A/N: Hey guys! I have just read the trilogy, and I have had this in my head and I just had to write it down! I hope you guys enjoy it! Oh I don't own any of the character but Grayson! Enjoy :D
I'm Grayson Spence, well now Grayson Grey. My mom was one of Christian's subs. She got pregnant with me, and didn't tell him. She left him for my Dad, Riley Spence. She passed me off as his, until my mom was killed in a car accident. Let's just say he wasn't very excited about it, hell he beat the living shit out of me. That's when I came to live with my real father. I can still remember when the social worker dropped me off, I was seven years old.
"Grayson, you're going to love it here. You're going to get new clothes, new toys!" Lily a tall African American woman, with dark chocolate eyes said as she led me to the elevator.
I didn't say anything, I just clutched my stuffed lion, who I named Lion King closer to me. Lily had been trying to get me to talk for week, I just wasn't one for words, even before my mom died and my da-aa- ,Riley flew off the handle. I was still recovering, I had two black eyes, huge welts all along my legs and arms, a busted lip, a deep purple bruise on my cheek. I was a runt for my age, and it didn't help Riley spent all the money on drugs and alcohol. When the neighbors found me going through their garbage cans looking for food and saw my face, and arms, they called the police. The police took me to Child Services, who looked for my closest relatives. What they found surprised them, now I'm in an elevator with Lily going to meet my real father.
The elevator doors open, I'm hiding behind Lily's legs. Clutching Lion King tight to my chest, looking down to the floor. Lily walks out, she is greeted by a tall buff man, with bright green eyes. He shows her into the living room, I follow them trying to keep up with their fast pace. Lily and the man stop, I hide behind Lily's legs. I'm scared, scared Riley's here waiting for me, and mommy's gone so nobody can protect me.
"Mr and Mrs Grey I would like you to meet Grayson." Lily announced as she stepped out of the way so I could be seen.
I quickly look down at the floor, not wanting to look around the room, or at anyone.
An older blonde woman walks up to me, she kneels down so she is at my height. "Hello Grayson, I'm your grandmother Grace." She smiles brightly at me.
I say nothing and continue to look at the floor. She tries to put her hand on my shoulder, I quickly step back. She frowns before getting up on her feet.
Another woman with a big belly is behind her. She leans down her blue eyes sparkles as she says, " Hey Grayson! I'm Ana! I'm your new mommy."
I don't say anything, to her. I want to tell her I have a mommy she just isn't here, she is with the angels in heaven. But I don't.
She moves out of the way, behind her is a man in a suit. I look at him as he crouches down in front of me,he has eyes just like mine, hair just like mine. He must be my daddy. He stares at me making me pull Lion King closer to my chest. We stay like this for a long time, he examines my face taking in the huge deep purple bruise on my cheek, and my black eyes. His eyes flash from light grey, to dark grey which scares me. I flinch and take a few steps back. He notices, "Grayson I'm not going to hurt you." his voice is deep and quiet. I'm to scared to move, I just want my mommy. I want her to give me strawberry milk and rub my tummy, like she used too. I watch him stand up, he runs his fingers through his hair.
"Thank you for bringing her here." He says to Lily, who smiles brightly at him.
"No problem Mr Grey. I need to speak with you and your wife real quick, then I'll be leaving." Lily said
Mr Grey quickly ushered her into his office, his wife followed them.
I was left alone with my grandmother, and the tall man with bright green eyes. She begins to talk to me, "Grayson my dear,we will be meeting everyone else for dinner! Your grandfather, your Uncle Elliot, Aunt Mia! Are you hungry ?" She asks not touching me, which I'm thankful for. My stomach growls answering her. She laughs, I like her laugh it's bright and cheerful.
"You must know by the extent of Grayson's injuries, she has ben through a lot." Lily says as she sits on the couch her voice chalked with concern for Grayson's well being.
Christian sighs, "Yes I'm aware." Seeing Grayson's face reminded him of his childhood before he lived with the Greys. He felt a pang in his heart, he wished he would of found out about Grayson, before she was almost beaten to death.
"She doesn't talk, she hasn't said a peep since she was brought in. If you start to yell or anything gets loud she will put her hands over her ears. She DOES not like to be touched. Grayson also does not let go of her stuffed animal. One of my co workers took it away one time, trying to get her to say something. She had a panic attack, we had to sedate her. She has vivid nightmares, it seems she was beaten on a daily basis. She also was malnourished, her neighbors found her digging for food on their trash cans. She also loves strawberry milk, when she cries give her strawberry milk." Lily says to Christian and Ana, as she pushes her glasses up on her nose.
"That poor baby." Ana cries before Christian hugs her tightly.
"Be very careful with her, she is fragile. Oh she like to draw, she draws her mother a lot, she always depicts her as an angel." Lily says as she she stands up.
"We intend to be. We plan to enroll her in therapy, we are going to let her live with my parents as we are in the process of moving to our new home." Christian says as he stands up
Lily smiles before opening the door, "That would be good for her. I will check up on her in a few weeks, to see how she is adjusting."
She is unsure about Grey, she hopes he doesn't dump Grayson off on his parents just because he has a new wife, and child on the way. Grayson needs someone to love her, to show her this world isn't full of monsters.
I notice Lily walk to the elevator I run to catch up with her, but she stops me. "Grayson , you're going to stay here with your dad, and your grandparents."
I shake me head no. I want to go with you! I don't know these people! I just want you Lily!
She crouches down and smiles at me, "Grayson you're going to love it here! I'll be back in a few weeks! I'll bring you cookies and cream ice cream! How does that sound?"
I shake my head, I love ice cream! I just wish I could go back with Lily and have ice cream with her today. I watch Lily walk into the elevator she waves at me, I wave back, a tear trickles down my face stinging my bottom lip.
I stand there for awhile, excepting Lily to burst through the doors. She doesn't. She leaves me just like mommy did. It's just me and Lion King now.
"Grayson? Are you ready to go eat?" The sound of my name makes me whip my head around copper hair twirls around me. I look at the man with my eyes, I nod slowly at him. He smiles at me I don't smile back.
I follow the blonde woman, my grandmother to huge SUV. The man with my eyes, my daddy and the woman, I think her name was Ana? They follow us to the vehicle. The man with bright green eyes opens the door for me. I climb to the very back seat I sit in the farthest seat near the window. My grandmother climbs into the seat in front of me, and so does Ana. My daddy climbs in the back with me. The drive to the restaurant is a long one, he tries to speak to me. He asks me if I like strawberry milk. I nod at him.
Ana turns around, "We will have to get you some strawberry milk then Grayson!" Her voice is riddled with excitement.
I blink at her a few times, she smiles a hugely at me before turning back around.
We arrive at the restaurant, I follow my daddy inside. I notice the hostess blush when he tells her his name. Ana seems jealous, I wonder is she is jealous of me. Her words still echo throughout my mind, "I'm going to be your new mommy!" I don't want her to be my mommy, I just want my mommy back. We are quickly seated, I'm introduced to everyone at the table.
A woman with dark hair, who is my Aunt Mia begins to speak. "Grayson, you have such a pretty name! It's so creative!" She says her eyes falling on mine.
I don't say anything to her. I always did wonder why my mom named me Grayson. Maybe it's because she thought I'd be Grey's son? Boy was she in for a surprise when she found out I was girl.
Aunt Mia rambles on about Paris, Ana's baby and some guy named Ethan. I just continue to eat, I was so hungry .
My Uncle Elliot notices me scarfing down my food, "So kiddo you sure were hungry I never seen someone eat so fast. Well except Christian! Guess the apple doesn't fall to far from the tree?" He laughs before taking a sip of wine.
"Elliot! That was very rude!" My grandmother says fuming. I look up to my grandfather who sitting on the right side of me, he begins to chuckle. My grandmother who's sits on the other side of my is clearly not amused looks at him, and he stops.
"Yes Elliot listen to your mother!" He says trying to be serious.
I feel uncomfortable with his comment I begin to fiddle with Lion King's tail. I look up to notice my daddy staring at Elliot like he is about to com over the table at him. I see Ana grab his hand. Then they both look at me
We leave the restaurant I follow my grandfather outside outside. My daddy crouches down in front of me "Grayson, is okay if you go live with grandpa and grandma until our new house is finished?" He asks me grey eyes meeting grey eyes. I nod, I wonder if he didn't want me, but felt sorry for me, and I'll never see him but from time to time. I'll just be that kid, Grayson. I know Ana is having a baby. Mommy had a big tummy like that before she had my baby sister. I'll never forget how sad mommy was when she didn't come home with my baby sister. Mommy told me she went to live with God and soar with the angels, now mommy's with her. I follow my grandparents to their vehicles, we stop by a market. They let me pick out strawberry milk, I like them a lot more now.
We make it to their house. It's so big! I could play hide and seek and never be found! I follow grandma up to my room. It's down in a princess theme with a huge pick canopy bed. They must of prepared for me in advance. After I take a shower and put on Hello Kitty pjs,I walk over to the bed and grandma helps me unmake it. She reads me a bed time story, her and grandpa tuck me in. They turn off the light tell me sweet dreams and grandpa tell me not to let the bed bugs bite I smile because I know they can't see. For the first time I don't have nightmares.
A heavenly smell wakes me up. I grab Lion King and run as fast as my little legs can take me. I run to the kitchen I see Grandma sitting at the table, she is reading a book. Grandpa is reading the paper. They notice my arrival.
"Hey there sleeping beauty! Did you sleep well?" My grandpa asks me as his head bobs up from the paper.
I shake my head. It was the best sleep I have gad in a while.
"Well I'm glad!" he smiles at my before returning to the paper
"Grayson how does chocolate chip pancakes sound for breakfast?" My grandmother asks me with a huge smile plastered on her face.
I nod my head so fast, for a second I thought it was going to fall off. She and grandpa laugh at my antics.
After a few weeks I spend at my grandparents I start drawing pictures of them. In my pictures I call the GiGi and CeCe, they both get a kick out of it. My Aunt Mia thinks it's cute, then again everything I do is cute to her. My Uncle Elliot is just well Uncle Elliot. I draw pictures of them as well calling Aunt Mia, Mimi and Uncle Elliot, Ellie. My therapist tells GiGi and CeCe that I have made progress. He says pictures, and words are my way of communication. He is worried because I don't draw my dad, he says we don't spend enough time together. GiGi is now making me spend more time with him, Ana and their new baby Teddy. I have moved in with them to their new house. I miss my GiGi and CeCe,and Mimi even Ellie.
I hear the door slam. Hard. I know he is here. I run as fast as I can to my closet, trying to beat him before he beats me. I lock my closet door, he begins calling out my name.
"Grayson!" His voice is laced with anger. I hear him crash into the wall I think he mutters out a curse word. He continues calling out my name each time its gets more aggressive.
I put my hands over my ears trying to block him out. I'd do anything to block him out. He comes in my room like a heat seeking missile, he knows where I am he begins to bang on the closet door.
"Grayson get your lousy ass out here you little son of a bitch!" His words ring in my ears. I don't open the door, I just close my eyes tight. When I don't say anything he kicks the door, for a moment I think he going to break if off it's hinges. I'm paralyzed with fear.
After what seems like hours, even though I know it's only minutes the house is quiet. I unlock the door thinking he has left but I was wrong ,terribly wrong. He's standing in front of the door, he snatches me up by the collar of my shirt. I shudder knowing I'm about to get the crap beaten out of me, and nobody is here to stop him. I look into his eyes grey to hazel. I remember when his eyes used to hold nothing but love for me now held nothing but hatred.
He grits his teeth, "You just made it a whole lot worse on yourself by hiding." He throws me down onto the floor, then he kicks me in the ribs. I brace myself for more blows.
I wake up in a jolt. I look around the room for hazel eyes coming out from the darkness but I don't see them. Then I realize I'm at my real dad's house, tucked away in my room safe from the monsters. I lay back down trying go back to sleep, but sleep never came. I decide to get up. I slide out from underneath the covers, I grab Lion King and walk out of my room. I wander around for awhile until I see a piano. I run up to the piano bench laying Lion King on it. I carefully climb up on the bench trying not to rib my floor length hot pink Disney Princess night gown. After struggling I sit at the piano, and I press the keys.
Today I turn five! Mommy says I'm a big kid now, and I can do big kid stuff! I run to find her, I look everywhere for her until I hear the sound of a melody. She is at the piano she is singing 'Claire De Lune'.
I run up to her and tug on her shirt. She turns around and smiles at me, "Well there is my birthday girl!"
I love her smile, I hope I have her smile. I hope I look just like her.
"I'm five today." I tell my mother as she picks me up and places me in her lap.
"My little baby is growing up." She frowns at me
"I'll always be your Grayson mommy!" I say excitedly. I don't like seeing mommy sad, it makes me sad.
"I'll always be your mommy!" She says quickly perking up.
"Pinky promise?" I giggle as she takes my small pinkie in hers.
"Always baby G." She laughs
"Mommy can I play?" I ask
"Of course baby." She says as she places her hands on top of mine guiding them over the keys, as her voice fills my ears.
"Grayson! What are you doing!" A stern voice wakes me from my memory. I don't turn around my hands fall from the keys. I hear footsteps then I see someone sit down beside me. I don't bother to look at him, I'm trying to remember everything about my mom, her smile, her laugh. I can't forget her. I won't forget her. Tears start to slide down my face, hitting the piano keys.
"You were remembering something weren't you?" My dad asks
I nod at him.
"Was it about your step dad?" He asks making me I flinch as the thought of Riley crosses my mind.
I shake my head no. He gets up and comes back with construction paper and crayons in his hands.
"Write it down." He says placing the paper on the glass coffee table.
I climb off the piano bench, I walk to the coffee table. I place Lion King on the coffee table beside the box of crayons. I open the crayons, I take out a yellow one. I begin to write down 'mommy, piano,my birthday' I hand him the paper, he seems happy after he reads it.
"You miss her, don't you?" He asks before he hands me back the paper so i can write down my answer.
I write down 'Yes' before I hand it back to him.
He smiles, at my answer. "She was a great piano player. You remind me of when you crinkle your nose at something you don't like, she used to do that all the time. Then somethings you do remind me of your appetite." He looks like he is lost in a memory.
I wonder when I look up at him if he misses her. I wonder if he loved her, or ever cared for her.
A soft voice interrupts us, "Christian can you help me with Teddy?" Ana is holding him as he whales, he gets up walks to her and takes him he bounces him up and down cooing him. I see the way he looks at Teddy. A part of me wished he looked at me that way. The other part knows he will never see me as anything but a mistake.
I watch them,they all look so happy together. I pick up Lion King and I walk past them.
"Goodnight Grayson." He and Ana say as they look down at me I just keep walking toward my room. Before I shut my door I heard them all laugh, tears slid down my face again. I climbed into my bed I hold Lion King tightly to my chest. I never felt more alone, more fragile. All I wanted was my mommy to tell me everything was going to be alright. I wanted GiGi to come in and read my a bedtime story. I wanted CeCe and Ellie to say something funny. I wanted my dad to love me. Sometimes we never get what we want.