I'm coming Dan

by lardidar

Phil describes what life is like now, as he lies in bed feeling the others presence lingering around him. But it's to much, he wants his best friend back. /This is in first person, I went out of my comfort zone to do this as I really just like third person so please give me some feed back! Thank you, I hope you enjoy./

I could still feel his arms lingering on my waist, our legs still intertwined with each other, his warm breath on the back of his neck as he whispered. "It's going to be okay." As he then started to place gentle kisses along my shoulder. I brought hands hands up to my face, trying to stop myself from crying, but that didn't work at all, his tears flowed out of his eyes, one after the other slipping threw a small gap between my hand and face then falling onto my pillow. This was beginning to be normal for me, it had been a whole week and every night I silently sobbed into my hands, asking myself the same question.

Why?

It all happened so fast, one minute I was lay, snuggling into his warm chest while he hugged me tight, protecting me, looking after me, I felt so safe in his arms knowing that he would always be there for me. He promised he wouldn't leave my side, it was a promise that he said he would keep no matter what, so why was he not her with me? I know it's selfish but I can't live without him, he kept me alive for all these years.

I curled myself up into a tight ball I couldn't stop thinking about him, I never knew about any of it, he kept it from me this whole time only leaving one note when it was too late and all it said was sorry. I can't think straight anymore, I haven't eaten or slept properly since it happened. Nothing will ever be the same anymore, nothing. No one could ever replace him.

Why did he have to get cancer?

Sitting up I sighed, I could not cry anymore, my eyes were sore and dry. I'm fighting a battle with my mind, trying to convince myself that I can do it, I can pull through this, Dan's happy now, he's not hurting anymore. My other half disagrees though, since he came into my life I was happy, happier than I had ever been before, we looked after each other. I need him.

I got up from my bed, mindlessly walking over to my dressing gown and grabbing the rope I use to keep it tight around my body. Making my way over to the living room, I know this is right, I can feel it. No one would care. I made a loop, in it and got up on a chair. This was it. I was finally going to see Dan again. We can live happily together. Again.

"I'm coming Dan.

I love you." I whispered.

Everything suddenly went black as the chair fell.