Dedicated to IHeartUCato who is a one-shot wonder and who I just became friends with. -Crista

I shouldn't have looked into them,

Her grayish-blue eyes reflecting her complex character,

And my frustration,

To show emotion towards her was very unlike me,

Only the strong survive and her Stiff ways will surely kill her,

Couldn't she had let someone else take it?

And why did she have to affect me?

I should have left and set my own path as planned,

But the Abnegation in me said to watch out for her,

She couldn't even keep her mind in check let alone her attitude,

Her recklessness will be her suicide,

An emotional wreck complete with stubborn for a bow,

I shouldn't be here in Dauntless; or worrying about her,

Every lash was for my own good; instructing my path,

But it's molded me into the Dauntless coward I've became,

And now I'm supposed to act Abnegation?

Talk about delayed effect,

How could I stand for another when I couldn't save myself?

What gives me the right to give love I've never received?

I've hardened myself so i wouldn't feel pain,

My cold exterior; my piercing blue eyes shouldn't melt,

The withering of Four is something I don't want to watch,

But I desperately want to see Tobias again,

The reputation I've set for myself is essential,

No one gets in so no one should be let out,

So how did she slither past my guard?

It's mockery if you ask me,

The first of my faction to be worth something in Dauntless,

And she overshadows me?

I've been overlooked too long; hidden by the belt's leather,

His shadow; his name; Eaton,

So poisonous even she's not a remedy,

I'm definitely not ready for this fall,

What lies below is not a net,

It's the cold hard bottom of the chasm,

No simulation can prepare me for this obstacle,

Because when the truth is revealed would she still be there?

Would anyone?

There is a fine line between bravery and idiocy,

Where do I lie?

A/N :Some might say that Four is OOC, but I disagree. Four is a complex character with a hard exterior. To me, he wouldn't have accepted the fact that a girl as small as Tris can be, can make a impact in his heart. At least not right away.