It was a horrible breakup. One that led to both of them screaming at each other's face, tears streaming down their cheeks, a hard slam from the door as one of them stormed out… and then nothing. Just nothing. They had given each other the silent treatment for a couple of days.
Yeah, it was pretty bad if Elsa decided to stay home, rather than going to work to see her face. She didn't want to see Anna anyway, if she couldn't respect her wishes. She was reluctant to really believe Anna would be that kind of person keep her from soaring into the sky.
Elsa would be gone to New York in a couple of days, and she'd stay there until… until whenever. Not that Arendelle was bad, but she'd been promoted to a bigger company after she'd showed everything she had to offer for the big project.
One thing led to another, and when she whispered heartbreakingly to the girl, "if you won't let me go… let's break up", she'd felt a slap against her cheek, and a slam of her door sounding right after. Elsa didn't get the chance to think about what she'd just said.
Two days. Just two more days until she'd be gone… and yet, she was still in bed without a care in the world. There were no calls, nor texts from Anna-just Kristoff, so it didn't really matter anymore. Nothing really mattered if she couldn't get up and say sorry to the girl. After all, they were in complete love with each other until this day.
Her room was dark… so very cold as it was winter. She didn't bother turning on the heater and let herself drown in her sorrow every night. Drowning in her own guilt and thoughts.
It was midnight when she got a text. She didn't really want to look at it, but she knew there'd be a chance Anna had texted her. It overtook her drowsiness.
We need to talk. - Little Baby, 12:21AM
That didn't mean anything good.
I know. She typed.
You're right. I'd just be slowing you down. -Little Baby, 12:22AM
Her chest tightened into knots, and her throat made an unpleasant sound. Now, she was wide awake. She covered her mouth. They really shouldn't be doing this over text. Her eyes began to look teary, her screen becoming blurrier with each blink. Her fingers were shaking. No way they were going to do this over text.
I love you. I love you so much, but if you can't stay in Arendelle… then you're right. If I come along, I'll stop you from doing anything revolutionary. I'll slow you down, and I don't want that. -Little Baby, 12:26AM
Elsa covered her mouth. What are you saying? Please… I'm sorry.
Don't be. Let's break up. -Little Baby, 12:27AM
It was… a big, big mistake. And finally, immediately, Elsa got out of bed. The front door shut tight, and she'd stormed out into the night to search Anna. To tell her that she was sorry-to tell her she wouldn't slow her down. She stopped in the middle of the streets, when Anna called her.
She didn't realize it was snowing-nor how cold it was right now.
"Anna…" she wept. "Anna, please…"
"Don't make this harder for both of us, Elsa. We both know what will happen."
"N-No, no, no!" Tears continued to stream down her cheeks, and she couldn't stand it any longer. She leaned against one of the buildings, slowly sliding down to her knees. "Please… Please don't do this…" She placed a finger between her lips to stop the cries. Not that anybody could hear her anyway.
Not that anyone could ever help her.
"You wanted this, Elsa."
"I-It was a mistake. I… I wasn't thinking… Anna… baby, please don't do this to me." Oh, those poor excuses that everybody would make. "I love you, I-I'll make an effort to talk to you every day-"
"Sorry, Elsa. You're just… you're beautiful, smart… lovable. You deserve someone better. We'll still talk, don't worry. But nothing more than friends. I love you." Dial-tone. It was too late.
And then, that day came. Finally at the airport, this was the last time she'd see Anna. The redhead had gotten there earlier than Elsa-knowing, she'd be there at least six hours earlier.
Elsa didn't plan on calling her, but here, Anna was with a gentle smile across her face. She seemed tired.
The two gazed at each other in wonder, but nothing stopped Elsa from breaking down into tears, her hand clenching onto her chest as if her heart was going to break all over again. She felt Anna's arms embrace her, a hand running through her hair, and she whispered, "I love you. I'll see you when you come back… and we can start over again."
There was hope. And Elsa just couldn't let go anymore.
When she did, Anna was still holding her hand. Silence loomed over them, but this was the familiar comfortable silence they'd always had. Like the ones where they'd sit next to each other doing their own work, or just having Anna's head on her shoulder as they watched a movie or read a book.
For some reason, the comfort was too heartbreaking. But Elsa held back the tears.
She gazed at her one more time. "I'll be back."
"I know." Anna grinned. There was that dorky smile. "Text me whenever you can."
"I will."
Every day they'd text each other, and tell each other about how their day went. It was fine at first, and everything was all smile and sunshine. But each night, Elsa would still think about whether it was the right decision to actually break the relationship off-that did she really hurt Anna that much, that the redhead had finally accepted that this was the right choice.
And each night with the thought in mind, she wouldn't be able to sleep-although, she'd always text the woman good night even if they were 8 hours apart. When those nights came along, she'd go back to her office and work ahead on whatever project the team was focusing on.
Life… was hard. But easier now as she had more people working for her. That didn't matter when Anna wasn't by her side. But she was not grieving over that breakup anymore.
To be frank… she was almost glad it happened.
A few months came along, and Elsa couldn't text the girl often anymore. Occasionally, she'd text her goodnight even if it was only evening for her. Anna would reply with an image of her in bed, or perhaps… with her friends partying. Even if it was 3 in the morning for her.
It did make Elsa jealous for a bit. Tiana would always suggest some loosening up, but every time, Elsa would just smile and shook her head before gazing back at her dual monitors all day. It was straining, but at least it kept her mind off of certain things. Besides, she was too busy to even start partying anyway.
A whole year passed by, and Elsa had gone from occasionally texting her… to rarely. She'd moved on, and while she'd been promoted to being CEO of Bentley Architect Corp, she didn't have the time to tell Anna. Didn't have the heart to.
Yes, she was proud and happy, but… other than that, Anna was just there. A person-a distant friend, she'd text ever so often. When lonely, she would be the first to text her and say hi.
But every now and then, she'd wonder what Anna was doing.
She wondered if she'd be wearing the dress that night, she'd brought her a year ago.
She wondered if she'd being held by someone that night like she used to.
She wondered if she'd undress herself teasingly to someone else other than her.
She wondered if she'd be lying next to someone when morning came.
She wondered… if they really did move on.
Another two month had passed. It was Anna's birthday, finally, when her phone vibrated from her calendar notification.
Little Baby's birthday.
For a second, she'd forgotten who Little Baby was until she looked at the date. June 21. Anna was becoming 24.
She was hesitant to tell her happy birthday in her bedroom, and her thoughts were swimming elsewhere other than work. It was already past midnight by the time she decided to move her thumbs and form out the words 'happy birthday. I hope you had a nice one'. Her thumb hovered above 'send'.
Whatever she was feeling for Anna… it was gone. And after so many months after that day, she just… didn't get what she had with her. What made her love her so much… the spark they had for each other. Elsa looked over her words over and over again. After all, Anna could've been busy… partying with the friends she had now. Possibly, a girlfriend too.
She ended up deleting the text, and went straight to sleep.
It was Christmas when she decided to go back to Arendelle for a well deserved break after almost two years of non stop work. But she still had work.
And work was horrifying her when she still had some leftovers to work on from her previous company.
Looking up to the building, she let out a breath that was so cold, it could've turned into ice. At this time of year, Arendelle was quite festive. But the building was the same as usual. She stepped into the sliding doors to meet the security in the front. It was… quite nice to be back, actually.
"Miss Snow? Welcome back!"
Elsa grinned. "Hello, Olaf. It's nice to be back." She pressed the elevator up button.
"Wow, you… you don't look all that different. How's New York?"
She pressed her face into her scarf. "Not as cold as here. But… very crowded. And noisy."
He laughed. "I know. You get used to it. Apparently, you're the CEO of Bentley?"
"Yes, it's been a couple of months now."
"Hard work?"
She chuckled. "Well, I guess, it's better than what I used to do."
"Certainly is with so many people working for you."
The elevator doors opened. "I'll see you around, Olaf."
With each floor up, her nerves just couldn't keep still. Her mind wandered to Anna again-even if she was the last person she'd ever think about. She wondered if she'd quit the job after she'd left… but she doubted. This was a decent paying job anyway.
But Elsa did change. She was no longer in love with Anna. No longer wishing Anna would be next to her when she was having a hard time. No longer wishing Anna would lay beside her in bed, and hum a song to her until they'd both fall asleep. After all… there were friends that would be there for her. Belle would be there for her.
Belle would do all these things just fine.
Ding!
She looked into the hallway as she arrived to the front-something's changed. The sign! "Andersen & Co…" She blinked.
Anna?
As fast as she could, she opened the glass door, and looked from left to right. It was quiet, but people were still in their cubicles, receiving calls, and filing paper work. Her eyes were wide as she looked to the left. She still remembered her current office… as well, as her ex-CEO's office.
Quickly, she made her way there… but was hesitant to even open the door that clearly said "CEO".
There were a bit of screaming behind that door-a female voice. She rounded her knuckles against the wooden door, gulping down her the fast beating of her heart. And everything in her mind came crashing down to her.
Everything that she'd held back feeling came rushing into her chest. It hurt. It hurt so fucking much.
She hadn't moved on. She never really did.
And although, she did hook up with other women… her thought was still with Anna. She still got jealous of the people she was with… how happy she'd be… how radiant her smile was.
She licked her lips. Elsa wanted that all back.
Quietly, she turned her knuckles to hold onto the doorknob and turned.
"-Meg, come on, we've gone over this. If you want a dog, and I want another dog, we might as well get two! Not like we can't afford it, and it's not like two is more than enough-you can never get enough… I've given you a ring, but now, you won't accept a dog?! Duh, I'm pissed! Whatever… I'll just… we can talk about this later… yeah… I love you."
There it was again. This tightening feeling.
Even if the woman had her back turned to Elsa, she could recognize those red hair anywhere. The woman sighed. "I can't believe I'm engaged to her…"
Elsa was going to cry-from all the memories they had to coming back to find out that she was… she was…
"Anna."
"What?!" Those pigtails swung when she turned. Teal eyes. Freckles. Button nose. It was Anna, alright. Elsa gazed down. And an engagement ring.
They were quiet for a minute, and Elsa wasn't sure if she should even say anything-rather, she just wanted to run. She wanted to go back to New York, and drown herself in the work that she had been doing. But here she was, standing there like a moron.
"It's… It's been awhile," she finally spoke. Anna's eyes were wide, her teal eyes coated with tears.
"Yeah…" the redhead replied back. "Yeah, it's been a while…"
Silence. And Elsa wasn't sure if she was even comfortable with this anymore. She stepped into the office, and placed the big envelop she'd taken with her. "This is for you."
Anna didn't even bother looking at her, keeping her gaze at her ex lover. But Elsa didn't have much to say. Her heart was numb… and finding out Anna had been engaged… that numbness had broken her.
"You're engaged."
"Yeah."
"Since when?"
"On my birthday." Right. Silence.
She looked down. "I… I have to go." She turned her heels. While she was asleep… Anna was getting engaged with her lover. Someone that she couldn't be. Someone she wished had been replaced with herself. Elsa regretted it. "And… Congratulations."
"Thank you."
The door clicked shut once Elsa left the office. She shouldn't be running away to the elevator. She shouldn't be this numb… and she shouldn't be crying like a baby now. Oh, how weak she was becoming.
She couldn't even hear Olaf calling for her as she ran- "Elsa! Elsa, come back!"
Anna.
She didn't turn back, and let her voice echo until she found a hand grasping on hers. She twitched, flinching away. "L-Let go, Anna… Please!" The girl only hugged her tightly when she tried to push her away.
"No… No, I won't. I…" Elsa continued to weep, louder than ever. All these emotions she'd held back all exploded into one big pile of mess.
"Please… don't do this… don't do this to me…" she begged, clenching onto Anna's shirt. The woman stayed quiet. "You promised… you promised you'd be there for me, you promised we'd start over…"
"Elsa, I'm sorry…"
"You lied to me.. You… y-you're so selfish."
Anna was taking all the hit. But that was okay as long as Elsa was. Elsa didn't stop crying, and Anna didn't stop apologizing until a few moments passed. They couldn't smile, but at least, Elsa was able to let her go and look into her eyes.
Anna had gotten much older… more beautiful. No wonder she was engaged this quickly. She felt the woman's hand pressed to her cheek, wiping any bitter tears that were left remaining. And perhaps, there were more to come.
"We have a lot to talk about, Elsa."
