Disclaimer: I don't own lost as well as the characters In it…
A/N: Hi…It's my first attempt to write a story so please be nice…I am from Greece so please forgive me for the mistakes that I'm sure I'll make…This story is what I think and hope that will happen in the sequence of the third season…I am a devoted jate fan so this story is going to be total jate…That's all…R n' R…
Summary: Sawyer and Kate are back but kate's heart is still at the other island. She cares for Sawyer but does she really love him? She promised Jack not to go back for him but can she keep her promise when she finally realizes how much he means to her?
Chapter1(Kate's POV)
"Do you remember what story I told you when you were stitcing me up?"
Of course she did. How could she forget? The look on his face when he was asking for her help, trusting her without even knowing her, his eyes pleading with her but at the same time not blaming her for not wanting to deal with a situation like that, his smile at her joke about his color preference and at last the story that followed her every time she was in danger. She couldn't forget the look he gave her and the words he told her when she admitted her favorite action. Running. But he believed in her even though he had just met her. He trusted her with his life only by looking into her eyes. And he didn't stop trusting her after that even when he found out about her little secret, her being a wanted criminal and having killed someone she used to love. No. He didn't stop looking at her with those hazel eyes full of trust and care. He didn't stop caring, trying to make it all right, trying to fix her. But what did she do for him? She just left him behind. She ran away from him once more. She turned her back on him again.
"I can't leave without you"
That's what she had said. That she couldn't. But she did. She left him there where he probably would end up killed. But for now he was alive. She knew it. She could fill it. No. He couldn't be dead. Not after all that they'd been through. Not when she needed him most. She shouldn't have left. She shouldn't have listened to him. She should have stayed and fight for him. Show him how much he meant to her. How much he still means to her. But she wasn't alone. If she had stayed Sawyer would have stayed too. If Sawyer had stayed he would be dead now. And she couldn't let that happen. Not because of her.
Sawyer
The man she cared for. The man she gave herself to. The man she lo… No. She couldn't say it. Not to him not even to herself. Was it because she was scared of love? Was it because she just wasn't ready? Or was it because her heart belonged to another man? The man who she knew she didn't deserve? The man who everytime they got close she pushed away? The man who when he looked at her she melt to the core and made her feel like a schoolgirl? The man named Jack?
"Hey"
Her thoughts were disturbed by the one man she couldn't face right now. His eyes were searching hers for some answers. Answers she refused to give him since their escape. But she wasn't ready. Not yet.
"Hi"
She replied with a half smile hoping he'd leave her alone.
"You've been out here all day. Didn't ya get bored of looking at the ocean? I doubt it's that interesting." he said with a smirk trying unsuccessfully to lighten the mood.
"What do you want Sawyer?" She asked wanting to get rid of him as soon as possible.
"No need to be rude freckles, just checking up on you, see how you've been. But I guess I got my answer to that."
"Then you got what you wanted. You can go now." She said bitterly but desperate to have some time on her own.
He didn't say anything at first. He just looked at her hurt and sad trying vainly to hide it. So he turned to leave but before that he added "Stop feeling guilty. You did what he asked you to do. It was his choice."
"But I chose to obey him. And I hate myself for that "she thought bitterly.
Ok. Horrible I know. Small too. If any of you liked it please tell me so I don't kill myself…Just kidding but I beg you to tell me what you think of it so that I know whether to continue or not… thanx