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Jade's POV

I know this is wrong, but do you think I honestly care? Of course not. Have I ever thought about getting caught? Yeah, sure. But that will never happen, it can not. She's with Tori but I could care less. It's her lips, her hands, the way she says my name when we're having sex, her everything that makes me want to continue this little adventure, affair, whatever you want to call it. It's a bit odd that she hasn't stopped this, I never would have guessed that my pretty little Cat would be the type of person to cheat on. But oh well, not everything is what it seems.

It has become a daily thing, we meet each other at some place, whether it's at her house or mine. We barely talk, just make out. Words are unnecessary. When my parents are away for some business trip we have my house for just the two of us, so... yeah, you can imagine what happens next. You would think Cat is all sweet and submissive in the bed but actually it is not that way at all. She could be an animal even if she wanted to, she could be dominant if she wanted to, and if I let her of course. In time, I've realized that she uses sex as a relief, whenever Tori doesn't satisfies all of her needs, she comes to me. I know I should be upset because I'm like her toy, but I really don't care. As long as we don't mix feelings in this thing, it's alright by me. We're just friends with benefits. Simple as that.

The only problem is that sometimes when we're at school, whether we're at lunch or in some class, is like nothing happened between Cat and I. Like we're just friends, she would smile at me and I would smile back but that's it. We never talk, she always goes straight to Tori when she arrives. She goes and kisses her cheek and they hold hands. This one time I felt something in the pit of my stomach when they were kissing. I think it was jealousy, oh fuck that's a feeling and I said to myself that couldn't let my feelings get the best of me because on the worst case scenario I could fall for Cat. And I don't want that, I don't want to fall for someone I know I can't have. I mean, she's with Tori for fuck's sake. She doesn't love me. Why would she?

Come one Jade, get a grip, you can't have feelings for Cat. You just can't. Sometimes I wonder if this will ever stop or if she will ever break up with Tori? Absentmindedly I smile at the thought of her breaking up with Tori, because she would be with me. But sometimes she comes to my house unannounced crying at night. And I would hold her. I'm not really good at comforting people so I just hug her and she holds me tight and cries with her head on my shoulder. I get the urge to go and punch Tori in the face for making Kitty cry. How could she make her cry? Well, I know it's easy to do it but to do it on purpose? That bitch.

OK, I think that was too much thinking. I should open my eyes now and get out of bed. When I open them, the first thing I see is red. I feel my arm glued to her waist. I look down and see her sleeping soundly. Wow, she's so beautiful. How could someone be so beautiful? So perfect? Jade, stop thinking of her in that way! Ugh. I notice that we are both naked. Oh yeah, it happened last night too. Now, how am I going to get out of bed with her holding me for dear life? She's got both of her arms around my waist and won't let go. With my hands I move hers away from me. Doing it gently and trying to be as quiet as possible. When I finally get up from the bed, I hear her stir but doesn't wake up. The sheets are only covering her lower section making all her torso visible. Sorry, couldn't help but stare a little. I start to pick up my clothes that somehow ended up in different places of my room. I take out clean underwear and prepare myself to shower. After showering I get out and she's still in the same position I left her. Now she has her lips parted and is breathing through her mouth, she must be dreaming. I turn around, so my back is facing her and start to get dressed. When I'm clasping my bra I hear her voice.

"You don't have to cover yourself from me, you know," she says sounding a little raspy. I don't know why I do that, turn around and get dressed, fearing she would see me. "It's not like I haven't seen anything before."

"I know." I reply sternly and turn to her while zipping up my pants. "Get out of bed Kitty, we're gonna be late for school."

"Jade-

"Because I know how much you hate being late and it surprises me that you haven't made breakfast or something..." I say pulling a simple black shirt over my head.

"Jade..."

"But guess what? I'm up and ready-" I walk to the nightstand beside her to grab my cellphone when she takes me softly by the wrist and makes me look at her.

"It's Saturday, Jadey." she says and burst out giggling. Oh, Saturday. What the fuck? Why am I up this early on a weekend. What's wrong with me? Guess all this over thinking is making me dizzy. "Are you okay?" she asks when she's done laughing.

"Yeah... I'm fine." I say putting away my cellphone in my pocket. Now that I am up and can't sleep more, I guess I better find something to do. And for some fucking reason I can't stop thinking about Cat and Tori kissing, about them dating. I think my feelings are taking over me. I head to the door and stop when she talks.

"Where are you going?"

"For a walk."

Is she going to break up with Tori? Is she not? When will she? Ugh. I hate having this thoughts. I want her. Like just for me. I want her to be mine and nobody else's. But how do I know if she wants me too? Do you remember when I said that we barely talk? Well this morning, that was the longest conversation we've ever had.

You know what? I'll stop having these feelings. I won't let it get it over me. I'm stronger than those feelings. I'll just feel nothing. I won't love her and I won't let myself fall. Because it's been two months since we started this and it's clear she isn't planning on breaking up with her. So... fuck it. I get up from the bench I've been sitting on and start walking back home. Fortunately this park wasn't that far so it didn't take me long before I got to my doorstep. When I get to my room I find Cat is still on my bed but this time with some clothes on.

"You're just gonna stay there all day?" I ask while taking off my shoes and sit beside her. She looks at me and shakes her head no. Then leans in and kisses me softly. It's like I turned my humanity off and just let the 'lust' button on. I kiss her back hard and push down onto the mattress.

It's gonna be a long day. And fuck it, I won't let myself feel a thing. Because that's how I am.

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