Welcome To My Life

Dark Libra 09: This is a one shot about how Yugi truly feels. At least this is how I think he thinks. Hope you like. It is a song fic to Welcome To My Life from Simple Plan

Hey there. Have you felt so alone you want to die right here, right now? I have. I do. It hurts. I hide from the world now. Yami and the others are downstairs. They don't know how I feel. They don't even care do they? No. No they don't.

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Do you feel like breaking down?

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They talk about things I don't even know about. They can talk about things so easily like the latest crushes in Tea's case, Joey talks about nutrition and food class, Tristan talks about this hot girl, Yami...Yami talks about things that only the others can understand. I zone out...where I go-

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Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

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I go to my world. My happy place. When I try to talk to them they all look at me funny. I talk about politics, school which I thought we all could understand. An invisible mask covers my face and I smile happily at them. "Sorry." I say.

"It's okay Yugi. We understand." Tea tells me. How much does she really understand. She can't even see beyond my mask.

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And no one understands you

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I hide in my room most of the time. I hate my life sometimes, no. Most of the time I do. No one ever understands. People pretend to understand and pretend to care. I don't think they do. Sometimes I wish I could just leave but I have to much here to live for or...do I? I constantly question myself and my judgement.

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Do you ever want to run away?

Do you lock yourself in you room?

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I love music. I blare the music so high no one ever hears me scream, cry and hollar my anger out at the top of my lungs. My eyes sting with fresh tears ready to fall. I've lost my friends. No one knows what it's like to be me.

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With the radio turned on so loud

That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels alright

You don't know what it's like

To be like me...

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I'm lost in my own mind. Where do I belong. Everything hurts now. I have no joy to look foreward to. Yami walks in.

"Yugi?" He looks at me. I try to hide my tears and pretend to not notice, try to be focused on my music and only my music. He turns it down. "Yugi." This time his voice is cold and harsh. It snaps me out of my world. I look at him as if to ask 'What?' He sits down and places a hand on my shoulder. "Something is wrong my light."

"Nothings wrong." I lie. I lie to him. My other half.

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To be hurt, to feel lost

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"Yes there is. I'll talk to you about this later. I have to keep our guests busy." He leaves shutting of the light. I'm surronded in darkness. I shutter.

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To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

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He left me alone. He would never use to do that to me. He would try to talk to me. Maybe I gave him the cold shoulder. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Joey walks in this time with Tristan. They look angry.

"Talk to us Yug!" Joey picks me up by the colar. "Come on man!" He throws me back down on the bed. At least it was a soft landing. "Yami said somethin' was up." His voice becomes warm again and he fixes the colar of my shirt as if to say sorry.

"Yugi...you can tell us." Tristan says. He has no intention of listening.

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To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

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"Come on Joey. He's not going to tell us. Reluctantly Joey leaves with Tristan giving me a solom smile. Have I dug myself into a hole?

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And no ones there to save you

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No. No one will ever understand. I don't want them to. They think I'm strong. I'm weak.

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No you don't know what it's like to be me

Welcome to my life

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Have you ever wondered what life would be like if you were rich? I do. What if I was like Kaiba? Would life be better then if I was the 'King of Games'? I guess I'll never know. Whenever my friends and I get together I feel so left out of the things they can discuss. I'm differen't. But they're-

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Do you wanna be somebody else?

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They're all the same. They all think the same. Want to do the same things. Like the same things. Me, I feel so alone and scared sometimes. I'm always searching for something I fear I'll never find. Always looking before my time on earth reaches the end of the thin thread. I cut myself. Did you know that? I cut myself. It takes away the pain momentarily. No one knows and no one bothers to ask where I got the cuts on my arms.

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Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more

Before your life is over?

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I like my own world, but lately...it's just so hard to escape and I'm learning to hate it for that. I know it's not it's fault, only mine. Everyone seems to think I'm okay. Don't they know I hurt and bleed too? Don't they know I want to be happy as much as the next person. I pull a knife from my drawer. Crusted blood is over it.

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Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

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They tell me that everything will be okay. Yeah right. Not everything can be okay.

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While deep inside your bleeding

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels alright

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I cut. The pain in my heart goes away. I like this feeling of my blood leaving me. It makes me that much closer to death.

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You don't know what it's like

To be like me...

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They tell me everything is going to be okay. It won't ever be okay. I'm scared of who I am. I never used to have to deal with all of this crap. The worlds safety always rests on my shoulders. I hate this life. I hate what I have to do. I'm no hero though I'm hailed as one by some. They all lie. That's all every one ever does. Lie. Stab in the back and switch sides.

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No one ever lied straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

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Everyone thinks I'm happy most of the time. That I'm okay and I'll be fine. That I'm just going through emoitional stages. They're wrong. They always get what they want. Why can't I just be happy?

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You might think I'm happy

But I'm no gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what

you wanted

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I cut too deep and scream. Tears fall from my eyes as warm arms wrap around me. My world goes black. Please let me die? Please?!

Dark Libra 09: Did you like it? I hope you did. Peace out. Tell me if I should continue...