I'm not mad…
I'm not sad…
I just feel sick is that wrong?
Should I feel ashamed?
Two smiles are better then none…
But only when they smile them…
I sit here and don't say a word, act like nothings wrong.
And you never really know maybe nothing is wrong…
I don't know all I can do is sit in place and smile.
Ponder where I went wrong,
And wonder at maybe if I would of done one thing different…
Maybe…
I'd be holding him…
…or holding her
Why can't I just make up my mind?
There has to be something wrong with me.
I want to stand up and scream
And tell them both I love them…
More than anything
I want to be whole again
Instead I force a smile, and wave across the room.
Glimpsing at there little world, and I sigh
No matter how I may feel I just want them to be happy