It was never going to be just ever easy, was it? I could feel the tears barrell down my cheeks at a fast, steady pace and my heart drop to my stomach and filled with a load of emotions tightly knotted togetgher and squeezed tightly filled with sadness as I watched them.
Them..
.. I― I thought she was my bestfriend..
... My thoughts were a race ― a jumbled, messy race. I did it on instinct, I ran and ran and ran for hell; tears had kept on dripping on and on as the wind flew into my face and my hair, I couldn't stop. I couldn't..
I ran and ran and ran; even though my breathing ragged and my chest heaving as I took big gulps of air as I continued to run. Never once had I looked back to see if they had seen me and tried to chase but I wouldn't be surprised if they hadn't seen or heard; they had been pretty engrossed with there little 'time' together at the moment. When I had finally stopped, the first thing I saw was water and it was a rush of water passing through the only pathway it was allowed to go through. All around me, I had realized was the forest, the only thing that surrounded me and the water was just trees all over.
I was alone.
Alone..
Alone...
I didn't know how to stop the little smile that had appeared on my face, I fell to my knees, breathing in the fresh air and couldn't stop the hysterical laughter that escaped me. I was crazy. I was going insane with every second passing by. Finally my thoughts cleared and the tears just fell, and I didn't have a chance to even to attempt to stop it. I didn't even bother once it started. The events of what had just happened just minutes ago was now the main, clear thought in my head as the scene kept playing on and on.
My schoolbag had fallen beside me and I ripped it open; grabbing everything and anything that I had ever wrote that 'thing' name in and all the pictures I had of him and I and me and her or with all of us together. The tears came even faster, blurring my vision as I ripped the books in two and threw them wildly around; I howled with crazy laughter and a mix of a scream of pain filled in it. I grabbed most of the pictures and ripped them apart crazily and threw them into the water and my body shook as sobs took over me. I didn't even notice one of more picture I had missed until my tears had cleared up.
It had been facing the floor, I flipped it over and the tears came again. The scene started to fill my thoughts: playing on and on and on; never stopping or give me a chance to stop crying. To stop the pain and hurt that filled my whole body and I wrapped my arms around myself as that would me together from falling apart all over.
Finally...
... I saw it, the pictures of Renesmee and I: our arms wrapped around each other with excited smiles on our faces and our eyes had pure happiness and sparks in it...
My bottom lip had trembled as I stared at the pictures filled with memories of things her and I had done since forever, even when we had first met. I took a deep breath and my hands shaking so badly, I couldn't hold the picture straight; I grabbed the middle of the picture and made a little tore on it.
A tear had slipped down my face...
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