CG POV

"Christain I have to leave, please believe me that I don't want to but it's for the best, things have changed in me and believe me when I say it's not you it's me, I know I've been gone a few days but I couldn't leave properly with out saying goodbye you. I will forever love you and be great full that you fell in love me and change your lifestyle but I'm different and at this time I cannot explain why, I will tell you one day but for now you need to forget me until its time to remember"

"Ana I'm do glad it was you that fell through my office door, I will be forever great full that you fell in love with me, took chance In me and us even if I am fifty shades of fucked up, I know one day you will explain and I will forget about you until it's time"

I feel like I've been in a trance, what just happened forget who, wow I need to do something maybe check in with work, no it's a weekend you don't work on weekends.

I need to see Flyn I feel empty but I can't explain why, it's like my soul has been taken out from my body and I'm just a shell.

" Flynn are you available I need to see you"

" Christian sure I can make room for you if you can get down now as I have a 3 hour gap before my next appointment"

" thank you ill be right there see you in 15 minutes"

Seeing Flynn may help shed some light into what I'm feeling, he knows all about my lifestyle but I can't think of why I gave it up, I don't even feel like going back to that what's wrong with me I feel like I have no control.

" mr grey Flynn said go right through"

" thank you"

"Mr grey what's up you sounded strange over the phone, I have never heard you like that"

" John in all honesty I don't know, today I felt like I woke from a trance and seance then I feel like something is missing from inside me like my soul has been ripped out from me"

"Has anything happened to Ana just last time you saw me like this she left you"

" Ana, who's Ana I'm sorry it doesn't ring a bell"

" Ana is your girlfriend the reason you gave up your lifestyle"

" See I have no idea who your talking about"

" Christian you need to go home and look you and Anastasia Steele that should help you, I wish I knew what to do, but you have left my mind blank on this one"

" That I shall do thanks for a name, I really wish I knew who your talking about"

" come back tomorrow and then we can talk more"

" 3pm would be good as brunch with my mum"

" 3pm"

Anastasia Steele why is this name so unfamiliar, I have no recognition of this woman I really hope it's not a looney ex sub, wait he said girlfriend I don't do girlfriends fuck I can feel all control sleeping right through my fingertips and it doesn't feel like I will get it back.

I get back to my apartment making my way to my office, I load up google and type in Christian grey ans Anastasia Steele. Wow a image of a attractive blue eyed girl and me appears on my screen, she really doesn't look familiar to me, the title says she is a grad student, hang on I gave out deplomers that day but do not timber this picture bring taken. Saving the image to my pictures I can't help it her eyes are like they can see through me. I need to go to bed. Ill ring Welch in the morning he should be able to track her.

I finally fall sleep with the Image of those blue eyes why do I not know her.