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AN: I'm not quite sure what this is...it sort of just came to me...I hope it makes sense cos it is a little bit random...let me know what you think! Please?
Guilt.
That is all she feels.
Guilt for the fact that even though Ginny is quite possibly her best girl friend, she still has feelings for Ginny's ex boyfriend.
Guilt for the fact that even though Ron is quite possibly the best boyfriend, she can't help but wish that it's his best friend that is saying that he loves her.
Guilt for the fact that even though the Mr and Mrs Weasley are the next best thing to her in terms of family, and they think of her as Ron's future wife, she can't help but hope that she doesn't make it.
Guilt for the fact that whenever Bill and Charlie refer to her as Ron's girlfriend and Harry's best friend, she can't help but switch the two in her mind so that she is Harry's girlfriend and Ron's best friend.
Guilt.
That is what she craves to feel.
Guilt when Ginny begs her to tell Harry how she feels and let her deal with Ron.
Guilt when Ron tells her all he wants is for her to be happy, and if she is happy with his best friend, who is he to get in the way of that?
Guilt when Mr and Mrs Weasley tell her that they hope she will be Harry's future wife instead.
Guilt when Bill and Charlie introduce her as Harry's girlfriend and Ron's best friend.
But she can't. She can't help but feel anything but guilty when Harry smiles at her. She can't help but feel anything but guilty when Harry kisses her. She can't help but feel anything but guilty when he tells her he wants to spend the rest of his life with her.
When she wakes up in the middle of the night, woken by the same dream with her husband snoring lightly next to her, she can't help but feel a teeny tiny bit guilty.
Guilty because she doesn't feel the slightest bit guilty that she still dreams about Ginny's husband.
Guilty because she doesn't feel the slightest bit guilty that she is love with her husband's best friend.
Guilty because she doesn't feel the slightest bit guilty that even though she is Ron's wife, she still wishes she wasn't.
Guilty because she doesn't feel the slightest bit guilty that that whenever Bill and Charlie refer to her as Ron's wife and Harry's best friend, she can't help but switch the two in her mind so that she is Harry's wife and Ron's best friend.
Oh she feels guilty all right. Just not for the reasons that she should.