Chapter one: recap

Author's note: Just a story after season 4, told by Jeremie's diary. No idea how I came to it, it just popped in my mind! Hope you'll like it – I don't really like it myself. 0.o

Note 2: I'm doubting between K+ and T rating. For now K+ surely would be okay, but it'll get quite rough later on. Guess I'll take T to be safe.

Dedicated to: Thomas, since you helped me with my math homework. xD

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Jeremie's diary

Lost. Completely lost. I should've known. I should've seen it. I should've predicted it'd all go wrong. I should've stopped it. It went too far, way too far, and now it's too late. A mysterious death, an even more inexplicable disappearing.. I just wasn't there in time. All my fault. Why didn't I stop it? I knew it'd go wide of the mark – I just didn't want to believe it for a reason which I still don't understand. It was obvious though. Lost, oh so lost..

Why did I let it happen? I was too weak. Too weak to push the button. Too weak to say 'no'. Yes, I saw the dangers and the risks. I gave them signs and I warned them but it just wasn't convincing enough. I just wanted to think everything would go fine.. I blame myself, a naïve little fool. Life would never be the same.

To think how idiotic it started. After two years or harsh battle we had finally defeated Xana. We had freed Aelita from the virtual world of Lyoko. We had returned her memories. We had saved Lyoko from total destruction. We had freed William from the evil virus' control – and eventually finished it of with an MA-program.

Strange how much effort it took to lock the dangerous supercomputer, even after it gave us so much trouble. Even I who had spent every single day and night to counter Xana couldn't do it instantaneously. Everyone, except for Yumi and William, had their own reasons. To be honest, I was afraid our friendship would be gone, since it occurred thanks to Lyoko and our adventures.

Aelita would leave a big part of her past behind, including the death of her father, Waldo Franz Schaeffer. It's a shame he died, the world lost a great intellect.

Ulrich and Odd, on the other hand, just liked the idea of being heroes, even when nobody knew it thanks to our time-jumps. A typical thought of those two, understandable for them – I'd never see the use for going to Lyoko, I never saw myself wanting to step foot in Lyoko and I'm certainly not the fighting type! Wait, did I mention that William became a member of our group, and Sissi went on to be a friend?

Anyway, after the day was over and our last return-to-the-past had been launched, we all agreed to kill the computer. The next day would be our first normal day in two years.

Odd began to spend more time to his art, videos, pranks, and his duty as a class representative. Ulrich, active guy that he is, gave even more effort to soccer and his penchak-silat. His studying behaviour barely changed though, which was a shame. Yumi just did.. stuff. Went to the movies, attended some parties and whatnot. Little note: Ulirch and Yumi still aren't officially together, but to my opinion they're really close now – it was about time!

William didn't change that much, however he stopped chasing Yumi. Aelita continued becoming a famous DJ, and she got my full support in that. Since Xana was dead I didn't use my computer excessively anymore, so I got compliments from everyone. And I had to admit, I looked way better now I didn't stay up all night any longer.

And as an additional advantage: I had more time to spend with Aelita. We finally got together a month after Lyoko. It was the best occasion of my life – she was brilliant and sweet at the same time. I'm unable to describe my feelings at that time – nevertheless I'd rather not talk about it anyway. We did things I thought I'd never do, and after what happened.. Curse on myself..

Life was perfect at that moment. I wished it'd never change, but fate had other plans for us in mind..

Lost, completely lost..

Lost in the shadows. Forever.

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Author's note: Make sure to check out the forum at cl.yourbb.nl/index.php ! Advertise your stories there, enjoy the games, discuss things and way more! Note: it's possible the forum starts up in Dutch thanks to an annoying little bug, but I can fix it for you when you pm me.

Note 2: Beta-read by: WeaponFanfic.

Note 3: Hope it wasn't too confusing for y'all, everything will explain itself as the story goes on – Jeremie just tells what happened.