Love Me Less

by silentlullabye

Sequel to "As Much As I Can Stand", "Unfaithful", "Two Roads", and "Memory." What they shared could not be described in words, but would last forever. Slash. Tibbs. Warning: Explicit love-making.

Love Me Less

An NCIS Fic.

A sequel to As Much As I Can Stand, Unfaithful, Two Roads, and Memory.

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Tony's mind was racing. He couldn't quite zero in on one particular thought, but he was sure they were all basically saying the same thing. Where is this going? Did he mean what he said? Does this mean we're back together?

In fact, he was so focused on his thoughts that he had almost forgotten the callused hands caressing his flesh; squeezing his bare ass, nails scratching across the smooth surface. And he didn't realize he had stopped returning Gibbs' kisses until Gibbs pulled back and stared at him.

.

Hey there, kid, all day long

I've sung an idiot's song

Crawling in the gutter's flow

From Montparnasse to Chateau d'Eau

One drink after another, God knows where

Zubrowska, Riesling and Piper

At a loss, not knowing what to do

I've come back here to find you

.

"Get out of your head, DiNozzo. I want you right here with me." It had always been that way with sex between the two of them. They were equals, and occasionally Tony took the lead. But more often than not, Gibbs was in control. He was a very demanding bedmate. Once beneath his sheets, he wanted you there and focused. It had been so long, Tony had forgotten.

It still amazed him how Gibbs could read his mind. But Tony knew in this case he was right. He chided himself that he should focus on the moment and not overanalyze it.

So he jumped right back in. Gibbs was still overdressed, and Tony was determined to fix that. He ran his hands down Gibbs chest, over the tiny wisps of graying chest hair, over his washboard stomach (even after retiring, he was a Marine through and through, and would probably be working out until the day he died) and down until his fingers slid under the waistband. He undid the button, and slid the zipper down painfully slowly. Gibbs fingers fisted in the hair at Tony's nape and forced him to meet his eyes.

"Don't tease me," he warned menacingly. But his eyes were smiling. He wouldn't be Tony if he didn't. Tony smirked at him and pressed his lips to Gibbs'. He still tasted the same; mint toothpaste and coffee. As he deepened the kiss, his hooked his thumbs on either side of Gibbs' jeans and boxer shorts, and slowly pushed them as far as he could without breaking the kiss.

.

I run to your arms to get off the streets

The delight of your charms in your soft, warm sheets

But alas, instead of that

.

Gibbs' fingers left his hair and traced patterns down Tony's back. Tony gave a little shiver at the subtle friction.

Eventually, Tony consented that if he wanted Gibbs naked, he would have to break their kiss, which now involved two very persistent tongues, and so he did. After leaving Gibbs' mouth, he began a trail down his front. He pecked at the hollow of his throat, just below the Adam's apple. He twirled his tongue tantalizingly around Gibbs' right nipple, before biting down hard, loving Gibbs' shudder of pleasure.

.

I thought I heard "I love you"

That's his problem, true

I thought I heard "I love you"

That's his problem, true

.

They were both very sensory stimulated. It wasn't so much kissing, but touching in a variety of ways. Different textures created different results, and in their early days together they had experimented with many things. Tony had hated the feathers.

But Tony still remembered where all of Gibbs' hotspots were. His right nipple was more sensitive than his left. Tony took special care when dipping his tongue into Gibbs' navel. He adored the power he held over Gibbs right now.

Tony nipped at the skin near Gibbs' pelvis, and looked up to see Gibbs watching him intently. He smiled.

Pulling Gibbs' remaining clothes down, letting him step out of them, and then tossing them off into a corner of the bedroom somewhere, Tony placed another kiss just above where the shaft of his cock began. And finally, when he could tell Gibbs was getting impatient (when wasn't he?) he kissed the very tip of the head. Gibbs was already quite hard, and Tony enjoyed the salty taste of precum that leaked across his lips. Gibbs was particularly sensitive just underneath the head, where it joined the shaft. So Tony avoided the area like the plague, knowing it would drive Gibbs mad. Instead he ran the tip of his tongue up the top of the shaft, and then down the side. He brought his hands up from where they had been resting on his knees and placed one on Gibbs' outer right thigh, and the other he wrapped around the base of Gibbs' cock. He squeezed gently and Gibbs let out a low moan. His fingers were back in Tony's hair.

Tony took the head of the cock into his mouth, and was rewarded with a small thrust forward from Gibbs. He smiled around Gibbs' dick, and began bobbing his head. Slowly, almost painstakingly slowly.

"Tony…" He supposed Gibbs had meant it as a warning, but when he deep-throated his cock, Gibbs' words became more of a moan than anything. As he brought his head back up, he scraped his teeth gently on the underside of the head, and Gibbs threw back his head in a silent scream.

The fingers in his hair tightened, and Tony's head was tilted upward. Gibbs helped him to his feet, before pushing back on the bed.

.

So what if you do believe

So what if I can't be naïve

However lost I may be

None of that between you and me

.

Tony lay, spread out, sitting up on his elbows, watching Gibbs watch him, his cock standing at complete attention.

And then Gibbs pounced. Tony's legs were spread and pushed up, and Gibbs came between them. He reached for the lube on the nightstand, and when he realized he couldn't quite reach it, he groaned in frustration and anticipation. Tony stretched his arm back, snagged the tiny bottle and handed it to his lover.

Gibbs wasted no time. He loved to watch Tony react, so as he breached Tony's ass with one cold-lubed finger he watched as Tony squirmed beneath him. Gibbs stopped after pressing two fingers into Tony, and spread some lube onto himself.

And Tony was surprised to find he was nervous. Nervous about making love with this man again after four years. He looked in Gibbs' eyes when he looked up, and Gibbs looked at him quizzically. But despite his fears of this new beginning, Tony wanted to reassure Gibbs who was making a motion to stop his ministrations to ask what was wrong. Tony didn't want that. So he reached up and cupped Gibbs' cheek with his hand and brought him down for a kiss. He clenched tightly when Gibbs entered him (Mark had been slightly smaller) until he remembered to relax and enjoy the sensations that were filling his body and mind.

Gibbs deepened the kiss as he thrust deep; Tony wrapped his legs around Gibbs' waist and pulled him closer, wanting every inch of them to touch. Wanting to be one person with this man he loved for this one moment. One being. It was such a cliché romance movie thought, but he didn't care. He supposed when you loved someone, you become a bit sappy.

They created a rhythm together. Tony pushed his hips up as Gibbs thrust his hips down, driving deeper into Tony with his movement. They rocked together. It was one of their most serious love making sessions. Tony tried to connect with Gibbs on a level they had never ventured into before. It was scary, and new, but he liked it. They both did.

.

You want a body, that's okay

A pair of arms, why not

In my bed you can stay

Getting the sheets in a knot

But if you want to have all that

You need to hear "I love you"

You need to hear "I love you"

.

And it was in the moment when he felt his orgasm rip through his body, tingling down his spine, making his toes curl and his fingers grasp at Gibb's back, that he knew this was going to work. That it would be okay. And Gibbs, who came but a few moments later, was inclined to agree.

Panting, with Gibb's weight bearing down on him, Tony looked into Gibbs' eyes. He placed a palm on each of his cheeks.

"I love you, Jethro."

Gibbs stared at him, still buried within him.

"Love you too, Tony."

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One Year Later

"They don't have it, Jethro, what do you want me to do?" He was getting severely annoyed. They didn't have the usual brand of beer that Gibbs liked, and he wouldn't tell Tony a substitute he could get for him.

"No, I am not going to try another store. I've been to two already." The customers lined up at the checkout counter were staring; he tried to lower his voice. "I'll just get something else. We can broaden our horizons."

.

I'm old, a widower and sectarian

A poor, idiotic vulgarian

I'm handsome, young and Breton

I smell of rain, the ocean and crepes with lemon

.

"You never used to be so picky."

"Okay so you want me to go to another store and find you your beer? I thought you wanted me to come home early tonight." He wiggled his eyebrows suggestively, even though he knew Gibbs couldn't see.

"Well, no, but I thought I could try out that one thing…"

"No, you know that one thing…"

Not ten seconds later, he flipped his phone closed with a satisfied smile on his face. He reached into the refrigerator and pulled out a brand that seemed relatively close to the one Gibbs preferred. Tony highly doubted he would notice the difference now.

.

Be quiet now, you little jewel

Once again you're wrong, you fool

I'm precious if you save me, see

Okay, but none of that between you and me

.

"Ah, still winning hearts via blackmail, eh, Tony?" He turned, and was startled to find Mark standing there. Tony joined in with Mark's chuckle.

"Hey!" They exchanged a non-awkward hug, and then took a step back. Time had distanced them, but they still shared a past.

"How have you been, Tony?" Mark had his hands tucked into his pockets, and Tony was greatly admiring his leather coat. Designer labels. What could he say, he was a fan.

"Good. Really good, actually."

"Did you and Gibbs…"

Tony smiled. "Oh yeah. It's actually our one year anniversary today."

Mark nodded. "So, what, he cooks and you bring the beer? Always took you for a champagne guy. Maybe wine."

"Yeah, we have a thing. Steak and beer. Sort of tradition."

"Oh. Okay."

"Are you seeing anyone?" Tony asked. He truly did hope that after all the shit Tony had put him through, that Mark had managed to find his own happy ending.

"Actually, yeah. He's-" But Tony pretty much guessed that it was the guy walking toward them with a small shopping basket in his hands. Mostly because Mark turned to look at him as he came up, and Tony saw the look in his eyes. The same look he knew he had whenever he looked at Gibbs.

"Hey. Um, Tony, this is Shane. My…my partner. Shane, this is Tony. The one I told you about."

Shane turned to him, and no longer seeing him as a potential threat, addressed him with a smile as they shook hands. Shane was well built, around Tony's height, blonde hair, grey eyes, and with an amazing taste in clothes. Tony approved.

"So you're the guy that let Mark go. Mistake, man, I gotta say. Then again, if you hadn't let him go, I wouldn't have him, so, thanks."

Tony would have taken offense except he could hear the joke underneath their dialogue.

Mark looked well and truly happy. And that was all Tony could have asked for.

"I'm gonna head to check-out. Don't steal him away, Tony!" He gave a laugh and walked away. Mark smiled at Tony, clearly happy with the exchange.

"You happy?"

"Yeah. Very. You?"

Tony acted thoughtful. "Nah. Gibbs is an old, lazy geezer with bad taste in beer." He lowered his voice to a faux whisper and continued. "I'm only with him for his money."

Mark laughed, and out of habit, Tony quickly glanced around, as if expecting Gibbs to appear. He even cringed in preparation for a head slap. Of course it didn't come.

"Thought you said he didn't have money. Only alimony payments."

Tony grinned. "Yeah well, I have very expensive taste as well."

"I remember."

"Yeah."

"Has he unpacked the Master bedroom yet?"

"Yeah. We did it together. About three months ago. Left up some pictures though."

"In the bedroom?"

"Well yeah. I want Shannon to know I'm taking good care of him."

Mark guffawed loudly.

"What about Kelly's room?"

"We're working on it. Baby steps, you know. I mean, she must have had seventeen million stuffed animals. Gibbs wants to donate them to a charity or something. Though, twenty-four years' worth of dust will have to be removed first."

"So, you got everything worked out?"

"Most of the kinks. Left the good ones, though." He raised an eyebrow, lips maneuvering into a quirky smile. "I accept that they'll always have a place. It's just now… I know I do too."

"I'm happy for you, Tony."

"Thanks."

"Oh, that's Shane." Tony turned, and sure enough the man in question was waving to Mark from the door. "Guess we're heading out. I'll see you around Tony."

"Yeah. See you around."

They shared another non-awkward hug, and Mark walked away.

Tony knew the chances of them ever actually seeing each other again were very slim, but he was glad that it was a relationship that hadn't ended badly. He could almost say they were friends. Almost.

.

You want a body, that's okay

To get off the streets

In my bed you can stay

In your soft, warm sheets

But if you want to have all that

You need to hear…

.

His phone buzzed from his pocket, and he flipped it open. Gibbs. Again. He sighed, but smiled. He was a frustrating bastard. But he loved him anyway. Tony whistled happily to himself as he made his way to the counter.

Life was good.

..

"Love me less, but love me a long time."

..

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A/N: Okay, so this was the last part. I'm done! With this story at least.

I don't know if I'm entirely happy with the way this turned out, so if you have comments, praise, positive criticism, or whatnot, please let me know. Feedback is great. (Subliminal message: reviewreviewreview)

There were so many ways I could have gone with this final part, and I like this one, but I am never really satisfied with my work. I hope you guys liked it!

The song used was once again from the film Les Chansons d'Amour. So I translated the lyrics from the French again. The song used is called J'ai Cru Entendre, which basically means I Thought I Heard.

The song is sung by two people. The italics are one guy and the bold italics are the other guy. I highly recommend the movie if you're looking for a gay film. It isn't really, but there are two guys who get it on. S'all I'm sayin'.

The quote at the very end in italics is also from the movie, and I really felt that it fit the situation. Tony should love Gibbs less than Shannon (which was very intense) but love him for a long time. Basically a short fused love or a long, simmering love.

Disclaimer: NCIS is the property of Donald P. Bellisario and Don McGill.

Disclaimer: Les Chansons d'Amour is the property of Christophe Honoré.

For the interested, a link to the song: (just remove the spaces)

http : / www . you tube . com / watch?v = UkN P0Lb HgKE & feature = related

And the lyrics in French:

Mon petit depuis ce matin
J'ai traine comme un cretin
Au niveau du caniveau
de Montparnasse a Chateau d'Eau
j'ai bu des verres, des verres, et puis des verres
Zubrowska, Riesling, Piper
A court de tout a bout de moi
Je suis revenu chez toi
Moi je voulais juste un corps
je cherchais seulement des bras
un lit de reconfort des delices sous les draps
mais helas au lieu de ca
J'ai cru entendre Je t'aime
J'ai pense c'est son probleme
J'ai cru entendre je t'aime
J'ai pense c'est son probleme
Peu importe que tu y crois
Peu importe que je sois
A bout de moi
A court de tout
Mais pas de ca entre nous

Etre un corps je suis d'accord
T'offrir mes bras pourquoi pas
Mon lit ok encore
pour rire a salir les draps
mais je crains que pour tout ca
Tu doives entendre je t'aime
Tu doives entendre je t'aime

je suis vieux, veuf et sectaire
Un pauvre imbecile secretaire

Je suis beau, jeune et breton
Je sens la pluie, l'ocean et les crepes au citron
Tais-toi un peu petit tresor
Tu as tout faux une fois encore
J'suis tres precieux epargne moi
D'accord mais entre nous pas de ca
Etre un corps je suis d'accord
Je cherchais seulement des bras
Mon lit ok encore
des delices sous les draps
Mais je crains que pour tout ca
Tu doives entendre...