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Date: 9/24/01 4:30:53 PM Eastern Daylight Time
From: XvTheChosen0nevX
To: XvTheChosen0nevX


It was moving day.
Onto College.
Carefully she walked into the attic looking around.
A picture of Buffy.
Xander,her and Jesse.
A valentine from Xander.
The tears stung her eyes.
He gave her one every year.
Because they were always valentineless.
Then the year Buffy came..
They just stopped coming.
She never got one.
She saw him buy one.
Assumed it was for her.
It proved he never changed.
But he gave it to Buffy.
She remembered crying all night long.
She placed the box down.
She picked up another box but it caved in.
She slowly got on her knees picking up the stuff.
Then her heart stopped.
She picked up Lisa Lou..her favorite barbie doll.
She got it for her 5'th birthday from her grandmother.
That was back when Xander belonged to her.
She unwrapped the precious doll carefully with great pride.
It had red hair and green eyes just like her.
She smiled with pride.
But with a blink of an eye Xander took it from her.
She ran after him screaming.
"Give me her back!"
When she started to cry he gave Lisa Lou back.
She looked at him and yelled.
"You not my boyfriend anymore!"
Willow smiled at the precious doll.
The day Xander didn't belong to her.
He never actually did.
She let everyone go.
Like when she let Tara go.
Let her be her own person.
That wasn't true.
She was leving for JR. year at NYU.
Buffy was dead,what was keeping her hear?
She felt the tears flow.
Remembering the day Xander said he loved her.
She was in Coma, she had woken but he entered.
She kept her eyes shut as she heard those words she waited so long to here.
But everything would mess up.
People would get hurt.
Exspecially her.
So she did the only thing she could think of.
She called Oz's name.
From under her lids she could never forget the look on Xanders face.
Willow put the barbie back.
Crawling into a corner and cryed.
It shouldn't bother her.
Because she didn't love him anymore.
But the problem was.
She still did.