This Scars Just a Fleck On My Porcelain Skin…

It had been three months since they broke up. It had been four months since Blaine joined McKinley. Kurt had moved on. So had Blaine. They were just two people who were once in love. Nothing more and nothing less.

Kurt had moved on.

So when Mr. Schue had assigned them to sing a duet together it didn't mean anything. It really didn't. Who cares if Blaine one day decided he wasn't in love with Kurt? So what if they were just meant to be friends? So what if by "just friends" Blaine had seemed to mean that they were never going to talk again. So what if they had gone from holding hands and stealing kisses to barely acknowledging each other in the halls. So what if it killed Kurt every time he saw Blaine in the halls? So what if those small smiles of acknowledgment made his day, month, year and life? They were over.

Blaine had moved on.

Blaine didn't care when Kurt sang those songs that used to tear his heart up in a million emotions. Because they didn't have that effect anymore. They truly didn't. He never noticed how Kurt's smile made little beautiful laugh lines . He didn't notice how Kurt brought his bottom lip slightly into his mouth when singing a high note. He didn't notice when Kurt wore his hair spiked up instead of down. He didn't notice how sexy it looked and how he just wanted to tangle his fingers in it and kiss Kurt just once more. He didn't notice how beautiful and pink his lips were. He didn't think about how those perfect pink lips tasted like coffee and vanilla. He just didn't notice these things anymore.

They had moved on.

So surely it was no big deal when they Blaine decided on "you're ex-lover is dead" by stars. It was just a good song. It had no deeper meaning. Of course not.

They had barely spoken in three months, not out of anger. Kurt wasn't angry, neither was Blaine. They had just separated. So when Blaine sang the first line of the song, Kurt didn't smile, no it wasn't a smile.

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,

Blaine remembered one of their first dates. They had gone to the lima bean to catch up. This was long before Blaine transferred. It was late October and it was slightly chilly out. They took their seats with their coffees. They had such an innocent love. Kurt would talk about the drama at McKinley while picking up some foam with his pink and licking it off with a smile. Blaine would talk about how hard the work at Dalton was. They'd speak and chat until they had finished their coffees. Sighing, knowing they'd have to go their separate ways yet again. Just as they had left the restaurant it started to drizzle and by the time they had gotten to their respective cars, it was by definition, pouring rain. Blaine suddenly took Kurt by the waist and looked deep into his eyes Kurt looked back with spirited curiosity and joy. In that moment Blaine kissed Kurt, in the rain. Kurt kissed back with full force. They separated and just looked at each other noses touching, feeling each other's coffee tinted breath on their cheeks. They stayed that way for a while until Blaine signed and gave Kurt a huge hug, promising to see him the next day as they went their separate ways. Kurt had always wanted to be kissed in the rain.

Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

One day during the summer Blaine has arrived at Kurt's doorstep at about 7 in the morning with a big goofy grin on his face. Kurt looked slightly annoyed but that subsided when Blaine told him that for their 5 month anniversary they were going to go on a road trip to Columbus to see Wicked. It would be about a two or three hour drive depending on the traffic and they were overjoyed to be able to spend so much one on one time with each other. The drive there was filled with singing and laughing and the consumption of sandwiches and diet coke that Blaine had brought with them. It had been one of those magical days that you remember forever. Seeing the sights, watching Elphaba on the big stage. Kurt would never forget that day.

Then Kurt's part came up. He sang the female part better than any girl could attempt of course. At least that's what Blaine thought.

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

Kurt remembered their first real fight. Blaine has been at McKinley a week. Kurt had been looking extra glum that day and Blaine had no clue why. He tried giving his boyfriend a hug and he was just pushed off. "Hey, what's the matter?" Kurt replied saying nothing was wrong, but Blaine didn't believe him. Kurt tried to walk away. "Kurt, why won't you ever open up to me? Its me, Blaine. You're boyfriend. I'm not going to judge you or hurt you. Please just tell me what's wrong." "Blaine just shut up. You have no clue." snapped Kurt. Blaine was taken aback by his boyfriend's tone. "What the fuck Kurt? I try to get you to open up, I just want you to trust me and you go into bitch mode!" Kurt looked as if he had been slapped, but quickly recoverd."I'm a bitch? Yeah well you'd be a bit of a bitch too if your mother death was six years ago today!" Kurt snapped. But his voice failed him and his eyes started to well up. He ran out of the hall before Blaine could see his true emotion. Blaine felt like an idiot, he felt horrible. He didn't even realize how cruel he was until now. They didn't speak for three days after that. Blaine tried, he tried hard but Kurt would just walk away or ignore him. After the third day they both ran into each other, quite literally in the hallway. Blaine looked into Kurt's eyes and saw how miserable he was. Kurt looked into Blaine's and saw how truly sorry he was. Blaine just whispered an "I'm so sorry Kurt". Kurt nodded his head a couple of times, eyes welling up again and tackled Blaine with a huge hug. Blaine returned it in full force and they were as strong as ever. For a while at least…

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love...

It was a Monday when Blaine ended it. Blaine didn't know what he was doing when he asked Kurt to the lima bean that day. All he knew was that he had to end it.

For Kurt.

Blaine had recently been thrown out of his home when the knowledge of Kurt and Blaine dating had been brought to William Anderson's attention via snooping through Blaine's facebook. Kurt had offered to let Blaine stay with him but he refused. He decided to move in with his aunt, who was much more open and lived much closer to McKinley anyways. Burt had recently had another heart attack, this one was slightly more serious than the other one and the chances of Burt surviving it were slim. Blaine could see Kurt deteriorating. Between Burt's sickness, college and Blaine having to sort out legal matters with his father, Kurt was fading. One day Blaine saw Kurt's smile and it just looked so forced. Then it hit Blaine. Kurt had been smiling like this for a long time. Blaine had gone on about his father and acting like it was the end of the world when Kurt's father was actually dying. Blaine hadn't realized how selfish he'd been and he knew in that moment that the only way to make Kurt smile for real again was to end it.

"Kurt. I don't know how to do this." Blaine started, Kurt's fake smile faded for a second before it came back even more stressed than before. "W-what do you mean Blaine?" Blaine took a deep breath in and spoke, trying to sound convincing. "What I mean is. I don't know how to tell someone that I've stopped loving them." Kurt's world stopped in that moment. Nothing mattered anymore except those words that had fallen so easily off Blaine's tongue. "Are you breaking up with me?" Kurt said, suppressing tears, trying to keep his calm, but in reality was wondering how in a moment his whole world could crash down on him. Blaine wanted to take everything back, he wanted to apologize and just hold hurt for the rest of his life. But he didn't. "Yes. I hope we can still be friends." That had done it for Kurt. He laughed a short, sarcastic laugh, tears feely pouring down his face, not caring what the people in the coffee shop thought. "Yeah. We can still be friends" assured Kurt, trying to sound convincing but failing . Then he just ran out of the shop, sobs breaking the sound barriers of Blaine's soul. But Blaine didn't go after him. He knew it was for the better, even if it did feel like it was for the absolute worse.

Live through this, and you won't look back...

The weeks after the breakup had been a blur for both the boys. They didn't acknowledge each other in the halls; they sat at opposite ends of the room during glee club. Blaine considered transferring but he couldn't bring himself to not see Kurt everyday, no matter how hard it was to see his porcelain face and not be able to kiss it, not be able to hold his fragile body and save him from the pains of the world. Blaine knew if he could just have Kurt get over him, Kurt would be able to be himself again. He wouldn't be burdened with Blaine and his problems anymore.

Then they both joined in for the last verse.

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over

This was it. This was the closure. All those months Kurt spent thinking about Blaine. From their first sight in the staircase to their first kiss over Pavarotti's grave. From their first date at breadsticks as official boyfriends to their first 'I love you s" spoken in the lima bean. The months they spent cuddling and watching movies, the cuddles that escalated into heated make out sessions that lead to their first time together. Kurt had never regretted giving himself to Blaine. All those months Kurt had spent after their breakup, analyzing every facial movement Blaine made around Kurt, trying to find a deeper meaning in his words when there was none. They were over.

Kurt had moved on.

From the first time Blaine took Kurt's hand, telling him it was a shortcut, but in reality it made them the last ones there. From the time when they sang Baby its Cold Outside and Blaine realized how perfectly their voices meshed together. From the time Blaine had rejected Kurt out of fear for losing what they had. From the time Blaine drunkenly woke up in Kurt's bed and feeling like he was home, or that he would be if Kurt was wrapped in his arms. From their sexy lessons where all Blaine wanted to say was that Kurt was sexy, so sexy when he didn't try, but didn't because he didn't want to give Kurt the wrong idea. From their first kiss where he was so scared because Kurt wasn't kissing him back and he was scared that he was just another Karofsky and then, whoa. Kurt kissed him back full on, their tongues met with no battle for dominance and then they separated. Both were blushing as they went in for a second kiss. Baby penguin my ass thought Blaine. When Kurt had told Blaine he was leaving Dalton and Blaine refused to cry until Kurt left his dorm room because now he felt truly alone. When he sang somewhere only we know and saw how happy Kurt was, he realized that he'd sacrifice anything to make Kurt happy. And he finally was able to accept that he had done the right thing for Kurt.

Blaine had moved on.

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

And for once Kurt truly wasn't sorry. He wasn't sorry his dad was in the hospital, he wasn't sorry that he will probably never make it in New York, he wasn't sad that he'd never truly fall out of love with Blaine. Because for once, Kurt was truly happy and had no regrets. So he smiled, and for once it was real.

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

When Blaine looked into Kurt's eyes he saw him smile, truly for once in his life. He saw the twinkle in Kurt's eyes. He saw the pure emotion that made him fall in love with Kurt that first time. He saw their past, their present and their future.

Maybe there is something to save after all.

a/n Hi! This could be a oneshot but if enough people want me to continue it I'd love for some prompts. Kthanks!