Crossing
Crossing
*** If you don't like slightly,
or, dark fics, in general....Turn back now.This is about Shinji.
He explores his thoughts and feeling..but comes to one
conclusion...***
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Shinji Ikari sat in his dark
room. It was Two'O'clock in the morning. He was sitting in a
furnished oak chair in his room, in front of a mirror, staring
blankly at himself. He had his hands neatly folded over his lap.
He was hollding something. He was sliding his thumb back and
forth across it's smooth surface, over and over. He seemed ot be
in deep thought.
"I..hate this." He thought. "I hate..all of this.
I hate Unit-01, I hate father, I hate Rei's calmness, I hate
Asuka's annoying comments, I hate Misato's lies, I hate N.E.R.V,
I hate all of it!!" His pace increased back and forth on the
object, he seemed angered.
He scowled on the mirror.
" You killed your only friend, you want to kill your other
ones too?" His voice echoed in his head. "It wasn't my
fault...It...it...was my fault..." Shinji stammered to
himself. " It was my fault." He said outloud. "I
hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself! I HATE MYSELF!!!"
He held the object to his neck. "But.." he thought
" I can stop all the pain...I can stop myself from hurting
others..I can save myself from killing another..." The
object was a small pocket knife. Kaji had given it to him on his
birthday. He thanked him silently for the gift wich would bring
his death...What he was waiting for.
He slowly closed his eyes and
pressed the blade against his neck, thinking for a moment. Asuka,
stumbled gently around the corner form her trip to the bathroom.
'What the hell?' she thought. Only Shinji's back was visible to
Asuka.'What is he doing?'
Asuka's eyes widened. She
caught a glimpse of the blade. "Shinji!" It slpped out
between her lips. Shinji spun around still holding the blade to
his neck. His eyes were hallow and wide with fear.
"A-Asuka?.." he whispered. "Unta- Baka!!" She
covered her mouth with her hands in shock. She walked over to him
and took the blade easily from his hand. Shinji looked up at her.
Asuka was at a loss of words. " I don't want you getting
your blood all over Kaji's expesive blade he bought for you,
baka!" she screame at him. He was going to commit suicide
and she screams at him. Smart Asuka. " I'm the one that
should get my blood on it.." She whispered holding it over
her throat. Shinji grabbed her wrist. "NO!" Shinji
twisted the knife out of her hand and carelessly tossed it onto
the carpet.
Shinji accidently ahoved Asuka
sailing into the floor. She stared up at him. ".." She
got up and quickly ran out of the room. Shinji heard her door
slam. And for the first time, Shinji heard Asuka cry. Soft
muffles of tears were heard form her room. Shinji stared at the
knife with disgust. He stepped on it bending the blade into the
carpet. "Damn myself. I'm scum."
For the rest of the night Shinji sat in front of Asuka's door. He
was afraid to face her in the morning. But he still wold give his
life for an escape from the truth. And without Asuka, he almost
did.
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The End, Hopefully not for Shinji and Asuka.
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It was short and kinda a dark
fic. Not much of a plot. Kind sucked. Please R+R.
