My name is Elena Gilbert was your average seventeen year old, with two loving parents a younger brother, two best friends Bonnie and Caroline and was dating Stefan Salvatore the quarterback and the hottest guy in school everyone wanted him but he picked me out of everyone else we had been dating since the beginning of last year and you could say my life was perfect except now it was all going to fall apart I was pregnant and knew my parents are going to kill me and had no idea how Stefan is going to react were only seventeen for god's sake
"Lena you're going to be late for school" my mom called up the stairs so I quickly hid the positive pregnancy tests under the sink and fixed my clothes before grabbing my bag and went downstairs
"I'm ready" she drove Jeremy and I to school, I got out sulkily as I had no idea what to do and headed for my locker getting out my books for first period then jumped when I felt arms wrapping around my waist and someone to kiss my neck
"Morning beautiful" I heard Stefan's smooth velvety voice behind me
"Morning" I replied unsure of how to act around him
"You okay you sound tired" he asked leaning against the lockers and brushed a loose strand of hair behind my ear
"I'm okay didn't get much sleep last night, I was up all night studying" it was sort of true because in truth I had been up all night throwing up trying to be quiet so my parents didn't hear and question me and as much as I hated lying to Stefan I couldn't tell him the truth he would leave me
"You should go easy mid-terms aren't for three weeks"
"Yeah maybe" I mean it's not like I'd ever get to go to college now if I kept this baby
"You sure you're okay" he asked again but before I could answer Bonnie, Care and Lexi walked up to us, Lexi was Stefan's best friend and yes she was a girl but they had never been romantic towards each other since they practically grew up together and I didn't worry I knew Stefan loved me
"Stefan we should have a party tonight Damon's still out of town and we need to celebrate your win tonight" Lexi yelled out excitedly
"Lex I haven't even won tonight's game"
"Of course you will your Mystic Falls best quarterback" she replied smiling at me Lex and I had always gotten along but I couldn't bring myself to back her up because I really didn't want to be dragged to a party tonight and act normal when I was freaking out "Right Elena"
"Yeah you'll win" I replied faking a smile and prayed Stefan didn't see straight through me as he's always been able to read me
"Morning Stefan" we heard the sinister voice of Katherine his ex-girlfriend she was such a bitch, he had broken up with her two years ago but she still didn't get the point that he had moved on, I watched her come up to him and hug him he didn't return the hug of course but it still made my blood boil "Alexia good to see you and Elena" I nodded politely and shut my locker "So Stefan good luck tonight I'll be cheering for you" she kissed his cheek leaving her lipstick mark and ran off in her expensive high heels
"I'll be cheering for you" Lexi mocked Katherine's voice then poked her tongue out at her retreating figure and I smiled "How you dated that Stef seriously"
"Hey I didn't know she was a bitch when I dated her she became that later" I smiled and wiped his cheek just as the bell went "I'll see you in history" I nodded as he kissed my forehead then him and Lex went the opposite way to me, Bon and Care
"You're very quiet today Lena usually you would tell Katherine where to stick her lipstick" Caroline said as we walked to math
"I'm tired and not at all bothered to deal with her today" it was again half true I know I should tell someone but wasn't ready to admit it to anyone yet I don't want anyone to treat me differently or for rumours to start
We sat down in our seats and classes started I paid attention to the best of my ability and soon found myself already in third period walking into history I felt someone wrap an arm around my shoulder and looked up to see Stefan smiling down at me which made me feel bad as I've ruined his life by getting pregnant he's the star athlete of Mystic Falls and could even get a scholarship but now everything's ruined
"You okay" he asked so I smiled up at him for good measure as we took our seats which were next to each other
"Never better" I replied when that didn't seem to satisfy him I squeezed his hand just as Alaric came in he was my uncle as he got married to Jenna my Aunt and he was the history teacher here
"Okay class today we are going to begin-" I tuned him out and sat back just thinking about how my life is going to play out now I picture myself telling Stefan and him either taking off or accepting that he is a father, I skip college and have to get a job, my parents kick me out so I live in a dingy apartment barely paying for the important things "Elena" I heard Ric call my name so I looked up to see everyone staring at me and knew I clearly missed something "Have you been paying even the slightest attention" I shook my head and he sighed "Elena I expect this behaviour from others not you" I nodded and he left me be I saw Stefan looking at me with pinched eyebrows which meant he was worried or frustrated
After class we all walked into the cafeteria and grabbed food which wasn't much as I couldn't bring myself to eat much I know that I should be but I was to nauseous, we sat down at our usual seat and I watched as everyone talked and acting completely normal when everything was about to change at least for Stefan and I it was
"You sure you're okay Elena your acting really weird today did I do something wrong" Stefan asked me and I almost slipped up telling him right there and then but caught myself now was not the time especially with so many ears that could hear
"I'm fine I swear just tired"
"Are you on your, you know" I jumped when he asked that I usually would have blushed but freaked out did Stefan keep track of my period I didn't think guys notice that sort of thing
"Stefan we are in the cafeteria" I responded instead of telling him yet again
"You're worrying me Elena"
"And I'm telling you I'm okay" sort of I added in my head
School went by so quick and I was glad about that as it got me momentarily away from Stefan's worried glances that I knew I'd have to face again tonight as I was going to his game like I had since we started going out I hadn't missed a single one and I wasn't about to let this stop me
When I got there I saw Stefan by his Porsche with Lexi they were sneaking swigs of bourbon which made me smile I always caught them doing this before games, when they heard me walk up they quickly stashed it in case it was someone else but both relaxed when they saw it was me
"You want some Elena" Lexi offered and I went to take it but then remembered that I couldn't so I dropped my hand just as she passed it to me and the bottle dropped smashing, we all quickly looked around in case someone heard that I felt bad as the bottle was only half empty
"Sorry"
"It's okay it was Damon's anyway" I laughed for the first time today and it felt good they were always stealing Damon's liquor "And I brought a spare" he reached into his back seat and grabbed another bottle and went to pass it to me but I refused this time "You sure"
"Yeah don't want to get caught tonight" I played it off he nodded and took another swig but I could see he found it strange since I never cared about getting caught before
"Salvatore get your ass on the field" Mr Tanner yelled and we quickly hid the bottle as he passed it to Lex then kissed my forehead
"Wish me luck" he said smiling
"You don't need it but good luck" I kissed his cheek and he jogged off to the field
"Is everything okay you're not going to break up with him are you" Lexi asked as we walked towards the bleachers
"No why would you think that is that what Stefan thinks" I asked her panicked did Stefan think I wanted to break up with him
"No he just thinks you're on your period but I'm a girl I know the signs to know that you aren't so what's up you can tell me just don't break his heart Stefan loves you more than anything" she replied so I looked around I was going to tell her I needed advice and trusted Lex not to run screaming I was pregnant to anyone I pulled her somewhere quiet, I know I should probably tell Stefan first but was scared of how he'd react still "Okay your creeping me out Elena what's wrong"
"I'll tell you but you have to swear not to say a word to anyone especially Stefan"
"I won't I promise but please tell me you're not breaking up with him" I know she cares about Stefan and would hate to see me break his heart
"I'm not I love Stefan more than anything and couldn't imagine my life without him" I replied and took a breath as here goes nothing, I looked around quickly just to make sure no one was around and they were all at the game which would be starting any minute "Lexi I'm pregnant" I watched her eyes widen and she cussed
"Oh shit is it Stefan's"
"Of course it is he's the only one I have had sex with" it's true I gave him my virginity two months into our one and half year relationship
"Oh my god he is going to freak out are you sure did you take a test"
"Three and they were all positive" I replied remembering sitting in my bathroom this morning looking at the three positive tests
"It could still be wrong right I mean you used protection" I frowned as the last couple of times we hadn't as we didn't have any with us "Oh you idiots" I shushed her as she was getting loud
"Lex no one can find out" she nodded
"Don't worry your secrets safe with me but you have to tell Stefan"
"I'm scared that he'd leave me or make me get rid of it" I replied looking down at my hands
"Elena he'd never do that he may get angry at himself and at you momentarily but he'd come around and accept the responsibility if you wanted to keep the baby, now come on let's get out there act casual and cheer on our favourite quarterback" she linked her arm with mine and we walked to the bleachers
"Lexi thank you"
"No worries" she leaned into my ear "As long as I get to be the cool Aunt" I laughed and nodded if we decided to keep this baby which is something I want to decide with Stefan she's so going to be god mother
We sat in the front row and I found Stefan easy as I know his number off by heart having worn his jersey many times after we had sex or slept at his house he was number seventeen, he saw me and blew me a kiss in his own personal way, he'd kiss his fingers than toss it to me like he was tossing a football he had started that when we first started dating and I came to his games it made me blush every time he did it
"I can't believe he still does that it's so gross" Lexi said that every time he did it which made me blush redder
"I still find it cute" Caroline said sitting down on my other side and Bonnie sat next to her "I wish someone could be like that with me your so lucky Lena" huh if only she knew how unlucky I was, I saw Lex give me a knowing look and I smiled at her it felt so good finally having someone know I wasn't alone with this anymore
The game started and we cheered our team on and by half time we were already six points ahead because of Stefan getting so many of the touchdowns, he ran over to the benches grabbed his water bottle then came over to us he went to give me a hug but was all sweaty so I pushed on his chest giggling
"Stefan you're all sweaty"
"Salvatore game now, girls later" Tanner called him back and he kissed my forehead then ran back to the benches, I saw Katherine glaring at me even after a year and half she still envied me and accused me of stealing Stefan when they had already been broken up three months before Stefan started chasing me
Even though most of the school knew that it was Stefan who had chased me not the other way around, I remember the day he came into the library and sat down on my table I knew who he was and never expected him to want to even talk to me but he did asking me out on a date I was reluctant at first expecting it to have been some sort of joke but it wasn't
He admitted to seeing me frequently in the library and felt a pull towards me I had always felt it to but always seen him with beautiful girls like Katherine and Lexi and thought how could a guy like him even go for someone as plain as me but I now know that we were somehow destined to be together as I couldn't imagine my life without him
The final whistle brought me out of my memory and I looked up at the score board we won by twelve points which meant a victory party at Stefan's like every time we win a home game, everyone jumped up cheering as the boys did their victory rituals then Stefan ran over ignoring my earlier protests that he was sweaty and picked me up spinning me around, I immediately felt nauseous with the movement and the smell of his sweat didn't help I looked at Lexi for help she knew straight away
"Stefan go shower so we can set up" he dropped me, kissed my lips chastely then jogged off to the showers as Lexi led me away from the crowd quickly finding a bin where I threw up into "I'm guessing this is going to suck" I nodded as I emptied more of my stomach into the bin
I wiped my mouth with a tissue she held out and stood back up straight I was lucky that Lex had been able to get me out of there before I threw up in front of everyone as that would definitely start some rumours that I didn't want spread
We walked back to Stefan's Porsche to wait for him to shower, when he finally came out he wrapped an arm around my waist and it made me guilty that he had no idea I was carrying his child or that he had to be careful, I saw Lex in the corner of my eye nodding towards him telling me to tell him but I couldn't there were too many people around
"So hey why don't you two head to the boarding house I'll catch a ride with Kol" she said nodding to another football player which had a crush on her I felt like she was doing it on purpose and she confirmed my suspicions when Stefan went to his car to put his bag in the boot and she leaned in whispering that I tell him before the party then ran off to catch a ride with Kol
Stefan came back over to me and wrapped me back into his arms, he leaned down to kiss me but I turned my head last minute I didn't want him to taste the vomit that I could still taste on my breathe
"Everything okay"
"Yeah I'm just not feeling well" I replied getting out of his grasp and walked to his car opening the passage door I know he usually likes doing it for me but I wanted to get somewhere where I could tell him and knew that no one would be at his for another hour as they all would go home and change
I also didn't want to kiss him as I wouldn't be able to restrain myself from going further as we usually ended up having sex after his games as he was so hopped up on adrenalin that we always ended up having sex in the backseat of his car
"Elena please you have to tell me what's going on we always tell each other everything I'm really starting to worry" I felt bad as his voice broke and I knew Lex was right he was starting to doubt I wanted to be with him Stefan always thought that one day I was going to wake up and leave him as he thought I was too good for him when that was the other way around
"Can I tell you later after the party for now I just want to have a good time" I replied getting into his car I saw him slide in as well but he didn't start the car I looked up and he was staring straight ahead
"If you're going to break up with me I'd rather it be done now" I sighed out loud
"No Stefan I'm not breaking up with you I love you more than anything" I grabbed his hand which got him to look at me
"Then what's wrong you've been distant all day and that's what it feels like"
"Stefan please I will tell you after the party you deserve to enjoy your victory I promise you I'm not breaking up with you I love you way too much"
"Elena I couldn't possibly enjoy tonight when I know there's something wrong" he grabbed my waist and pulled me onto his lap which was really difficult in the front of this car as it was a tight fit I was pressed up against him
"Stefan I will ruin your night if I tell you now"
"If you're not happy than my nights already ruined so please just tell me I'll still love you no matter what it is" I sighed as I knew he wasn't going to let this go it was now or never
"Stefan I, I'm" I couldn't bring myself to do it
"Are you moving away" I laughed but it fell flat I had to tell him and stop being a coward
"Stefan I'm pregnant" I blurted out