Sorry about this.

(This is not a song fic, just a song prologue)

Disclaimer: I do not own anything you might recognize.

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Prologue

Ally Dawson had always thought of herself as a smart woman. All through her academics career she had always been the best in class. Straight A student, valedictorian, etc. but after college she realized that being smart in school was not the same as being smart in life. And apparently she was not smart in life.

It all started with a shared kiss at the beach after a long and tired day at the studio, she knew that it was a way for him to release his stress, she knew him better than anyone, the regret in his eyes made her heart ache but she kissed him again. She never thought it would escalate the way it did, but then his clothes were in her room and her hands in his hair.

And that night became a weekend, then a week, a month and she was not regretting anything, she had never felt so alive, but by the time that two months had passed, she could feel his reluctance and she just knew that her time was up.

"Nothing last forever…"

She knew what he was trying to say, but she didn't want to hear it from his lips so she said it herself. Did she regret it? Every single day, but you would never hear her saying it.

But she moved on (no, she didn't), she kept writing and singing and working and she barely thought about him. He was on tour and she pretended to not know what kind of stuff he was doing while he was touring the country because it was easier that way.

But then he came back.

He was at her apartment door, at two o'clock in the morning. She could see the tired eyes and the bag under his eyes. She knew what was going to happen but she didn't care anymore. She had missed him too much to care.

"No one has to know what we do…"

She knew that it was wrong, that she wasn't supposed to do it because she was smart, she was the always good and innocent one, but she felt like she had no choice. Her other option was letting him go completely, out of her life. And she was definitely not dumb enough (or smart enough) to do it.

She always recognized the signs when it was time for him to come back to her and when he was about to leave. She never stopped him, because she knew he was going to go back to her and she knew that she was going to take him back, because as we already mentioned, she was not ready to let him go. She might never be ready for let him go.

If anybody asked her, she was single. Even though if she wasn't actually available, she liked the dating game when he wasn't around; she was not that dumb to pretend that he didn't went out when he left; she knew he was out with other girls probably not thinking about her. So she tried it too. It always worked for a few weeks but then she knew got tired of playing and she knew that he was going to come back soon.

She couldn't (even If she said she did) stop thinking about him. No matter how long she tried, she kept thinking about his eyes, his hair and basically everything about him.

So one time, maybe about a month after le left once again, she decided that she needed a distraction, which probably was true. She couldn't stop thinking about what he was doing, when he was doing and at night she usually thought who he was doing; it was eating her alive, so she decided that it was time to go out and have fun.

And she met Gavin.

Gavin was a sweet guy, he took the time to know her and to understand her, they went out to different dates and he always kept it different and she loved it. He listened to whatever she had to say and she felt safe, it was not dangerous. But somehow he figured her out.

Gavin knew that she was not available, that her heart had being stolen and she would never have it back and even if she tried to deny it, she knew it was true; and she didn't want to hurt Gavin. No matter how much she sometimes wished to love Gavin, it wouldn't happen if she knew that Austin would come back to her.

So Ally and Gavin decided to stay friends, he was her safe place. He was the one who she called when those what if where invading her mind at night.

"And this is going to take me down…"

Ally was reading an amazing novel that Gavin had recommended her when her doorbell rang. She looked up confused since she was not expecting anyone. It was almost midnight and she had lost herself in the book that she thought that maybe she was losing her mind, but then the doorbell rang again.

She pulled her book aside and got up; grabbing her robe from the back of the chair next to her bed she walked out of her room towards her door. She stopped for a moment when the thought of the person on the other side of the door and that it could be Austin crossed her mind. She didn't know why she suddenly felt so nervous. She missed him so much, she should be excited. But something was bugging her.

She opened the door and as she already knew, the blond was there; right in front of her. She smiled at him when she noticed the sad look in his eyes, but he didn't return it. He just walked inside the door and closed it, immediately kissing Ally.

She noticed a different emotion in his kiss; it was more desperate, urgent. Was something wrong? But she could never voice that thought out loud because his lips where on her neck, sucking on that spot he knew made her knees go weak. All rational thoughts left Ally's mind while she walked backwards towards her room.

…

Ally woke up to the sunlight hitting her right in her eyes, she tried to move but she felt someone's arms trapping her, tightening its hold on her. For a tiny moment she felt happy, she was back to her home, her happy place. But her mood dropped quickly when she remembered the urgency of his kisses the night before.

She knew something was wrong, that uncertainty from the night before coming back to her mind.

She moved slowly Austin's arm, trying to untangle herself from his hold without wake him up. She succeeded and put her pajamas back on and walked towards her kitchen, trying to occupy herself to ignore the bad feeling she was having.

She had started making breakfast, pulling from her fridge all the right ingredients for pancakes, when she felt his presence right behind her. He was unusually quiet and she knew that something was definitely wrong.

"Ally, we need to talk" he said in a serious tone. Her body shivering at the tone she was hearing.

"Can't we do it after breakfast?" she asked, she wanted to delay whatever that was happening as long as she could.

"No, it can't. Please?" She sighed and walked to her living room, she sat at the couch and scooted over so he could sit next to her, but he stayed standing up.

"Is there something wrong?" she asked. She thought she saw something flashed in his eyes, but it happened so fast that maybe she was imagining it.

"We can't do this anymore." He said softly.

"What?" she asked softly, but she had heard him. She knew this day would come. She had expect it, but she was wishing that it never happened. And now it was happening. Her worst fear, her nightmare was becoming real. She was losing him.

"We can…" he tried to repeat it but she stopped him.

"I know what you said. And I knew this day would come." She bit her lip, holding her tears as much as she could. "Did you meet someone?" she asked.

"Ally…" Austin said, but then he closed his mouth.

She already knew the answer.

"Don't say anything, as I said I knew the day would come. Don't worry about me Austin." She got up from the couch and walked to hug him.

Say you'll remember me, please say it. Say that you won't forget about me. About us. That's all I need.

But he didn't say it, he just returned the hug and then broke it off, kissed her goodbye and walked to the door.

She saw him walked out of her apartment, her life; a lonely tear slowly falling from her eye, she heard the door slowly closing behind him, leaving her completely alone and heartbroken.

"Say you'll see me again even if it's just pretend…"

Sorry if this doesn't make any sense, it's one in the morning and I just came from work a few hours ago but I had to post this.

I'll try to fix the mistakes whenever I'm coherent again. Please feel free to review and if you see a grammatical error or something let me know. English is not my first language.

I'll try to update as soon as I can.

Thank you for reading.