A one-shot for the Songfics challenge in xoxLewrahxox's forum: Je ne regrette rien by Cinema Bizarre.
This is Bellamort – because I just had to. Exactly 500 words, without the lyrics.
Songfics
Choose a song that you feel related to the Death Eaters and their families, or the HP world in general. Write a 100-word or 500-word drabble inspired by the song. It might be a good idea to provide the lyrics that inspired you.
We all have our secrets
They're better left unsaid
We all have our issues
That we want to forget
She was my secret. She was my weakness. And the anger it caused me I took out on her. I was getting kicks
Out of my box of tricks
I was playing with her mind
Planting bombs to get inside
My plaything – she was nothing more, she would never be anything more.
Such a beautiful game – slow and bitter-sweet – she was so beautiful in pain, with her face contracted in an useless endeavour to conceal her boiling emotions, flushed and shaking, hating the tears she could not hold back. I could read it all on her face. I tasted her tears, wiped them away softly – but their pale, wet paths I dried with a blow. It would not do if she grew too confident around me. But now my favourite toy has left
She still bears my Mark. I can still hurt her – what has changed? What can possibly change?
She is still mine.
Somehow.
And she said
She didn't speak, but I always knew how to read her eyes. No need for Legilimency – she was special.
There's no regrets
She accepted everything I gave her. She worshipped the pain –
Why's love and hate
Always step ahead
What's left
She had a heart – unlike me – and it wasn't frozen; she longed for deep, deep feelings, and they burned her inside.
Until she had nothing left to give, and she couldn't take it anymore.
Caught in betrayal
We failed
She couldn't take it. She had no more strength. She had become too weak.
I hadn't seen the limit – I had crossed the line – and my plaything was done for, a broken doll in my hands.
Je ne regrette rien
We failed
Je ne regrette rien
We had shared something.
But it is over now.
I still have a servant – what should I regret? It was all so cosy
Her world of lillipinks
Rubbing all my glitter
On my litter to sink in
They said she had lost it. I knew better than that. She still knew – she knew the world, our fight, her heart – and maybe, a little of mine.
She tried to protect herself.
But this must be an acquired behaviour. She had always walked willingly into the flame before.
She couldn't stop now. Trapped in her life, in her love, in herself.
She was sinking. Mercilessly, I played on.
Washing with the paste
She used for the glaze
I was cutting up her
Edges with disgrace
I would be her downfall. Deep down, we always knew.
As I watch her now, I wonder when. I wonder how. Someday, somehow, she will fall. Probably soon – she lost the flame, the sparkle to go on.
But now my favorite toy has left
And she said
I read it in her empty eyes as she stares at me.
I robbed her of herself – yet she would have given it willingly.
There's no regrets
Why's love and hate
Always step ahead
What's left
Caught in betrayal
We failed
Je ne regrette rien
We failed
Je ne regrette rien
There's nothing to regret – we share bitter-sweet memories. I am Jekyll when I'm Hyde
I'm a demon locked inside
Bitter-sweet.
I used to know her limits.
I used to be in control. I knew where to start, where to stop. Sweet torture. I knew how to be soft – soothing her nightmares until I could become her worst one.
I used to know her heart.
I am restless when I sleep
I'm the beauty and the beast
To her, I was a God.
Beauty is power, pain, control. I wreaked havoc in her brain. There is no beauty left inside.
She knew me
She knew what she was getting into.
A butterfly drawn into a flame.
Something died inside of her in one violent blaze.
Yet she said
Maybe I was the one to take her sanity away.
There's no regrets
Why's love and hate
Always step ahead
What's left
Caught in betrayal
We failed
Je ne regrette rien
We failed
Je ne regrette rien
We failed
Je ne regrette rien