Here Without You, a janet evanovich fanfic

Disclaimer: JE owns them. I do not. Songfic based on "Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down.

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Here Without You

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A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

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Ranger, you've been "in the wind" for just over three months now. I think Tank knows something's wrong, but he won't tell me. Every day, I get more and more scared. Every night, I dream of you and feel close to you again.

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I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

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I find myself thinking of you wherever I go. When I pick up a skip, I picture you waiting in the vehicle behind me to watch over me. When I go into the office, I can close my eyes and feel your hand on the back of my neck. Every time I close my eyes, your face is the only one I see.

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The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

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Every day that passes, another person asks me if I've heard from you. Every time someone asks, I just want to curl up and never crawl back out of my shell.

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I went to dinner at my parents' house yesterday. When Grandma asked if I'd heard from the hot bounty hunter with the impressive package, I burst into tears. That was the first time I'd seen my mother speechless in a long time, and the only thing I could think was that I wished you were there to see it with me.

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Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

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Joe tried to convince me today that I needed to move on. That even if you were here, you weren't worthy of my love. He told me all the horrible things he's heard about you, and I'll admit that some of them scared me a little. I've never worried that you would hurt me, but suddenly, I was terrified of how powerful and even cruel you can be when you need to be. Torturing someone to extract information. Killing people. I know you've killed before. Even killed for me before: Abruzzi. It hit home. Even though I know now why you've said some of the things you said to me, I still love you. I will always love you.

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It's been a year since you left. You were officially classified as Missing In Action six months ago, but I'll never give up hope. I'll never move on. There will never be another man for me. You did what you said you would do. You ruined me for all other men—not only in the bedroom, but in my head. My heart. My soul. No matter what I'm doing, where I am, you'll always be the focus of my thoughts, and every time I fall asleep, you and I will be together. Always, in my dreams.