Okay, so well I had this idea and I couldn't really let it go. But I decided to write it as a poem from Scott Anspaugh's POV. Some lines… I think you'll see which ones might seem harsh and…. Gross! But since it's written from Scott's POV I kind of wanted to get into his character. I hope you like it. Oh I almost forgot… English is not my first language.
Well, this is my second attempt on ER- fanfiction and the first one I upload. This is exciting!
Enjoy!
I was broken
I was really broken
But you came into my life
And you healed me!
My whole life
As far as I can remember
Has been a total hell
Only in and out of hospital
Went to the hospital, treatment,
spending the next few days puking my guts out
And seeing hair on the inside of my cap as it fell off
And having to stay in bed because I just couldn't get up
Yeah, it was total hell!
Then it stopped and I was free
Then I met you
And then it started again
And I was back again!
All my hair fell off
And I couldn't stop getting sick
But it was easier this time
Well, I don't really know if easier would be the right word
Because it was the exact same things as it was the last
With the cytostatic and its side effects
Nothing should have changed since the last time
Or maybe it should have
Maybe I should have cried less
Fought through the sickness and the pain without a flinch
After all- I wasn't a baby anymore!
It wasn't like the time before
Because everything was sort of harder
Because I couldn't always show my feelings like before
But then you were there
And being with you
It made me realize
That maybe, just not always
I would have to act strong
You didn't only say, but also showed
That it was alright if I cried, laughed or shouted
And you showed me that it was alright
And you were there through it all
I thought things would change
When my dad started paying you for being with me
Tried to just push you away
Because I thought that it was just about the money
But you didn't care about the money
And you didn't care that I was ill
You didn't treat me like the others did
Like I was breakable and would break if you treated me too harsh
Instead you were just normal
You talked and sang with me
Took me to games and just let medicines and side effects be a part of everything else.
Instead of like everything else usually becomes a part or medicines, illness and side effects.
And you held my hand
Or stroke my back
Or gave me a word of advice
Whatever I needed, whenever I needed.
And you were just there
You were always there
Even when it got hard
And so many others would have left
And even when things were at their hardest
You would make sure
That I always had something to look forward to
And something to make me happy every day
And I loved you
I loved you so much more
Than I have ever loved someone else
And in a whole other way
And I loved you
And people knew
Because I wouldn't push you away
Like I did with the others
And I loved you
And you were my first true love
And the first and only girl I kissed
And you always will be
When I got ill again
I would have done anything
To take it all away
But now I'm not so sure
Because if I hadn't gotten ill
You and I would have just continued being friends
Going to games, doing different sports
And with time we would have grown apart
Well, I guess it would sound kind of cruel
If I said that we didn't really get enough time to grow apart
That during the months we knew each other
I needed you so badly we couldn't grow apart
And I hope you had the time of your life
Because I know I did
So, that didn't turn out so bad did it? Well. I would love to hear what you think in a review or a PM