This will be my attempt at writing yaoi. I've read a few between Natsu/Gray and though the storyline is always good, the way one of them is always portrayed as the more feminine in the relationship seriously irks me. Some of the pet names make me gag also, lol. I've decided that for what I'm going for, them being bisexual and in joint relationships will be the best. These are all consenting adults who live separately...they are all just fully aware of the situation. The lyrics are from Hold Each Other by A Great Big World and Wildest Dreams by Taylor Swift.

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"speaking"

thoughts

~*~*CH1*~*~

"Hi. My name is Lucy Heartfilia. I'm a Fairy Tail celestial wizard and member of Team Natsu. Needless to say our relationships within the team are...well, complicated. Very, complicated. Oh, maybe I should explain a bit more about my teammates first? Well, first there is Natsu Dragneel, the fire dragon slayer wizard who also happens to be my boyfriend. He has a fiery temper and a heart of gold...even if he is reluctant to admit it. Next is Gray Fullbuster, an ice make wizard who is seeing Juvia Lockser. Under his cool guy exterior is a man who is loyal to his friends and ready to help at any moment.

Juvia and I get along fabulously...especially since she has decided that I'm not after Gray anymore. We spend a lot of time together...since Natsu and Gray are also seeing each other. Yeah, it's kind of strange to share my boyfriend with another guy...but they have some fetish's that I'm just not going to try to fulfill and neither is Juvia. It's nice though to share the responsibilities of a relationship with Natsu, mainly when one of us is having issues with him we can talk to each other about it and help each other out...because let's face it, he is a handful and can be rather dense about things sometimes.

It all really came down to them trying to take out their frustrations with each other on Juvia and I...in the bedroom. That side of them is just too intense for either of us, lol. Really though, if we weren't completely aware of what was going on...you would never know by seeing them together. They are exceptionally private about what goes on between them. It is cute though to see them smile at each other and the occasional bro hug that lasts a second longer than it should. Oh, I'm getting way off track now aren't I."

Anyway, the next member of our team is Erza Scarlet...also known as Titania who uses requip magic. She has some amazing armors that allow her to be really versatile with her magic. Erza comes across as scary when you first meet her, but really she is a wonderful person who acts like an older sister to everyone in the guild...especially Gray and Natsu. She has kind of a complicated relationship with Jellal Fernandes who is a member of Crime Sorciere. I hope they can get things worked out, cause you can tell they truly care about each other.

Our youngest team member Wendy, is probably the most normal one of us at this point. She is a sky dragon slayer, so she is kinda like Natsu...but her magic is based around air and healing instead of fire and destruction.

Um...let's see what else? Oh, I can't forget about Happy and Carla. They are Exceeds who use Aera magic to fly! Happy lives with Natsu and Carla lives with Wendy. I'm not sure what the deal is with Exceeds and dragon slayers, but they seem to gravitate to each other. Anyway, I think it's time for a boy's night...so I'm going to invite Juvia and the other girls at Fairy Hills to the bath house with me. We could all use a night of pampering...oh I'm excited! It's gonna be so much fun! Later!"

Something happens when I hold her,
She keeps my heart from getting older,
When the days get short and the nights get a little bit colder.

"Apparently, Lucy decided that her and Juvia need a 'girls' night or something. That's what she usually does after she gets sick of my 'moodiness' as she calls it. I guess trying to be gentle with her causes me to bottle up a lot of excess energy... after a while, it does get frustrating to have to restrict myself with her. She is a lot of fun to be with though and she's a great friend, too.

It took me a while to figure out that sometimes I need to be with someone who can take care of themselves. Who doesn't need me to save them, coddle and comfort them. Who doesn't take my bullshit and can give as good as they get. The only girl at Fairy Tail who falls under all that is Erza...and that sure as hell ain't happening. She's like the mean sister I never wanted. Frankly, it was Lucy who suggested it after all. Apparently, everyone else could see the tension, long before Gray and I did.

I can't remember where I'm from,
All I know is who I've become,
That our love has just begun like ohhh.

That's what I like most about what I've got with Gray. We can be as rough as we want and we'll put up with way more shit from each other than the girl's will. Trusting each other makes it that much better. Granted it took us a while to get there. We can be lewd and crude to each other in the middle of whatever we're doing and not get pissed off about it, even though it's usually the popsicle who gets mad. We can argue and fight and still have each others back in a second. We can be completely honest with each other too!

After we all got on the same page, it's made all our relationships that much better. Each of us have someone to talk to when the other one is getting under our skin...though honestly I think Gray and Lucy talk way more about me than Juvia and I do about Gray, though I'm not sure how much Lucy and Juvia talk about Gray and I. I suppose I should go find Gray and see if he's in the mood for a guy's night."

"Well, Lucy just showed up at the guild and invited all of us girls out for the evening. Gray told me that he figured Lucy would declare a 'girls' night soon. They quit missions last week cause of the conflicts between the boys and Natsu and Gray's arguments at the guild have been getting worse this past week, so I'm sure a night out will be the best for all of us. It will be nice to get together with the other girls in the guild. I'm sure we'll go out to eat, then to the bath house, maybe watch some movies, share some gossip and probably have a sleepover at Erza's since her apartment is bigger than everyone else's. Oh, I better go pick out what I'm going to wear this evening."

Everything looks different now,
All this time my head was down,
He came along and showed me how to let go.

Something happens when I hold him,
He keeps my heart from getting broken,
When the days get short and the nights get a little bit frozen.

"That damn flamebrain is always in such a rush. As though we all don't have responsibilities to deal with on a daily basis...I shouldn't have to remind him of them so often. It's hard not to wonder sometimes what it is that Lucy sees in him. I know what I see in him, just like what he sees in me...but I know that those qualities we appreciate in each other are of no interest to the girls. Man, I'm sure we all need therapy. Well, I better get things wrapped up so that pyro doesn't come in and try to completely monopolize my attention prematurely. Especially since a 'girls night' generally turns into a 'guys weekend'."

ORIGINAL POSTING DATE: November 20, 2015

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