No one knows it, but me. No one knows it because I won't... no- can't tell them. But if they knew, they would think the way I think. They would feel the way I feel. But they don't. They don't know me.
Sometimes I think even my best friends don't know me. We've known each other since we were five, and they still haven't figured it out. Maybe that's a good thing. But- I want them to know how I feel. I want them to know that one of them means much more to me than the other.
Pretty cruel, huh?
*anyone who had a heart*
It's not that I favor one over the other. It's just that- I have deeper feelings for one of them. Feelings that I never understood- until now.
It's that feeling you get when you're with him and you never want him to leave. It's when he gives you that comforting hug and you know you could stay in his arms forever.
I'm trying to sound concieted here, but- if I harbored these feelings for some other guy, he would be wrapped around me finger.
See, the thing is- I don't want "some other guy". The guy I want is my best friend. The guy I want is that guy that doesn't want me.
*would take me in his arms and love me, too*
That's what hurts the most. My feelings couldn't get any stronger, and he could care less. I don't blame him -considering I haven't told him- but, even if I did... I don't even know how he would react.
Actually, I do. I DO know how he would react.
"I'm sorry, but- I don't feel the same way."
What a bunch of crap. If I told him, I know that the aftermath wouldn't be pretty. There would be tears, maybe some yelling, and possibly some running away. But, there is one thing that I know for sure... my heart would be breaking.
*you couldn't really have a heart and hurt me*
My beast friend breaking my heart. Who would have thought?... I know I didn't. It's a hard concept to grasp, but I've learned to live with it.
I've learned how to keep my feelings for him bottled up, and I've learned how to keep my cool when I'm alone with him. It took me a while not to do or say anything that would give it away, but take it from me- I'm a pro, now.
I mean, it is hard to see him, then begin daydreaming about what it would be like to be with him- then something snaps you back to reality and then you realize- that dreams are way better then reality.
*like you hurt me and be so untrue*
God! If I was his girlfriend, I would give him everything! I would be so true to him. I mean, I haven't had a boyfriend in 2 years -all the guys I date- I tend to compare them to him. Just to let you know...
No one comes even close.
Maybe I'm too picky. Or maybe its just him that I want. Well- both could be true. Actually, both ARE true.
But let me tell you, and I'm not trying to be conceited or anything, but- any guy would be lucky to have me. And honestly, and girl would be happy to have him.
*anyone who had a heart would love me too*
You know what, maybe I AM being to picky. Maybe I should just get over him and move on to someone better. Someone who I know would be there for me.
Well- maybe not. 'Cuz if I did move on to someone else, I know he would be there for me- but I wouldn't be there for him. And I wouldn't want to do that to anyone.
And besides- no one is better than my best friend.
Maybe there is. Maybe I just haven't found him yet. Maybe I've been so stuck on my best friend that I've been too naive to look.
*anyone who had a hear would take me in his arms and love me too*
Maybe I should just tell him. Yah- I will...
"Hey!" I greeted as he sat down
"Hey" He replied, "so what's up?"
"Well actually, I have to tell you something." I said in all seriousness
"Sounds important. Shoot!"
"Well- I don't know exactly how to say this, so I'm just gonna say it" I paused (probably for dramatic effect) "Gordo, I- I- I'm falling in love with you." I finished weakly
"Whoa- Miranda" He began. I prepared myself for heartbreak "You're my best friend but, I'm sorry- I don't feel the same way."
And there it was. Everything all roled into one. Some tears, but no yelling, a little bit of running, and a whole lot of my heart breaking.
*why won't you*
::from laney
hola! it was an m/g fic, but they didnt end up together... maybe i'll continue it with other song fics and EVENTUALLY get them together... should i?
i got this idea when i was watching american idol 2. kimberly sang it n i thought it was cute! just do you know... ruben is gonna kick @$$!!! excuse my language =\
Sometimes I think even my best friends don't know me. We've known each other since we were five, and they still haven't figured it out. Maybe that's a good thing. But- I want them to know how I feel. I want them to know that one of them means much more to me than the other.
Pretty cruel, huh?
*anyone who had a heart*
It's not that I favor one over the other. It's just that- I have deeper feelings for one of them. Feelings that I never understood- until now.
It's that feeling you get when you're with him and you never want him to leave. It's when he gives you that comforting hug and you know you could stay in his arms forever.
I'm trying to sound concieted here, but- if I harbored these feelings for some other guy, he would be wrapped around me finger.
See, the thing is- I don't want "some other guy". The guy I want is my best friend. The guy I want is that guy that doesn't want me.
*would take me in his arms and love me, too*
That's what hurts the most. My feelings couldn't get any stronger, and he could care less. I don't blame him -considering I haven't told him- but, even if I did... I don't even know how he would react.
Actually, I do. I DO know how he would react.
"I'm sorry, but- I don't feel the same way."
What a bunch of crap. If I told him, I know that the aftermath wouldn't be pretty. There would be tears, maybe some yelling, and possibly some running away. But, there is one thing that I know for sure... my heart would be breaking.
*you couldn't really have a heart and hurt me*
My beast friend breaking my heart. Who would have thought?... I know I didn't. It's a hard concept to grasp, but I've learned to live with it.
I've learned how to keep my feelings for him bottled up, and I've learned how to keep my cool when I'm alone with him. It took me a while not to do or say anything that would give it away, but take it from me- I'm a pro, now.
I mean, it is hard to see him, then begin daydreaming about what it would be like to be with him- then something snaps you back to reality and then you realize- that dreams are way better then reality.
*like you hurt me and be so untrue*
God! If I was his girlfriend, I would give him everything! I would be so true to him. I mean, I haven't had a boyfriend in 2 years -all the guys I date- I tend to compare them to him. Just to let you know...
No one comes even close.
Maybe I'm too picky. Or maybe its just him that I want. Well- both could be true. Actually, both ARE true.
But let me tell you, and I'm not trying to be conceited or anything, but- any guy would be lucky to have me. And honestly, and girl would be happy to have him.
*anyone who had a heart would love me too*
You know what, maybe I AM being to picky. Maybe I should just get over him and move on to someone better. Someone who I know would be there for me.
Well- maybe not. 'Cuz if I did move on to someone else, I know he would be there for me- but I wouldn't be there for him. And I wouldn't want to do that to anyone.
And besides- no one is better than my best friend.
Maybe there is. Maybe I just haven't found him yet. Maybe I've been so stuck on my best friend that I've been too naive to look.
*anyone who had a hear would take me in his arms and love me too*
Maybe I should just tell him. Yah- I will...
"Hey!" I greeted as he sat down
"Hey" He replied, "so what's up?"
"Well actually, I have to tell you something." I said in all seriousness
"Sounds important. Shoot!"
"Well- I don't know exactly how to say this, so I'm just gonna say it" I paused (probably for dramatic effect) "Gordo, I- I- I'm falling in love with you." I finished weakly
"Whoa- Miranda" He began. I prepared myself for heartbreak "You're my best friend but, I'm sorry- I don't feel the same way."
And there it was. Everything all roled into one. Some tears, but no yelling, a little bit of running, and a whole lot of my heart breaking.
*why won't you*
::from laney
hola! it was an m/g fic, but they didnt end up together... maybe i'll continue it with other song fics and EVENTUALLY get them together... should i?
i got this idea when i was watching american idol 2. kimberly sang it n i thought it was cute! just do you know... ruben is gonna kick @$$!!! excuse my language =\