so we can apperate together back to the burrow. I'll be at your place around noon. I have something else to tell you, but I'll wait to tell you then.

Ron

Author Notes: Ok, I hope that is ok for a first chapter. I hope that it was ok or a fic. Like I said it's been a while since I've written anything. Please R/R and I'll try my best to get the next chapter up soon.