Today had been an immensely long and terrible day.
Everyday was.
I sighed and hoped out of my truck, noticing the moving van coming past followed by three different cars I couldn't make out. I sighed. More people.
More people for me to be terrified of.
To laugh at me.
To judge me.
I couldn't bear the thought and it took all I had left in me to not immediately run up to my room and find 'my' blade, press it to my neck and…
I shook my head. No. Do it for Charlie.
You would think I would blame Jacob for this. I don't. It's my fault.
You see he comes at me with a knife and makes it seem as if I do it.
As if.
I have enough problems.
Like the fact he beats me senseless.
I sigh and walk up to my room and hurry out before he gets here. I pray Billy and Charlie will be here so he won't hurt me. As much.
I walked over to my special clearing in the forest, sat down, and turned on my iPod.
I close my eyes and lean against a tree as Fix You by Coldplay comes on.
"When you try your
best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what
you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in
reverse.
And the tears come
streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't
replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it
be worse?" I sang.
"Lights will guide
you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream, down
your face Tears stream, down on your
face Lights will guide you home
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears
stream down your face and I...
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream
down your face and I...
And
ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you."
My heard jerked up in alarm. I saw a guy leaning on a tree with messy bronze hair and emerald eyes. My eyes went wide.
"You have beautiful voice," He said coming closer.
No. Nothing about me is beautiful and I can't let this guy give me hope.
I shook my head and began sobbing.
"What? I'm sorry. Please, don't cry I really didn't mean to offend you," the guy comforted pulling me into an embrace.
It made my bruises hurt and I yelped out in pain. I stood up and met his worried expression.
"Don't kid yourself. Nothing about me is beautiful," I said then I ran away.
"Wait! Come back!" He said chasing me.
The Next DayEdward's Point Of ViewMy thoughts swirled around the mysterious girl I had met yesterday.
She was so beautiful.
I longed to comfort her and protect her from whatever dared to cause her any harm.
Then I pulled into the school parking lot the next day I saw her.
She was limping and trying to clutch her arm inconspicuously.
Then I saw a group of nasty looking girls approach her.
"Hey it's the emo freak," They said and they pushed her to the ground.
I got out of my car and raced over to her.
"Don't you dare touch her again," I said menacingly to them.
I reached over and helped the frail beautiful girl up.
"Hello," I said smiling at her.
"H-H-hi," she stuttered, which I found inevitably cute as she blushed.
"I'm Edward how about you?"
"I'm Bella Swan," she said.
"Are you okay?" I asked her.
"I-I-I-I'm fine but I think you should stay away from me," she warned.
"What? Why?" I asked.
"For your safety," she said, more like mumbled and walked off.
"Wait!" I called pulling her sleeve.
As a result of doing so, her arm was showed were there were many scares and bruises.
"Wh-what happened?" I asked her.
"N-nothing, j-just leave me alone!" She yelled and ran away.
I hadn't seen her the rest of the day. How could she hurt herself? She was so beautiful…did she not see that?
These thoughts ran through my head all through dinner.
"Edward, are you okay?" My mother asked me.
"Yes, I'm fine," I said giving her a promising smile.
Little while later I decided to go for a walk. I decided to go to the clearing I met the beautiful Bella in.
I was disappointed when she wasn't there but then I noticed something stuck to the tree she was leaning against the other day and…blood? I gasped and ran over to the tree.
Dear whoever cares enough to be reading this,
I am sorry for causing all who cared about me pain. I however cannot bring myself to regret my most recent decision. I know. I'm selfish. I didn't think of how this would affect others.
But I did. That's what pains me the most…and it makes me almost regret my decision. But I see you guys getting over me. I was nothing special. I'm really sorry If by doing this I'm hurting anyone.
I just suck to the end, don't I?
Charlie, I'm really sorry I don't want to hurt you but I can't live like this. Please forgive me. I love you.
Bella Suicide Swan
What? No! I will not let her die! I ran over to the edge of the clearing and followed the paths of blood.
I found myself near some cliffs and Bella. Alive. I breathed I sigh of relief. She was at the edge as if she were contemplating if she had the nerve.
"Don't Bella!" I yelled.
She gasped and turned around as I took in her battered form. She had scars everywhere and her beautiful face was pale.
"I'm sorry Edward," She said closing her eyes, "but you can't stop me. I need this."
"No!" I yelled she winced a smidge so I lowered my voice, "Please, let me show the reasons to live. Let me prove to you that life is worth living, Please."
"I can't do this," she said wiping tears from her eyes.
"Yes, you can just let me help you," I begged.
"You'll only see me for the disgusting thing I am," she sighed taking a step closer to the edge.
"No! Don't!" I yelled.
"Goodbye Edward," she said taking that fateful drive below her.
I jumped in after her and with the assistance of an adrenaline managed to get her back on the shore…
Preview:"Just Listen For A Moment," he said trying to calm me.
"How? How am I supposed to? You're letting her decide her fate? She's going to choose death! Anyone can tell you that!" I yelled in rage.
"Thirty Days," he said.
"What?" I asked.
"We're giving her thirty days,"
"For what?"